*Adylen's POV*

The car ride back home was silent. Not an awkward silent, but a comfortable silence. Once we got back to the house, Jinxx helped me carry my bags in.

'Thank you Jinxxy.'

I said, with a croaky voice. I was surprised by my own voice. I didn't know why it was so un- even. I walked in the house & was taken aback by the giant banner & everyone screaming.

'Surprise!'

I looked around to see all of the guys plus OM&M, SWS, BMTH, FIR, Max, AA, & MIW. I smiled at the effort, but i just wanted to go to my room & change out of these nasty clothes & take a shower. Jinxx understood my dilema right away.

'Addy, why don't you go shower & then come back down.'

I gave him a smile as if saying thank you & walked upstairs with my bags. I threw them on the floor & took in the surroundings of the room i haven't been in for weeks. I let out a sigh as i stripped down my clothes & walked into the bathroom. When i walked in i was taken by the horrible stench. No one has been in here.. I looked on the counter to see my bloody blade. The thoughts flooded my head instantly.

'Sammi! JuJu! Lauren! Ella!'

I screamed with tears flooding my face. They were in my room instantly. I was sitting on my floor with a towel wrapped around me.

'What is it?!'

Sammi asked from my doorway. Concern was etched across her face.

'No one has been in here since i went into Radley.. Am i correct?'

I aked, the tears still falling freely.

'No... Why?'

Sammi asked me, not understanding why i was asking my question. I was shaking still trying my hardest not to give into the blade.

'Sammi... Look on the counter.'

I said, not able to look back at it. Once she saw the blade she was at my level in seconds. She wrapped me in a tight hug.

'JuJu, can you get that out of here & Ella, or Lauren, can one of you girls clean the counter around it & spray Lysol in here to eliminate the smell.'

Sammi said to the other girls. They got busy leaving me crying on the floor in Sammi's arms.

'You're better than that blade. You're so much fucking better than that blade. You don't need it to feel better. Shhhh.'

She cooed into my hair. I laid my head on her chest.

'Sam, we're done. It's all cleaned up.'

I heard Lauren say. I felt Sammi nod her head & the girls leave my room.

'Thanks, Sammi. You're an amazing sister in law.'

I said to her as i kissed her cheek & got up from my spot. She just smiled & kissed my forehead as she left the room. I let out a sigh & dropped the towel. I stepped into the shower & let the water illuminate me. I let it run down my back as i rinsed my hair & lathered the shampoo into my hair. I started to let my thought take over. Who was i kidding? This isn't going to be easy. I'm not going to be able to just get better over night. These pills aren't going to make things better.. I let a tear escape my eye. I let my back slide down the cold wall of the shower as i let out a small sigh. I put my head in my hands & let myself cry again.

'Adylen.. Are you okay?'

I heard a manly voice ask. I recognized it as CC's. Fuck. I sniffled a small barely auidible sniffle to make my voice clear without breakage.

'Yeah, why wouldn't I be?'

I asked.

'Because you've been in here for almost 3 hours.'

Shit. I didn't realize that it had been that long.

'Yeah, I'm fine. I'll be out in a second. Can you send Sammi up?'

I asked. I knew that he he heard me when he walked out. I got out of the shower & dressed myself in some of Max's pajama's that he always let's me borrow. I was comfy on my bed when Sammi knocked on the door.

'Come in.'

I said softy.

'What is it, sweetie? Are you okay?'

She said. I gave a smile.

'Yeah, I'm okay. But i need to get all of my blades & get them out of here because i know I'll never stop self harming if i don't. I trust you the most.. Will you help me?'

I asked her with a tear falling from my eye. She nodded in understanding as we started to sort through my room, looking for my collection of blades. Within an hour we found about 250 blades.. We walked downstairs with all of the little boxes in our hands.

'What's that?'

Andy asked, curiously. Instantly regretting it once we opened all of the boxes.

'I knew that i'd never be able to fully quit self harming if i had all of my blades, or any, at that in my room. So i asked Sammi to help me collect them & get rid of them..'

I said. Jinxx got up & hugged me.

'I'm so fucking proud of you. That takes so much for someone to ask for help. For someone to ask to gather all of their blades. You are such a good person. & Now one of my heros.'

I just smiled & nodded saying thank you. Sammi walked outside with all of the boxes of blades in her arms. I sighed. This was step one. Getting rid of every blade i owned. I walked over to Max & collapsed into him.

'Thank you for helping me realize that i needed to get help. You're a great friend & i love you so fucking much.'

I said to Max, right as the Of Mice & Men Guys walked in. I looked at Alan who looked right back at me & grinned. His smile could kill me. Ugh. Why was i developing feelings for him? I leaned back into Max.

'I'm going to bed, Jinxxy. Love you.'

I said as i got up from the couch & walked to the cabinet to where all of my medicines were. I sighed. I took out my sleeping medication & put them in my hand along with my depression pill. i threw them in the back of my throat with some water. I sighed & walked to my room. Once i went to shut my door, i noticed that i wasn't alone. I looked up to see Alan.

'Uh, hi.'

I said. He smiled at me.

'Hi, beautiful.'

That made me return the smile to him. I walked over to my bed. He followed me over to it & sat down next to me, not bothering to shut the door.

'So. What brings you here? To my room? When I'm trying to go to sleep?'

I asked Alan. He just smiled & laid down on the bed.

'You can still go to sleep. I'll probably be here when you wake up.'

He said with a smile that could kill me. I laid beside him. I closed my eyes but was caught by surprise when i felt an arm wrap around my waist. I then turned around & place my head on his chest, a smile on my face. Surprisingly enough, we were in the same position when i woke up the next morning to a pounding on my wall.

'What the fuck, Alan?!'

Jinxx screamed. I just sighed & rolled out of his grasp. I ignored Jinxx & walked into the bathroom to brush my teeth. After i was ready, i walked into my room to see a very sleepy, but awake Alan sitting on my bed.

Notes

A spark between Alan & Adylen? Oh lala (: