I felt the numbness spread through me like ice. I turned and sat down on the step, leaning back against the door. Everything had been perfect. Everything was going just fine. Yet I'd still managed to screw everything up again, I didn't even know what I'd done. I felt the familiar heat stinging in my eyes as the first tears dripped over my lashes and down my cheeks. I watched as the streetlights flickered on, making the street look beautiful, in ways I couldn't describe, the lights made the street look like one where in every house, there would be a family, snuggled up by the fire, watching a film or playing board games. Living the perfect life. A life that isn't real. Maybe we're not supposed to be happy after all.
I was brought back from my thoughts by the ache that was spreading through my chest, I guess this is what heartbreak felt like. I felt like I couldn't breathe, my chest was tightening and my heart felt like it was bleeding into my lungs, stopping me from breathing. I couldn't fight the pain, I couldn't face it when it was coming from inside me. An idea which started as a whisper began screaming through my mind. I knew it was stupid. I knew Kellin would be so mad at me. I knew Andy was mad but once you got past the anger, he still cared about me, even if he didn't want to. I knew what I was about to do would hurt him. I found myself getting into my car staring at the road infront of me as I started the ignition. I hope they'd understand when I explained the ache pulsing through my body when I made the decision to go home. I knew the monster would be sober and so very angry.
I thought about the night before and how strong I had felt in the arms of my angel, I had felt myself rising up to the stars with the smoke from the flames and now like the ashes left behind I had come back down to earth to be left with nothing more than burnt embers and memories of distant feelings of happiness. Tears trickled down into the collar of my shirt and over my chest. The tightening in my chest grew even tighter as I made up my mind and pulled onto my street and parked outside my house.
There was something I had to do before I went in. He answered after one ring. "Hey Scar, what's up?" He sounded so chirpy. The way I had done when I'd left his that afternoon. I put on my best fake happy voice.
"Hey Kells, I just wanted to let you know I'm staying here tonight with Andy, I didn't want you to worry about me when I don't show up tonight," my heart slowly crumpled in my chest as I lied to him and I knew he would believe every word.
"Okay, see you tomorrow peanut." The use of my nickname from 6th grade threw me off, it had been years since Kellin had called me that. I couldn't believe I was about to hurt him like this but I kept my face, no turning back now. "Yeah, you too." I hung up and got out of the car, cleared my mind and walked towards the house, I heard a rustling in the bushes behind me, but didn't turn around. I jiggled the door knob and walked in. She was waiting for me when I got there standing next to the couch looking more evil than I'd ever seen her. She screamed as she ran towards me, I felt her hands circle round my throat as she pulled me to the floor. I didn't fight back, I let the physical pain take over as I began to feel light headed from lack of oxygen. The last thoughts that crossed my mind before I blacked out, were Kellin calling me peanut, Andy's face as he slammed the door and how I deserved every bit of pain I would face here tonight, and then blackness.

Notes

Kind of upset that my story is now only a 9.9 :/ oh well hope anyone reading it is still enjoying it...