*Adylen's POV*

I was sitting in my room with nothing but the music & my thoughts. My parents were at work again. My father was picking up some extra shifts to make ends meet while my mother was working her ass off on her regular 12 hour shifts to pay her medical bills. That left me home alone in an empty house with nothing but my thoughts. That was until i heard the door open & close. Who the fuck could it be? I heard boots slap the carpet of the stairs & stop at my bedroom door. There was then a knock.

'Come in, Jinxx.'

By that time i knew it was my big brother, Jinxx. He was the only one who came over during the day. Why would any one else have any reason to come over? There wasn't really a reason. Jinxx came in & sat on my bed next to me. I turned off my music so we could actually hear each other talk.

'Hey, how is everything?'

Jinxx asked. I played dumb. Jinxx liked to think that he knew about my self harming & my bulimia & everything else but i wouldn't let him know.

'What do you mean, Jinxxy?'

I asked him, playing with my nose ring that was in my right nostril. He sighed.

'Adylen Rose. You're skinnier than ever. Come on, i'm not an idiot.'

He said. I contemplated what he said about me being skinnier than ever in my head. How could he possibly have noticed? Every time i was around him i was sure to wear looser clothes. I was confused at this point. I let my mind wander a bit until i realized that Jinxx was waving his hand in my face.

'Oh. Yeah, what were you saying?'

I asked him, kind of blankly. Lately i have been kind of blanked out. My mind wandered a lot & i didn't know why it would happen. My depression would creep up & i would find myself crying at 3 am about stuff that happened a while ago or stuff that never happened. Just problems i had created in my own mind. I laid my head in Jinxx's lap while he hummed me a song. I dozed off to sleep. I woke up 2 hours later to screaming. Jinxx was laying beside me.

'Jinxx what happened?'

I asked.

'I don't know.'

He said back, honestly not knowing what was going on downstairs. I swung my legs over the bed & walked downstairs, Jinxx following me. When we went to the kitchen there were dishes scattered everywhere.

'Addy, Jinxx.'

My mother said, surprised by us entering the kitchen.

'Mom what's going on?'

I said. She let out a deep breath & started talking.

'I was offered a job farther away in the states, in Florida to be exact while your dad was offered a job in England. As you guys both know we have been fighting alot, so this will be the end of us. But now, we're fighting on who's going to take you.'

My mother said. A tear escaped my eye. Jinxx enveloped me in a hug.

'I can take her. She can stay with me & Sammi & she already knows & loves the guys.'

Jinxx said. After a minute or two of contemplating the thought in her head, her & my father agreed to letting me stay with Jinxx & Sammi. Jinxx smiled.

'Well honey, go pack.'

A tear escaped my eye. I loved Jinxx & Sammi. I had no problem with staying with them, but why so soon?

'Why so soon?'

I asked my mom.

'Well, our flights leave tomorrow.'

I was furious. I stormed off to my room with tears streaming my face. I started folding my clothes furiously & throwing them into my various suitcases. After a couple hours, the last thing i needed to pack was my bag of piercing rings. I looked around my empty room as i put the last thing in my bag.

'Shit.'

I muttered as i realized my face was stained with tears. I was stronger than this. But then i remembered, i took the picture that hung on the wall down. Behind it was a little box. I tucked the box deep down into my suitcase zipping it back up. If anyone saw what was in that box i don't know how they'd react. A 16 year old girl with a box full of blades... I grabbed the keys to my baby blue Ford F150 & walked downstairs. I walked straight past my parents. I didn't want to talk to them at the moment.

'Want to stop & get food?'

Jinxx asked. He had been waiting in his car, figuring it would be better. Truthfully it was better. I nodded my head as i threw the last few bags into my truck. Jinxx handed me a phone.

'Here. It's a Galaxy S4. You need something. It's already programmed & everything.'

I thanked him as i got in my truck & followed him to the nearest Chipotle. We quickly ordered our food & drove back to his & Sammi's house. When we got there i walked up to the room that was mine. I stayed there enough to have a room painted a color that i like with posters in it. I started unpacking my stuff when Jake came in holding my food. Fuck.

'You're not gonna eat?'

He asked.

'I'm trying to get this done.'

I said, simply. He put the food on my bed with a fork & started talking again.

'Eat it now.'

I loved these guys to death but some times they pushed too much. I sat on my bed next to Jake & ate my Chipotle. Later that night the guys came over & we started talking about everything that happened. I walked to my room & shut the door. I plopped & my bed after putting on a pair of pajamas. I pulled the pack of Camel Menthol Wides out of my nightstand drawer & smoked one. I let it take the pain away, but my thoughts started to envelope me. I laid on my side & let sleep take me instead.

Notes

What do you guys think? I'm starting this story & quitting the other ones.