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Chapter 26- What are you doing? Why? trigger
Georgiee's P.O.V
I pulled back the curtain and gasped at what I saw, CC was holding a blade against his skin, crying and a slow trickle of blood coming out of some of the cuts he had already done, theere werent many but they were quite deep. I grabbed his hand and pulled him to the bathroom, I pointed at him to sit on the toilet while I raided the cupboards, I found the first aid kit. I grabbed the anti bacterial wipes and the bandages. I moved to stand in front of him and started cleaning the cuts, tears were still streaming down his face, I quickly banaged his arm and then went to grab his leather jacket since he was wearing a T-shirt and I was sure he wanted to hide this from the guys. I came back and he shrugged it on his shoulders, we quickly left the bathroom and went back to his bunk.
I noticed his phone was smashed. what made CC do this? "Hand it over please CC" He knew what I meant, he picked up his blade and I put it in my pocket for now, he was still crying and hadn't spoken yet "Why CC" I asked slowly, he looked at me, it broke my heart to see him like this "S-s-she c-c-c-cheated o-on m-me" He sobbed. WHAT? SHE CHEATED ON HIM! HOW COULD SHE? I held my arms out and he jumped into my hug, crying into my shoulder, I rubbed his back soothingly until he clamed down "She accidently phoned me when she was having.. when she was with him and I sorta just threw the phone at the wall, it smashed. She knows I know now" How could she do that to him? He is such a nice guy. "CC I know that it's hard but you can get through this, I believe in you, you have always been a role model to me and always will be, since I've met you and got to know you you've become like a brother to me and I will always support you. If youEVER need to talk, doesnt matter where or when I will be there" I rushed, he nodded and pulled me into a hug, next time I see lauren I will confront her about this. I was pulled out of thoughts by CC "I don't wanna tell the guys, they'll just hate me for doing this" He motioned to his arm with the bandage, I nodded but its not like he can keep ot from them. "CC have you got any more blades?" Iasked quietly and he nodded, he grabbed some from his phone case and wallet then handed them over. I pulled the one from earlier out and put the others wth that one, I put them in an old earing box in the bottom of my backpack. Once I had got rid of them i sat down with him again "listen CC the guys wont hate you, they'll want to help you, I dont know how long you can keep this from them but I wont say anything because you dont want to. now do you want anything? Pain meds? Monster?" I said quietly, he started to shake his head then nodded, "can you sing something please?" He questioned, I nodded and searched for something to sing, I decided on "A match into water" by 'pierce the veil' but changed 'her' to 'his', specific for CC, he stared at me then after just pulled me into a hug, he got up and went to the front of the bus, still in his leather jacket.
"Guys lauren and I broke up, well she was cheating on me so yeah" He said his voice staying strong but I could hear all the pain in it, poor CC. "CC I'm so sorry man, please dont do anything you'll regret" Jinxx spoke up, CC looked at me then at the floor, Jinxx picked up on this "CC you didnt do anything did you?" He asked, tears started to spill from CC's eyes, I walked over and pulled him into a hug, letting him cry again. Once he calmed down he pulled his jacket off showing them his arm in the bandage with blood starting to show through, he was hiding his face in my shoulder, which was hard since Im a few inches shorter than him, and his hair fell around his face, blocking him from view "CC man why?" questioned Ash "I heard them" He mumbled, it was a good thing everything was quiet. I walked CC over to the couch and sat him down, I sat next to him, I didnt care if I was getting wet from his tears, it was worth it to help a friend. Jinxx sat down on the other side of CC and looked at the bandage "CC who bandaged you up?" He questioned, CC pointed to me and Jinxx gave me a questioning look "I found him, he hasn't done that many but there pretty deep" I said quickly, CC fell asleep, I gave Jinxx instructions to watch him and if he wakes to yell me.
I quickly grabbed my bag and pulled CC's box of blades out, I dont know why but I did, I pulled one out and got in the shower, I left it on the side and started washing myself, I was thinking bad things again, I was a fat, ugly bitch, I should just slit my f***ing wrists, I should kill myself, I was the emo slut, I was worthless, useless and shouldnt be allowed to walk on the planet. I grabbed the blade and for the first time in ages I sliced it across my skin, the sound of the water masking my cries and my blood mixing with the water. I stood there watching the blood flow until the water ran clear again. What have I just done? I let my brother down, I let Jay down, I let down the most important people to me, how could I tell CC not to then just go and do it myself 10 minutes later. I let my best friend down, what would he say to me, I told him not to then did it myself. I got out of the shower and wrapped my cuts and then put my sweat-pants and a sleeping with sirens shirt on. I tied my hair up and didnt bother with any makeup. I walked out and into Jinxx, he pulled me into the back room "CC's still asleep." He said quickly then he looked at me with concern "you were a really long time in there you know he said quickly, I nodded "yeah I was just thinking about stuff, nothing bad I promise" I said quietly and he nodded, I heard the bathroom door lock click, I felt in my pockets for the box of blades and I couldnt feel them, I looked at the bathroom door in worry, no I left them on the side, please dont notice them, I sat watching the door, I saw Andy walk out with a confused face, he looked around and saw me, he started heading towards me, in his hand was the box of blades, he knows.
I pulled back the curtain and gasped at what I saw, CC was holding a blade against his skin, crying and a slow trickle of blood coming out of some of the cuts he had already done, theere werent many but they were quite deep. I grabbed his hand and pulled him to the bathroom, I pointed at him to sit on the toilet while I raided the cupboards, I found the first aid kit. I grabbed the anti bacterial wipes and the bandages. I moved to stand in front of him and started cleaning the cuts, tears were still streaming down his face, I quickly banaged his arm and then went to grab his leather jacket since he was wearing a T-shirt and I was sure he wanted to hide this from the guys. I came back and he shrugged it on his shoulders, we quickly left the bathroom and went back to his bunk.
I noticed his phone was smashed. what made CC do this? "Hand it over please CC" He knew what I meant, he picked up his blade and I put it in my pocket for now, he was still crying and hadn't spoken yet "Why CC" I asked slowly, he looked at me, it broke my heart to see him like this "S-s-she c-c-c-cheated o-on m-me" He sobbed. WHAT? SHE CHEATED ON HIM! HOW COULD SHE? I held my arms out and he jumped into my hug, crying into my shoulder, I rubbed his back soothingly until he clamed down "She accidently phoned me when she was having.. when she was with him and I sorta just threw the phone at the wall, it smashed. She knows I know now" How could she do that to him? He is such a nice guy. "CC I know that it's hard but you can get through this, I believe in you, you have always been a role model to me and always will be, since I've met you and got to know you you've become like a brother to me and I will always support you. If youEVER need to talk, doesnt matter where or when I will be there" I rushed, he nodded and pulled me into a hug, next time I see lauren I will confront her about this. I was pulled out of thoughts by CC "I don't wanna tell the guys, they'll just hate me for doing this" He motioned to his arm with the bandage, I nodded but its not like he can keep ot from them. "CC have you got any more blades?" Iasked quietly and he nodded, he grabbed some from his phone case and wallet then handed them over. I pulled the one from earlier out and put the others wth that one, I put them in an old earing box in the bottom of my backpack. Once I had got rid of them i sat down with him again "listen CC the guys wont hate you, they'll want to help you, I dont know how long you can keep this from them but I wont say anything because you dont want to. now do you want anything? Pain meds? Monster?" I said quietly, he started to shake his head then nodded, "can you sing something please?" He questioned, I nodded and searched for something to sing, I decided on "A match into water" by 'pierce the veil' but changed 'her' to 'his', specific for CC, he stared at me then after just pulled me into a hug, he got up and went to the front of the bus, still in his leather jacket.
"Guys lauren and I broke up, well she was cheating on me so yeah" He said his voice staying strong but I could hear all the pain in it, poor CC. "CC I'm so sorry man, please dont do anything you'll regret" Jinxx spoke up, CC looked at me then at the floor, Jinxx picked up on this "CC you didnt do anything did you?" He asked, tears started to spill from CC's eyes, I walked over and pulled him into a hug, letting him cry again. Once he calmed down he pulled his jacket off showing them his arm in the bandage with blood starting to show through, he was hiding his face in my shoulder, which was hard since Im a few inches shorter than him, and his hair fell around his face, blocking him from view "CC man why?" questioned Ash "I heard them" He mumbled, it was a good thing everything was quiet. I walked CC over to the couch and sat him down, I sat next to him, I didnt care if I was getting wet from his tears, it was worth it to help a friend. Jinxx sat down on the other side of CC and looked at the bandage "CC who bandaged you up?" He questioned, CC pointed to me and Jinxx gave me a questioning look "I found him, he hasn't done that many but there pretty deep" I said quickly, CC fell asleep, I gave Jinxx instructions to watch him and if he wakes to yell me.
I quickly grabbed my bag and pulled CC's box of blades out, I dont know why but I did, I pulled one out and got in the shower, I left it on the side and started washing myself, I was thinking bad things again, I was a fat, ugly bitch, I should just slit my f***ing wrists, I should kill myself, I was the emo slut, I was worthless, useless and shouldnt be allowed to walk on the planet. I grabbed the blade and for the first time in ages I sliced it across my skin, the sound of the water masking my cries and my blood mixing with the water. I stood there watching the blood flow until the water ran clear again. What have I just done? I let my brother down, I let Jay down, I let down the most important people to me, how could I tell CC not to then just go and do it myself 10 minutes later. I let my best friend down, what would he say to me, I told him not to then did it myself. I got out of the shower and wrapped my cuts and then put my sweat-pants and a sleeping with sirens shirt on. I tied my hair up and didnt bother with any makeup. I walked out and into Jinxx, he pulled me into the back room "CC's still asleep." He said quickly then he looked at me with concern "you were a really long time in there you know he said quickly, I nodded "yeah I was just thinking about stuff, nothing bad I promise" I said quietly and he nodded, I heard the bathroom door lock click, I felt in my pockets for the box of blades and I couldnt feel them, I looked at the bathroom door in worry, no I left them on the side, please dont notice them, I sat watching the door, I saw Andy walk out with a confused face, he looked around and saw me, he started heading towards me, in his hand was the box of blades, he knows.
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