In the End

"Taryn, I want to leave, please," I pleaded to my best friend. She was having a great time, and it was clear she didn't want to leave. But, I wanted to go home. Andy said he loved me, and I don't know hoe to take it. "Please, Taryn."

My converse were killing my feet and I was tired. "Fine. Give me five minutes." I nodded and walked away from her, sneaking out the front door. It was dead out here, most people were most likely in the back, so it was just me sitting on the porch step.

I was sitting there, enjoying the silence. The door opened behind me, and I was hoping it was Taryn. But, I was wrong. The mystery person sat on the step next to me. "Reagan..."

It was Andy. "Reagan, listen to me. I love you, so much."

"If you love me so much, then why did you ignore me all this time, Andy? People who love each other don't do that."

"I.. I don't know. It clearly was stupid of me. I'm with Juliet, but I want to be with you."

I turned my whole body so I was facing him. "Then why aren't we together? If you want to be with me so bad, why, Andy?"

"We just can't! We can't! Okay? If we could be together, we would!"

"Why? Why can't we be together? Are you ashamed of me? What is it, Andy? Why the fuck can't we be together?"

He was getting mad. I could see it. He soon turned and faced me. "I wish we could, Reagan," he choked. He placed his tattoed hand on my cheek and I put my hand over his.

He leaned in and right as we were about to touch, the front door opened. "Let's go, Reag." Taryn was walking fast and passed right by me and Andy, and right to the car. I looked at him.

I left a kiss on his cheek and stood up to follow Taryn. But, I didn't leave without turning around real quick. "I love you, Andrew."

He gave me a half smile and I turned back around and went into the car with Taryn. We were home faster then I thought and right when she opened the door to the house, she was in her room.

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"So, Andy admitted he loves me," I quietly said to Taryn. She was spooning cereal into her mouth and drinking coffee. She looked at me with a smirk plastered across her face.

"I ship you guys."

"You sound like a thirteen year old girl on tumblr."

"Well, I do."

"Are you and CC talking?" I asked, bringing the spoon filled with the marshmallows from Lucky Charms up to my mouth. She shrugged her shoulders. "What's going on?"

"This is the first time he's went on tour since we started dating and I don't know how to take. I mean I completely trust him, but at the same time, I'm scared that he will find someone better than me. I don't know."

"Hey, at least you're not sitting here loving someone who loves you. But apparently can't date you, but is dating someone else..."

"Reagan..." She trailed off. "You better see this." She handed me her phone and I looked at the screen. "Just, he's with her."

I knew Andy was with Juliet, but I know it's probably all for publicity. I knew it was. "I don't know. He doesn't want to be with her, he said it."

I was hoping I could believe him about him not wanting to be with Juliet. I really was hoping he was telling the truth. It's just, I want to be his, I want to be the one he flaunts around. Not her.

"I'm going to take a shower," I said. I got high waisted shorts, an oversized shirt Andy left here and clean undergarments.

I turned on the water until it was steaming. I looked at myself in the mirror. I looked terrible. And taking a shower would hopefully make me feel better. I soon stripped and stepped into the burning shower. It felt so good. I loved taking long, hot showers. It's so relaxing. But, I did have stuff I wanted to do today, so I wasn't going to take that long.

When I finally finished, I dried off, wrapped a towel around myself and brushed my teeth. I ran a brush through my hair and decided to let my hair airdry. I slid on my clothes and put on a pair of black men's Vans socks (because I prefer them), and slid on my Vans.

I made my way downstairs and grabbed my car keys from the bowl. My phone was already placed in my back pocket and I looked to Taryn. "I'll be back at around three." She nodded and just continued to sit at the kitchen table.

I slammed the door behind me and made my way to my car. I don't have a job and neither does Taryn, so people don't understand how we afford a house and two nice cars on our own. We don't really like telling people how we do it. But, trust me, it's not prostitution.

But, I wanted a change, and something to get my mind off of Andy. I was currently driving to the mall, to hopefully find a job that I would be able to stand. I would work at Hot Topic, but I want to get my mind off of Andy, and that most likely wouldn't happen there.

The only other places I would be able to tolerate working at is Zumiez or Tilly's, so I'm going to both. I walked into the mall, watching my feet as I slowly walked until I reached my first destination. As I walked in to the store, I found the register to my right. The guy looked up and smiled at me. "How can I help you?" he asked.

"I was wondering if there were any job openings?" I asked with a sweet smile on my face. Okay, working with this kid wouldn't be so bad. He's hot as fuck.

"Yeah, I think there might be, let me go talk to my manager." He smiled and walked away. While he was gone, I took awhile to look at some of the stuff they have. I love Zumiez, and haven't shopped here in forever.

As I was waiting, my phone was vibrating in my back pocket. I slid it out and noticed a fairly normal number. A smiled tugged at the ends of my lips and I picked it up.

"Hello?"

"Hi, Reagan." The smile was evident in his voice.

"Hi, Andy," I began. "How's tour going?" I asked, gnawing on my bottom lip.

"Well, I mean it's only the first day. But, it's going to be a good one."

"Good." I stopped. "Did Juliet come with you?"

The line was silent for awhile. "Yeah."

"Oh."

"But, listen, Reagan, I love you, okay? I'm dead serious about it, I truly love you, and just because I'm with Juliet, I don't know."

"Do you love her?" I asked.

"No." He said. "I act like it. She thinks I do, but I really love you."

"I miss you already."

"I miss you too, but I'll be back in a month. Then we can be together."

"Yeah, in secret," I muttered.

"In secret or not, I want you to know that I love you, and I'll show you when I get back."

I smiled. "Okay. Well I have to go now, Love you."

"I love you too, Reagan, text me later."

Notes

ah fuck.