Battle Born

"Hey sweetie, do you know if your dad's still here?" Jason asked me once I came back down stairs with my bags.

"Uhm, he might be, he usually doesn't leave till around 10 on the weekends, after I've fixed him breakfast" I answered back seeing him think to himself and look to Jeremy who nodded.

"I'll be back guys" he spoke before jogging down the hall and up the stairs.

"Why's he looking for dad?" I asked Jeremy who sighed in response.

"Well, Lil, he wants to try and see if maybe.." he trailed off looking at me with sad eyes. "I think it'd be best to ask him yourself" he said truthfully and kissing my forehead.

"Oh, okay" I muttered.

"Wait, is Brandon okay with me coming with you guys on tour?" I asked in a panic.

Jeremy chuckled and nodded, "Of course he is, Lil, you know he loves you too" he said kissing my forehead. I guess he had a point, Brandon was their tour manager who has asked if I wanted to go with them the past few times but wasn't allowed by my parents.

'I wonder if they've already asked mom and dad if I could go. Did they know I'd be living with Jeremy afterwards? Did they even care to think about it before answering? Did they even care at all?.' I thought to myself as we waiting for Jason to come back down to the living room. About 20 minutes later he came back down with my dad who looked actually happy for once.

"Alright, Lillian" dad spoke to me.

"Dad it's Lilith" Jeremy said in frustration.

"No, it's Lillian now" he argued back.

"Why?" Jeremy groaned.

"Because Lilith is the name of a demon who seduced Adam before Eve came along" my dad spoke back sternly.

Jeremy groaned, "Dad are you serious? What does that have to do with Lilith? You guys gave her that name and it was ages ago anyways. Besides she never seduced him, she was his first wife." he gestured towards me furrowing his brows.

"Anyways, as I was saying; Jason has requested to claim you as his own child. I said that would be great" dad said happily looking at me.

'What?' I thought to myself shocked holding back tears.

"You-you don't want me anymore?" I stuttered feeling a slight twinge in my heart.

'My parents hate me that fucking much?'

"Well, sweetheart, you see the thing is, we just can't handle it at the moment. Your mother and I feel that we're being kind of tied down and can't really be happy when we have to worry about taking care of a child" he said truthfully that not only completely shattered my heart, but started to boil my blood.

'TIED DOWN?! THEY CAN'T BE HAPPY BECAUSE THEY HAVE TO RAISE ME?! THEY'RE GONE AT ALL HOURS OF THE DAY NOT GIVING A DAMN TO SEE IF I'M SAFE OR NOT' I thought angrily.

"Dad, you must be joking. Lilith has never been in your way" Jeremy spoke standing up for me. I heard a door open then close and I turned to see my mother walking in strutting herself like she would on the red carpet. She smiled widely and squealed once seeing Jeremy.

"My big rock star! You've come home to see mommy again!" She exclaimed going to hug him. He surprisingly didn't hug back. She let him go and looked at me dropping her smile then turned and walked towards my father.

"Hello honey, what's going on?" She asked my father and he smiled again.

"Lillian's going on tour with them and Jason wants to claim her as his own!" He said clapping happily. I rolled my eyes as I started to fell them well up more.

"Oh that's wonderful news! Now we can finally go on that vacation to Fiji like we've been wanting to! Of course you can have her Jason, thank you!" She exclaimed excitedly hugging him and I sighed.

"You could have gone anyways since you two always leave me here on my own half the time" I said blankly looking down feeling a hot tear stray from my eyes.

"You do not talk to your mother that way, Lillian, do you understand me?" Dad said to me sternly causing me to huff in frustration.

"Sir-"

"Quiet Ivan, this doesn't concern you" my dad cut Ivan off. I saw Ivan in the corner of my eye put his hands up in defense and step back. Something inside me flared like a wild fire and I felt all my anger bubbling to the surface as I clenched my jaw.

"Dad-" Jeremy tried stepping in too.

"Hush" my father said putting his hand up at him motioning for him to back up.

"I. Said. Do you understand me, young lady" he repeated more coldly. I wiped my tear stained face before looking back up at him and my mother who were both glaring at me.

"No" I spoke blankly.

"What did you just say?" He asked shocked and I saw his features twisting to anger.

"I. Said. No" I repeated mockingly in the same cold tone. The hot tears trailing down my face were now out of anger and frustration.

"Don't speak to your father in that tone" my mother barked.

"So now you finally decide to acknowledge me? And he's not my father, not anymore. And you're not my mother" I scolded her.

"I gave birth to you, young lady, I am your mother and you will not tell me otherwise" she raised her voice slightly pointing a bonie finger at me.

"Really now? Because last time I checked, mothers don't catch their children self-harming and yell at them for getting blood on their precious newly tiled floor instead of stopping them. Yeah, you're mother of the fucking year" I reminded her of that day seeing her go wide eyed.

"What? Lil, please tell me your joking" Jeremy pleaded with sad eyes and I shook my head.

"Mom how could you do that to her?!" He yelled furrowing his brows.

"She was making a mess on the floor, Jeremy! We had just got them done, do you have any idea how much that would've stained those pearl white tiles had I not made her clean it in time? It was blood!" She whined and I was tired of being in this shitty house.

"Well you don't have to worry about it anymore, I want nothing to do with either of you" I said blankly before walking towards the door grabbing Callistos' custom batman leash on the small table in the main hallway and whistling for him. Once Callisto made it to me, I clipped the leash onto his matching batman collar and started for the door.

"Have a happy fucking life now that you no longer have anything tying you down" I yelled before walking out the door and slamming it behind me.

I sighed once I stepped outside into the warm air and headed for the trees beside my house. I went to my usual tree sitting down and leaning against it. I sat hugging my legs to my chest and let my tears flow. I didn't care anymore, I'd been holding them and my feelings back for way too long now. Bottling all my anger for my parents. I finally let it all out though.

I sighed heavily and turned to Callisto who was now sitting next to me whining and looking at me with sorrowful eyes. I allowed him to sit in my lap, though he is incredibly big, and wrapped my arms around him crying into his soft fur.

"Lil?" I heard Jeremy speak softly.

"Lilith, are you okay?" He asked stroking my hair. I shook my head with my face still buried in Callistos fur and silent tears wetting it. I heard Jeremy whistle before telling Callisto to get off. I sniffled wiping my face and stared down at my lap.

"Lil, why didn't you tell me about that?" He asked and I heard the pain in his soft voice.

"About what?" I muttered and sniffled again.

"About the self-harming incident with mom. I would've caught a plane and rushed right over" he spoke softly again but heard his voice slightly crack when mentioning self-harming.

"I didn't want to bug you with it. You were on tour with the guys and I didn't want to be more of a bother than I am when I just ask if we can skype. Plus I couldn't do that to your fans, I would feel terrible" I said frowning.

"They shouldn't have treated you that way though, Lil. I had no idea it was this bad, had I did then I would've had you live with me a long time ago"

"It's okay, Jerbear-"

"No it's not, Lil! God damn it you're my little sister, I don't want to come home one day and find out you're dead because of them and because I couldn't be there to rescue you like I swore to you I would if anything happened" he spoke cutting me off and I could hear the tears in his heart broken voice.

"Lil, why didn't you just talk to me? Why did you have to resort to hurting yourself because they ignored you? Is that why you did it?"

"You don't know what it's like.." I trailed off barely audible.

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"What what's like?" He asked confused.

"You don't know how it feels to be treated like your just a dead bug on the windshield of their life that they're trying to swipe away" I said finding my voice.

"They always loved you and believed in you"

"They loved you too Lil" he cut in causing me to raise my voice louder.

"They stopped though! They stopped caring for me and loving me and noticing me" I said as my vision blurred with more tears.

"You have no idea what it feels like to come home every day to the people who birthed you to just have them act like you don't exist or just scowl at you. You don't know what it's like to get called a demon by your own parents. You don't know what it's like to feel nothing but disappointment and shame from them when you try and try to please them. You don't know what it's like to get told they hate you when they're in a fowl mood and you've done nothing but sat in your room keeping to yourself. You don't know what it's like to only be able to turn to your dog for comfort when harming yourself can't even make you feel better. You don't know what it's like to contemplate on committing suicide because mom and dad told you you were nothing but a mistake" I cried harder and harder with each sentence till I was sobbing now.

"The only reason I'm still alive is because I didn't want to be without you. You were still the only one to love me and care for me. You're my brother and I love you, I didn't want to cease to exist otherwise I'd be without you and the other 4 idiots that I care about and enjoy spending each day with. Despite mom and dads hatred for me, I didn't want them to be the reason I never see my brother again" I said wiping my wet face and sighing feeling myself calm down a bit. I looked up at Jeremy who had tears running down his face too. I noticed one of his cheeks was red and welted.

"Jerbear, what happened to your cheek?" I asked concerned wiping his face being careful with his now swollen red cheek.

"Oh, well, after you walked out the door, I kind of yelled at mom and dad for how they've been treating you and possibly called mom a bitch earning a hard slap to the face" he said sheepishly. I gave a small sad smile and hugged him.

"Jerbear you didn't have to do that. They're gonna be mad at you for a while" I said frowning and he wrapped his arms around my shoulders.

"I don't care, Lil. You were my only purpose for even coming to this house. And until they start treating you with respect and start acting like real parents, then they shouldn't expect to see me for a while. I love you, Lily pad" he said kissing the top of my head.

"I love you too, Jerbear"

'Why couldn't my parents love me too though?'

Notes

Hey there duckies. Sorry it took longer than expected to get another chapter up. I know I said I'd have bvb in this one but as I was listening to Remember Everything and Coming Down by 5FDP the idea for this chapter came to mind so I decided to make it just that. I hope it's alright♥
I love you guys and welcome to the story!
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-MellyJelly