You're Not Alone (Andy Biersack Love Story) [REVISED]

I didn't go to the show. I couldn't. I just told Andy that the reason I cut was because of him. I knew his goal with Black Veil Brides was to believe in yourself and to not let anyone put you down. He would have fans every day come up to him and tell him that they saved them from committing suicide or from cutting. I told him the opposite. How was he going to handle this?

I took out her iPod and put the head phones in my ears. 'Carolyn' started playing and I began to sing along. Singing always did make me feel better.

Then I had an idea. If I wasn't going to be going to the concert, I might as well put one on myself. I connected my iPod to the iHome on the bus. I danced around the bus singing along to my favourite songs, taking long swigs from one of the many vodka bottles on the bus, probably looking like a maniac. Two hours passed like five minutes to me, because whenever I gets lost in music, I stay lost, or at least until someone interrupts me. The fuzzy feeling the excessive drinking gave me also didn't help my sense of time.

'Face Down' by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus came on and I was jumping around, singing at the top of my lungs when I bumped into something.

I turned around and looked straight into the blue eyes of Andy. I felt my heart pounding against my chest. I didn't know what to say to him.

"Nice voice you got there," Andy grinned.

"I h-have no idea what you're talking a-about," I slurred, blushing.

"Are you drunk?" he asked.

"J-just a little," I said. I was at least able to hold a conversation.

"Jesus. Melanie, we need to talk about what happened earlier," Andy said seriously.

I was about to respond, when the rest of the guys came stumbling into the bus.

"Mel, Andy, we're going to play truth or dare, you guys want to join?" CC asked.

"Sure, I guess," I said. I didn't quite understand why a group of grown men would want to play truth or dare, but I was drunk to the point where I didn't care.

Everyone took a seat on the couches. I, of course, was stuck between Andy and Ashley.

"Alright, Ashley truth or dare?" Jake asked.

"Dare, duh!"

"Okay, um, I dare you to do the saltine challenge," Jake said.

"Really dude? That's the best you got?" Ashley complained.

"Sorry, I'm not really good with dares."

Ashley got the saltines and stuffed his face. He started choking, so a new rule was set: no food challenges.

"Truth or Dare," Ashley asked Melanie.

"Um, Dare?"

"Mel," Ashley smirked, "I dare you to make out with me for two minutes. With tongue."

"Really?"

"Yep."

"Ugh, fine," I huffed.

I pivoted myself so I was on Ashley's lap and I crashed my lips onto his. Ashley slipped his tongue into my mouth and our tongues explored each other's mouths. I wasn't really enjoying the experience, but it wasn't completely dreadful. Ashley was a good kisser, but it felt empty to me. I didn't like Ashley in a romantic way, and having four other guys watching me make-out with Ashley certainly didn't make this experience any less awkward.

"Alright, time's up!" Jinxx said.

Thank God, I thought.

I squeezed back into my place on the floor and looked at Andy. He looked like he wanted to punch a wall.

"Um, truth or dare?" I asked.

"Truth."

"Whose the girl you have feelings for that wasn't Juliet?"

I could practically hear the guys take a deep breath at the same time.

"There wasn't a girl," he replied.

He looked at me, confused.

My stomach dropped. The whole room was silent.

"I'm going to go out for some air," I said to the guys.

I walked out of the bus and sat up against one of the tires. I wanted to cry so badly. He told Juliet that there was someone else and then he lies straight to my face. What the hell was wrong with him?

"Hey," a deep voice said.

I looked up and immediately wished I hadn't.

"What do you want Andy?"

"We never got to talk about earlier."

"What's there to talk about?" I asked as Andy sunk down next to me.

"You told me that I was the reason you cut yourself. What did I do?" his voice cracked.

Andy looked like a wounded puppy. I really didn't want to answer this question. If I told him and he turned me down, everything would be ruined. But, I hated to see him hurt. I remembered the night at the bar where Kenzi had told me that I should just tell him.

"Andy you've been avoiding me. Did I do something that made you want to not talk to me? Was because of the night I got fucking wasted? If you want me to stop drinking, I will, just so you'll talk to me. Just tell me what I did to make you distance yourself from me."

"Mel, I'm sorry, you just said some things in your sleep and I...well I didn't know how to talk to you after you said them."

"What did I say?" I whispered.

"You said that you loved me. You said you never wanted me to leave."

"Oh...Andy, if you don't...if you don't like me-"

"Mel, I love you, and I just didn't know how to say it to you, especially with Juliet still being with me. I thought maybe if I didn't talk to you, I might be able to shake off my feelings for you, but I couldn't. And to know that's why you cut yourself..."

I looked into his eyes and felt my heart melt. Andy cupped my face in his hands and slowly brought my lips to his. Our lips moved in sync and his lip ring on my lips sent shivers down my spine. Andy tasted of cigarettes and whiskey. I moved myself onto his lap, my legs on the outside of his. Andy licked my bottom lip, begging for entrance. I teased him and kept my lips closed. Andy wrapped his arms around my waist and lowered them slowly until they reached my ass. He squeezed my ass causing me to gasp and Andy took advantage of this and slid his tongue into my mouth. After another minute or so, I slowly pulled away breathing heavily.

"Wow," I breathed out.

"Melanie, you have no idea for how long I've wanted to do that," Andy smiled.

"Same here. The guys are going to be so happy to know that we're going out."

"Let's not tell anyone yet. I want this to be our little secret, at least for a little while. I love you."

"I love you too," I grinned.

No matter how many times he said it, I still couldn't believe it. Andy loved me.

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