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chapter 11- why do I let you talk me into these things? triggering
Georgiees P.O.V
My eyes filled with panic, I could not sing in front of the BVB army, no way, I looked around and everyone was looking at me like I should, "No guys I cant, 1 I am not that good, hell I'm not even good 2 the BVB army paid to see you guys not me so it wouldnt be fair on them and 3 I am to shy to go out there and sing!" I exclaimed counting each point on my fingers, there was no way I was singing in front of the BVB army, it was never going to happen. I looked around and saw all of the guys looking at me with pleading eyes, god dont look at Jinxx or Andy, I looked around again and all the girls were looking at me smiling encouragingly, I groaned and hid my face in Jinxxs side. I felt him laugh and he pulled me back up and looked in my eyes, no I could not look into his eyes. I looked down but he kept my face so it was looking at his "Georgiee, please 1 you are a great singer literally you are like a female version of Andy, 2 the BVB wont have a problem with you singing a song in front of them and as long as Andy performs they wont care! 3 dont worry about being shy, I was the first time I went on stage and now look at me, trust me you can do this and I will be right there beside you for support. Please sing tomorrow, for me if nothing else" I sighed now I had to do it I said earlier that he was my saviour and I looked up to him "Fine but dont expect me to be good" I huffed and everyone laughed, I looked up at Jinxx "Wht do I let you talk me into these things?" I questioned and he laughed "beacuse you love me" he sing-songed and I just flipped him off and cuddled into his side and started falling asleep and he just stroked my hair and I eventually fell asleep, last night had been a long night!
I woke an hour later still cuddled into Jinxxs side to hear everyone talking quietly so I pretended to still be asleep "Guys, what should we do for Georgiees stage make-up for the show tomorrow?" I knew Sammiie would step in with a remark about that "She has already designed her own stage make-up before guys she can just do that" Sammiie spoke up, I could hear the smile in her voice, I decided to 'wake up' at this point "You guys know its rude to talk about someone behind their back right?" I questioned and I opened my eyes to see everyone jump and turn to look at me I just started laughing still cuddled into Jinxxs side so I slowly sat up and streched "Sorry Georgiee" they mumbled, I got up, I would ring my dad now rather than later. I got my phone and tried to ring but he was busy so I decided to cheack my facebook, yikes if I thought last time was bad this time was mental, I had 132 notifications and 43 messages WHAT? I sorted through them, most were people asking if I really was Jinxxs brother so I just quickly replied yes, there was also a few pictures on me and Sammiie on stage with the guys, really this was because I was related to someone famous, nobody cared about me beofre now, I sighed I would have to go through my friends list really carefully now! Once I finished I decided to ring my dad again leaving the friends list for later on, this time I got through to him and he seemed pleased to talk to me, he asked how everyting was going, how the guys were treating us and everything and I replied truthfully with Andy screaming and singing in the background before I threw my pillow at him and it hit him in the face, he threw it back and I caught it and he pulled a face, dad and I spoke for another half an hour about how things were doing with the family and everything and he said he had to get ready to go my nans, I smiled I would ring nan later to see how she was. I put my phone on charge and walked out to see everyone sitting in a circle whispering and when they saw me they stopped, I walked over and sat on Jinxxs knee and Andy declared that we were going out again for dinner, I sighed and stood up and went to find my shoes.
We went to an Italian place and Jake being Jake ordered pizza, Jinxx, Sammiie, Andy, CC and I all ordered spaghetti, Ash, Ella and Juliet ordered meatballs and after we ate we went on a walk around the area and found a shopping centre so we went inside and we all went to hot topic first and I got another BVB shirt "Guys Georgiee needs an outfit for tomorrows show!" Andy shouted and everyone looked at me before rushing around and grabbing things from here there and everywhere in the shop and I just stood there watching them running around like headless chickens, they all came back and started bickering like children about what I should wear until Jinnx put his foot down and picked out 2 possible outfits and told me to go try them on and we would decide once we had seen them both, great, this was the part I hated about shopping, we decided on the second outfit which was a pair or ripped up skinny jeans with a BVB shirt with a ripped up back and a leather jacket with no arms which was studded, we also decided I would wear my doc martins and the outfit was done, next we went to forever 21 because Ella and Juliet wanted to go and they each got a dress and a pair of heels to match the dress, we couldnt think of anywhere else to go so walked back to the cars and drove back to the bus.
We all went in and sat on the couches and sat and talked and once again the couples went of to bed and we gave them some time and then the rest of us went. Once again I got a nightmare.
****Nightmare**** (not georgiees P.O.V)
"You're worthless, no one wants you, why dont you go and kill yourself and do us all a favour" A snobby voice screeched. SLAP! Someone hit Georgiee square on in the face making her head jerk to the side from the force "Your fat and ugly why dont you go throw up you look like you need to lose weight" Georgiee stayed silent "Go slit your wrists you emo fag, no one cares if you do it!" the voice screeched again, She grabbed Georgiees hair and pulled her up by it before dropping her and kicking her until Georgiee felt the copper taste of blood in her mouth before she passed out.
Georgiees P.O.V
I woke screaming when someone came over and pulled me into a hug and shushed me, it was Jinxx, I sobbed into his chest until my eyes ran dry and my throat hurt, I got up out of my bunk and Jinxx followed me, I went to get a drink of water and then sat on the couch drinking it with Jinxx watching over me with worry in his features. I just sat there and drank the water until my troat felt normal again. "Georgiee are you okay?" he questioned, I nodded "I had a nightmare, I was in a room and the girl was there that bullies me, she startes calling me things and told me to kill myself, she slapped me, called me more names and them grabbed me by my hair, dropped me and kicked me until I tasted blood in my mouth and blacked out, thats when I woke" I explained he nodded, "We will talk more bout this tomorrow, go back to bed for now, tomorrow is going to be a long day" he said and I nodded and went back to my bunk.
My eyes filled with panic, I could not sing in front of the BVB army, no way, I looked around and everyone was looking at me like I should, "No guys I cant, 1 I am not that good, hell I'm not even good 2 the BVB army paid to see you guys not me so it wouldnt be fair on them and 3 I am to shy to go out there and sing!" I exclaimed counting each point on my fingers, there was no way I was singing in front of the BVB army, it was never going to happen. I looked around and saw all of the guys looking at me with pleading eyes, god dont look at Jinxx or Andy, I looked around again and all the girls were looking at me smiling encouragingly, I groaned and hid my face in Jinxxs side. I felt him laugh and he pulled me back up and looked in my eyes, no I could not look into his eyes. I looked down but he kept my face so it was looking at his "Georgiee, please 1 you are a great singer literally you are like a female version of Andy, 2 the BVB wont have a problem with you singing a song in front of them and as long as Andy performs they wont care! 3 dont worry about being shy, I was the first time I went on stage and now look at me, trust me you can do this and I will be right there beside you for support. Please sing tomorrow, for me if nothing else" I sighed now I had to do it I said earlier that he was my saviour and I looked up to him "Fine but dont expect me to be good" I huffed and everyone laughed, I looked up at Jinxx "Wht do I let you talk me into these things?" I questioned and he laughed "beacuse you love me" he sing-songed and I just flipped him off and cuddled into his side and started falling asleep and he just stroked my hair and I eventually fell asleep, last night had been a long night!
I woke an hour later still cuddled into Jinxxs side to hear everyone talking quietly so I pretended to still be asleep "Guys, what should we do for Georgiees stage make-up for the show tomorrow?" I knew Sammiie would step in with a remark about that "She has already designed her own stage make-up before guys she can just do that" Sammiie spoke up, I could hear the smile in her voice, I decided to 'wake up' at this point "You guys know its rude to talk about someone behind their back right?" I questioned and I opened my eyes to see everyone jump and turn to look at me I just started laughing still cuddled into Jinxxs side so I slowly sat up and streched "Sorry Georgiee" they mumbled, I got up, I would ring my dad now rather than later. I got my phone and tried to ring but he was busy so I decided to cheack my facebook, yikes if I thought last time was bad this time was mental, I had 132 notifications and 43 messages WHAT? I sorted through them, most were people asking if I really was Jinxxs brother so I just quickly replied yes, there was also a few pictures on me and Sammiie on stage with the guys, really this was because I was related to someone famous, nobody cared about me beofre now, I sighed I would have to go through my friends list really carefully now! Once I finished I decided to ring my dad again leaving the friends list for later on, this time I got through to him and he seemed pleased to talk to me, he asked how everyting was going, how the guys were treating us and everything and I replied truthfully with Andy screaming and singing in the background before I threw my pillow at him and it hit him in the face, he threw it back and I caught it and he pulled a face, dad and I spoke for another half an hour about how things were doing with the family and everything and he said he had to get ready to go my nans, I smiled I would ring nan later to see how she was. I put my phone on charge and walked out to see everyone sitting in a circle whispering and when they saw me they stopped, I walked over and sat on Jinxxs knee and Andy declared that we were going out again for dinner, I sighed and stood up and went to find my shoes.
We went to an Italian place and Jake being Jake ordered pizza, Jinxx, Sammiie, Andy, CC and I all ordered spaghetti, Ash, Ella and Juliet ordered meatballs and after we ate we went on a walk around the area and found a shopping centre so we went inside and we all went to hot topic first and I got another BVB shirt "Guys Georgiee needs an outfit for tomorrows show!" Andy shouted and everyone looked at me before rushing around and grabbing things from here there and everywhere in the shop and I just stood there watching them running around like headless chickens, they all came back and started bickering like children about what I should wear until Jinnx put his foot down and picked out 2 possible outfits and told me to go try them on and we would decide once we had seen them both, great, this was the part I hated about shopping, we decided on the second outfit which was a pair or ripped up skinny jeans with a BVB shirt with a ripped up back and a leather jacket with no arms which was studded, we also decided I would wear my doc martins and the outfit was done, next we went to forever 21 because Ella and Juliet wanted to go and they each got a dress and a pair of heels to match the dress, we couldnt think of anywhere else to go so walked back to the cars and drove back to the bus.
We all went in and sat on the couches and sat and talked and once again the couples went of to bed and we gave them some time and then the rest of us went. Once again I got a nightmare.
****Nightmare**** (not georgiees P.O.V)
"You're worthless, no one wants you, why dont you go and kill yourself and do us all a favour" A snobby voice screeched. SLAP! Someone hit Georgiee square on in the face making her head jerk to the side from the force "Your fat and ugly why dont you go throw up you look like you need to lose weight" Georgiee stayed silent "Go slit your wrists you emo fag, no one cares if you do it!" the voice screeched again, She grabbed Georgiees hair and pulled her up by it before dropping her and kicking her until Georgiee felt the copper taste of blood in her mouth before she passed out.
Georgiees P.O.V
I woke screaming when someone came over and pulled me into a hug and shushed me, it was Jinxx, I sobbed into his chest until my eyes ran dry and my throat hurt, I got up out of my bunk and Jinxx followed me, I went to get a drink of water and then sat on the couch drinking it with Jinxx watching over me with worry in his features. I just sat there and drank the water until my troat felt normal again. "Georgiee are you okay?" he questioned, I nodded "I had a nightmare, I was in a room and the girl was there that bullies me, she startes calling me things and told me to kill myself, she slapped me, called me more names and them grabbed me by my hair, dropped me and kicked me until I tasted blood in my mouth and blacked out, thats when I woke" I explained he nodded, "We will talk more bout this tomorrow, go back to bed for now, tomorrow is going to be a long day" he said and I nodded and went back to my bunk.
9/27/14