I woke up terrified. Another nightmare, just like the night before. My brother, telling me it's all my fault.

"It"s all your fault. It's all your fault." The words echoed in my head, over and over. It drove me over the edge. I tried to calm myself down, but couldn't. Before I knew it, I was sobbing. I couldn't help it. After all, I was only human. That's what humans do, right? Show emotion. The tears kept coming, they wouldn't stop. Slowly my gaze shifted to the bottom drawer of my night stand. That's where I kept them.
"Do it. Nobody cares about you, who's here to care?" I thought to myself. Without thinking, I reached for the handle. Then I saw my wrist. The moonlight creeping through the window shone on my wrist. My arm was almost completely in scars, now healed. Seeing that gave me strength.

"No, I won't go there. Not again. I can't, I just..."

I just reached for my phone and headphones. Music. That's all I needed. The right song always cheered me up. Scrolling through my (rather large) selection, I quickly decided on my favorite song, In The End by Black Veil Brides. It's safe to say they are my saviours. They were there when I had absolutely no one, as well as an assortment of other bands. I mostly loved the songs because of the amazing guitar parts. Sure, I played guitar, but not as amazing as Jake. God I was jealous. This made me chuckle lightly. Man, did that feel good. Slowly, I drifted back to sleep, my head filled with amazing lyrics and bebeautiful guitar solos.

Notes

Yay, the first chapter :)
Please leave comments telling me what you thought, it's my first fanfic, so it would be very helpful.
I can't sleep, so I'll probably post another chapter or two.