My Saviour.

Andy carried me up the stairs to my room. He set me gently on my bed. I was hoping for him to leave and that he wouldn't ask me what happened because it was all my fault after all. If me and my big cocky mouth didn't go around sassing everyone I wouldn't have been beaten up anyway. Hell I might of even made a friend or two.
But Andy shattered that hope when he sat on the end of the bed and asked:
"Morgan, What happened? I know someone did this to you, but who and why?"
'Fucking shit fuck. Going to have to tell him and he's going to hate you for it. It's all your fault Morgan. I'm sure he doesn't even want you..' I thought as more and more dark thoughts bounced around in my mind.
"Uhmm. I- uh. I got b-beat up.. By a bunch of girls..." I whispered, then I winced from the pain in my rib area. He gave me a look of concern.
"Why did they beat you up?" He asked worriedly.
"It's all my fault really. Their 'leader' hit me in the face and called me a fag, so I called her a slut. Then she called her 'gang' and they beat me up." I confessed.
"How is that your fault then?"
"Because I called her a slut! If I kept my mouth shut they wouldn't of beat me in the first place." I said a little louder, but regretting it as I doubled over in pain.
"You need to calm down a bit, look at you. You're in agony right now. Just lay down and go to sleep, It's 1 in the morning and don't worry about school tomorrow. I'll call in saying you can't go. Sure you shouldn't of called her a slut but really they shouldn't of said anything to you in the first place let alone beat the living shit out of you. Those girls are idiots and have no idea what they are on about. You're an amazing girl and you don't deserve to be treated like this. I really do care for you Morgan and I don't want to see you like this. Stay strong and don't do anything stupid." Andy said in a soft tone. After he finished his mini-speech he kissed my cheek, ruffled my hair and then walked out the door, closing it behind him.

'He doesn't care. None does. He only feels sorry for you. Go kill yourself. That chick today was right, you need to lose some weight fattie.' My mind was on overdrive. All the dark thoughts were becoming to much and I only know one way to get rid of them. I couldn't go to sleep because my mind will just haunt my happy dreams, only leaving me more depressed and tired.
This time I had to turn to my old friend, my razor blade.

~*~TRIGGER WARNING~*~

I got up from my bed and almost collapsed onto the floor but I held onto my bed side table. After gaining my balance I shuffled into my half-bathroom, locking the door behind me. I don't need anyone walking in on me doing this to myself.
I hobbled over to my wash bag and started digging around at the bottom for my blood stained friend.
When I found it I slid down the empty wall by the sink, a little smirk playing on my lips. I was waiting for this moment to come. I gently grazed the razor across my thumb, causing a red line a appear followed by small beads of blood.
'Finally. Time to release all the pain.'
Without thinking about how to cover them up, I turned my left arm palm up and started slicing away at my skin. I forgot about how reliving it feels.
'Wore.' *Slice*
'Slut.' *Slice*
'Worthless.' *Slice* *Slice*
'Fat.' *Slice*
'Ugly' *Slice*

By the time I felt better I had completely covered my left arm in red angry marks that were bleeding so much that it started to drip down onto my skinny jeans, but I didn't care. To be honest I wasn't really thinking about the consequences about all the blood. I just wanted all the pain to end and this is the only way how too. My arms were still bleeding heavily but I didn't even make an attempted to clean any of it up.
However eventually some sense made it's way into my head, telling me that if I don't do something about all the blood coming out of all my arms I was going to die of blood loss eventually and I would rather not die in Black Veil Brides' bathroom.

I stood up, groaning in agony. I swear the pain is getting worse by the minuet.
While leaning against the wall, I managed to make my way to the sink. Almost falling in a heap of pain I turned on the water at the sink and put my arm under it. A burning sensation came from my arm because of all the cuts, I winced in more pain...

After my cuts were all cleaned up I turned off the water and placed the even more bloody blade into my wash bag.
That was it.
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'Okay. So now I need to figure out how to cover up these cuts without looking suspicious. For now my old jumper will do. Then I will need to buy some make-up to cover it all up.' I thought as I limped over to the other side of the bathroom for Andy's sweats and my old jumper. I changed into them and let me tell you, it was a struggle and a half..

While I was changing I noticed just how horrible my stomach was. It was plastered in bruises and scars. The bruises that were made today were dark grey and some even slightly blue but my older ones were just a faded grey colour. I got the older bruises from previous beatings back at the adoption place. They beat me up alot, just like they will here. And the scars... Well the scars were from about 5 years ago when I self-harmed on my stomach. Personally now I prefer to attack my thighs and wrists.
Slipping on my hoodie was a piece of cake, which surprised me. I thought it would have been the most painful but I was wrong. The pants were like living hell to get on.

I hobbled back over to the mirror, frowning at the reflection. I had a bruised nose and my lip was busted. Sighing I picked up my hair bush and started de-knotting my hair.
Once I was done I put all my dirty clothes in the laundry basket and then left the bathroom.

When I got out of the bathroom a see a very worried looking Andy, Jinxx and Ashley.

"What were you doing in there?" Ashley asked with an extremely sad look on his face.

Oh shit.

Notes

Dun Dun Dunnnnnn..

I'll probablly update again today at some point, if not tomorrow.

I will always put a trigger warning just in case because I don't want anyone harming themselfs </3

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-Oh god xD this chapter was editied on the 16/06/2014-