Chapter 5
I opened my eyes seeing a bright light all around me, and when I turned my head I saw all of my old friends. Jaynie, and Emily, They had committed suicide a few years ago because of being bullied really bad. I lived in a separate state so I could never visit them. Dominic was there too, he got killed in a car crash when I was in eighth grade. I smiled giving them giant hugs.
“Sup kid.” Dominic said. I looked at his bright blue head and smiled at him.
“Oh my god guys! I’ve missed you!”
“We missed you too!” Jaynie said with a huge smile on her face. I turned hearing an eh hem coming from behind me.
“Um we gotta go. Have fun!” Emily said giving me one last hug and Dominic punched my shoulder lightly as the three of them ran away. I turned to face the voice to see my mother and father smiling at me. Well my father was frowning but that wasn’t uncommon.
“Hi sunshine. How are you?” My mother said and I smiled at her and ran into her arms. I had missed her a lot and I bet Dani missed her too. I hadn’t gotten ahold of her since their funeral. I held on tight fearing she’d leave me if I let go.
“I’m good mama. I’ve missed you a lot.’ I said as she pulled away. I gave dad a quick hug and pulled back knowing he didn’t like physical contact. He gave me a small smile and mum began talking again.
“We’ve missed you and your sisters too. I see you’re really enjoying spending time with Jeremy and his friends. But you know you need to contact Jennifer and Tom.”
“Yeah I know mum.”
“Also you’ll need to get back to them. Their worried sick. Look.” She said and I looked to where she was pointing. I saw the black van moved away from the stone wall and people crowded around my lifeless form.
I could see Dakota crying her eyes out and Jinxx holding me in his arms. Andy was crying into Ashley’s chest. Jake was hovering over my chest trying to mend the hole that I didn’t think would ever close.
“Mama, Dad I need to go back. I love you but I need to go now.” I said and hugged them goodbye once more. “Bye.” I said phasing out of the whiteness.
******************Dakota’s POV************
I watched as Abby fell back into her brother’s arms with a giant gaping hole in her chest. Oh my god, why her? This is all my fault! Oh my god! Oh my god. I began to cry into CC’s chest who held me tightly as I wailed loudly reaching one arm out to her. I kept hearing Andy cry and Jinxx yell at Jake to do something.
I hated myself at that point. I looked up from CC’s chest to see Jake holding his hands over Abby’s chest and a white light traveling from his hands. I could have sworn you could see her heart beating and as I went to push Jake away from her CC pulled me back into his arms.
I pushed against him harshly but when I heard her cough I just stopped moving. I don’t know why but I felt like I knew her from somewhere. I get the feeling that we were really close to each other, but I don’t know how. I really liked her. She was something like a relief after the storm to me. I would never let her go again after this. I tried jumping onto her with happiness but I was held back by CC once again which made me mad.
“Asshole let me go.” I snapped pulling away from him and jumped over the seat to her. They couldn’t stop me this time. I glared at them as I took her hand in mine and whispered several words into her palm. They could hear what I was saying so that was good.
I was always a odd person. Never bound to fit in. I was a freak. Yet music helped set me free. I stopped caring what people though, especially my parents.. They hated that I wasn’t normal. They never really did care. If I did anything that made them look bad they freaked out. I didn’t want to hurt them and I vice versa. Now I could let my inner freak out.
I gripped her hand firmly and began to chant the incarnation that would help heal her. She would be precious and the world needed her. We needed more people who understood, and she will be one that will change the world.
“Sana carissimi, oportet te in mundo. Sit sanare iniuriam hanc et ossa sarcirent oculis vestris. Phasellus vitae inspires. Sic fiat aptum est.”I whispered into her hand. I heard her cough and Andy’s crying became louder when she opened her blue eyes. She forced a smile and sat up leaning back into Jinxx. I hugged her tightly making her into a squished human sandwich between Jinxx and myself. After a couple seconds, everyone joined in and it was a all-out big group hug.
When they all pulled away and Andy stopped bawling his eyes out, Abby looked at me then back at the car seat. I couldn’t take it anymore. I leapt into her arms and began to kiss her head like my mother used to do when she actually cared. I ran my hands through her hair and kept pressing kisses to her forehead.
“Thank god you’re okay.” I whispered and she laughed heartily.
“You’re acting like I’m dead dude. But I don’t mind the hugging. It makes me feel fuzzy.” She said and we all gave her a hug again.
“You technically were little Jinxx.” Ashley said ruffling her hair. I smiled holding her hand and she looked at me shocked.
“Wait what?!” She yelled and I nodded. Actually we all did. It was going to be weird.
“Yeah, You were gone for about an hour.” CC said and it became eerily silent.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Abby’s POV~~~~~~
“Yeah, You were gone for about an hour.” CC said and the van became deathly silent. I looked at each of them as they looked at me somberly, Almost as if it was a funeral. I frowned sitting up and looked at my shirt. It was covered in blood and there was the hole was still there. I picked up a red and black flannel off the floor of the van and put it on quickly as I got out of the van.
I got out of the van looking around the road fully concerned. It was quite and I could see the lights of a city in the near distance as the sun stayed up by hidden by a bypass of teas above me. I stayed silent as Jinxx got out of the car and came over to me. He smiled looking around and placed a hand on my shoulder.
“I’m glad you’re back kid. Were only 10 minutes from home.” He said looking at me. I nodded unable to feel my voice as I tried to respond. After several attempts I had failed to be able to speak and gave a reassuring smile.
“Ready to go back?” He asked taking my hand and pulling me to the car. I got in as he took the driver’s seat and we left for the house. Dakota snuggled into my side and CC kept playing with my hair. I felt loved by them as Jake hugged me and Ash and Andy would take turns making funny faces in my direction. I smiled at them softly and looked out of the broken window as the blanket they tried to fix the hole with temporarily.
It was a really quick ride to the house they had and were going to share until the next tour in a few weeks’ time. I had heard they left Warped tour early to come and get me. I thought it was nice of them even if they never met me before. I knew from following Andy’s dad on Twitter how much the shows meant to the band and to the fans. That was how they earned their money.
“Abby?” CC asked softly as the rest of them got out of the car and grabbed the bags to carry them to the house. I looked at him softly noticing how he kept fiddling with his shirtsleeve as he looked at me. “Why aren’t you talking?”; he asked quietly and I shook my head.
“Just hold on Jinxx!” Jake yelled as Jinxx kicked the front door open. I looked down at Andy who landed across my feet with a little ‘oopfh’ I reached down to him and pulled him up as Ash came over and began fussing over Andy a lot.
“Andy! Are you okay? Did you hurt yourself?” Ashley called from the porch. I turned to face them as Ashley ran over to him and picked him up. Andy just started laughing and it made me smile as Ashley began to brush him off like a lover would do. But Andy had his girlfriend Kaylee and Ashley was famous for being a man-whore.
“Yeah I’m fine Ashes.” Andy said smiling. “Come on. Let’s get inside.” Andy said grabbing my suitcase and his own bags. He sent a smile in my direction and had Dakota follow him inside. She followed groggily sending a smile in my direction and took her bag inside.
It was getting late and I knew that but still I was restless. It was like when I was 14 I had gotten hit by a car and was in a cast that went up to my thigh. I was really freaked out because It happened on October 17 and I finally got the cast on November 7th and had to keep it on for a month. I fell further into depression than I was before. I had only stopped self harming because the doctor saw old cuts that my cat had made on my thigh when they were wrapping the cast and he kept asking if I was doing it myself. I lied through my teeth several times and was afraid that they would see more if they looked. When I got the cast off my legs were uneven one fatter than the other and I began once again, this time everywhere. But I didn’t care if anyone saw then. It made me feel something. I was so broken up about not being able to do what I did before. I was told I wasn’t allowed to ski anymore and I wasn’t allowed to jump and run around like an idiot. But I disobeyed a lot. I couldn’t stand staying still and not being me.
“Hey Jinxx! Can I borrow your baby sis?” CC screamed making me wince.
“Sure! Bring her back soon!” Jinxx yelled back as Sammi pulled in.
“Thanks! Hi Sammi!” CC yelled back and took me by the arm. I followed him as he took his hand in mine and led me down the street to a riverbank. I tried talking, asking him questions but it seemed that my voice wasn’t working at all. It was like shock or something.
“Abby, Why won’t you talk to us? I’m really scared and Jake’s freaking out right now. He’s so afraid for you cause he really likes you. I havnt seen him so in love with someone before Ella. Please talk to me. You don’t have to talk to anyone else. Just please.” He said as he began to cry. I gave him a hug.
“I’m sorry.” I whispered feeling my voice break. It stopped right after I said it and I started crying. We just stood there hugging each other until we heard someone run over and pull me away from CC and press their lips against mine.

Notes

OOOOOOOO! Who kissed Abby? Will she like it?
So I'm sorry I haven't updated. I havnt had my laptop and I got hit by a car and apparently broke something after walking on it for 3 mother fucking weeks. And now I'm in a cast and its so fucking uncomfortable and I cant sleep and it goes up to my thigh. So I can't go to school because of it and I'll have to have a teacher come here to me and teach me for 5 motherfucking hours a day and I'm sorry but I'm just so freaking pissed right now.