The Purdy's
Hello and slowly letting go
Andrea’s POV
I was nervous. I met three members of Black Veil Brides and one of them turned out to be my father. What if Jake and CC don’t like me? What if they feel like I’m going to cause problems in the band? Dad, its still strange to say that I have one and the fact that its Ashley Purdy is the strangest thing; must have sensed that I was nervous because he gave me a mini speech before I went into the room. I was met with CC and Jake standing in front of Andy playing with Eve who was in his arms. They turned around when Andy said, “hi LA.” I said, “hey.” Back. CC tackled me into one of his famous hugs and said, “welcome to the BVB family kiddo. I’m CC if you didn’t know but I bet you did.” I smiled and said, “yep. I know who you are. The best drummer ever as well as I guess my uncle now right?” he nodded and said, “yep. You got four uncles now but I’m the coolest one.”
I laughed and Andy slapped him and said, “ I’m the fun uncle.”As they argued, I walked over to Jake and awkwardly said, “Hi there.” he smiled and, “hi! So unfortunately these morons have yet to tell me your name. What is it?” “My name is Andrea Dawn Purdy but I prefer to go by Andy. And well with that ‘fun’ uncle over there being named Andy as well, I also go by Andy dawn and LA. LA meaning Little Andy.” He smiled and said, “well Andy dawn, welcome to the BVB family.” And hugged me. I will admit I did fan girl a little bit when they all gave me hugs. I introduced my siblings and the guys welcomed all of us to the BVB family. We sat around for an hour or two talking about tour life and my childhood. I may or may not have left out the fact that I am bullied or that I self harm. For only being around them for an hour, I was super close with Ash cause well, he’s my dad but I was also close to Jinxx because he is super good with advice and so is Jake. CC became the guy to go to if you want pranks or a good laugh and Andy became the adventurer/ mix of the other four guys.
Andy was really taken by Eve so he held her and played with her nonstop. It got to the point where dad literally had to say, “ bro, can I hold my kid. I haven’t really gotten to hold her yet.” I laughed and so did the other guys as Andy reluctantly handed over my baby sister. Dad thought it would be a good idea to now take the time to set up a twitter account so Jinxx and me sat in front of his laptop thinking of usernames. “How about AndydawnPurdy?” he asked. I thought for a moment and said, “nah. How about K.E.J.A_Purdy?” he smiled when he figured out and said, “I like it.” he asked Dad and they all agreed that it was suitable. Jinxx then logged out of his twitter on his phone and set my account up from it and then took a picture of me. I had hands on the sides of my cheeks and it looked like I was screaming. He thought it was good and then set it up.
He followed the band accounts for my favorite bands and also the personal accounts. He then followed me from the BVB account and all the other guys did too. I snatched his phone from him and took a picture with Andy and me and then tweeted it. the caption read, “hanging out with my so called ‘fun’ uncle. This is awesome! J” All the guys retweeted it and wrote something back. Andy Wrote: “hear that guys, I’m the fun one! ;)”
Dad wrote: “I’m still the coolest. I mean after all she is my daughter: D” Jinxx wrote: “ you can be the fun one as long as I’m the responsible one and the awesome one J“ CC wrote: “you can be ‘fun’ and ‘responsible’ but I’m the cool one! Got it, get it, good. J” Jake wrote: “we all know I’m the best. :D” I Retweeted all of them and tweeted, “yeah your all the best uncles ever but who is my favorite? ;)”Dad tweeted me, “do you see what you started? They aren’t going to shut up for weeks. : P” I replied, “I have this thing called Jinxx’s phone. I’m sure he has some decent music on here somewhere and I bet I can find headphones somewhere in this hotel room. d:”
My mentions were going crazy from all the fans asking what the heck was going on. Dad said, “ I guess we should make a video soon.” I nodded and asked for his phone. He complied after five minutes of deleting things. I tweeted from his account: “ @K.E.J.A_Purdy is my eldest daughter. I just found out today and now have custody.” I showed him and he said I could tweet it. Moment’s later twitter blew up with messages. It got so over whelmed that the app crashed. I tweeted from my account #thatmomentwhenyoubreaktwitter #awesome. I already had like five hundred followers. Logging out, I handed Jinxx his phone and said, “ I really need to get a phone.” Everyone then looked at me and asked, “you never had a phone?” I nodded and said, “Mom and Me shared one. We couldn’t exactly feed 5 people and pay for rent and a huge phone so we had a pay as you go phone.”
Dad said, “Well you will be getting one now. Do you want to go to school tomorrow?”Thought and said, “yeah I should. I need to get my artwork from my bitch of an art teacher and say goodbye to my drama teacher. My art teacher hates me whereas my Drama teacher loves me. She says I’m her prodigy.” Andy smiled and said, “Well if we ever need an actress for a video, we know who to go to.” I smiled and replied, “ I have the highest grade in her class out of all of her periods. I also aced every singe performance. I love drama class. The rest of the class may’ve not liked me very much but I made the best out of every minute of It.” instantly I realized my error in that last statement. Can you say shit creek? Cause that’s were I’m about to be. They’re going to force to tell them and then they will know EVERYTHING. This is bad. Really bad. Time to be the world’s best actress. In 3, 2,1.
Jinxx was the first to realize what I meant and questioned it. I said, “ Well, I was so good that people were intimidated and afraid I would out shine them.” not a complete lie but not the whole truth. I’m really glad right now that they don’t what my telling signs that I’m lying yet. I know somebody knows I’m lying, I don’t know who yet. Thankfully Kellin began to cry. Yep he needs his diaper changed. I automatically went to get his diaper bag and then grabbed a diaper and took the little guy out of Jake’s arms. I changed him and then handed him back. Everyone looked at me like I had three heads. “What?” I asked. Dad answered, “ The fact that you changed his diaper and had him all cleaned up in less than three minutes is a bit impressive. That and I think your going to need to teach us how to change a diaper.” I laughed at the image I had in my head. It was of Dad freaking out and Jinxx calling Sammi doll trying to figure out how to change a diaper. When I came back to reality they just looked at me and I said, “I went to narnia for a moment okay. It happens.”
They just shook their heads and I stuck my tongue out at them. CC petted my head and said, “It’s okay kid. It happens to the best of us,” we all laughed. “So what’s going to happen next? Like are we going back to the apartment to get our stuff and then we leave we go to your house and then I get put back in school?” dad thought for a moment and said, “well we can go tomorrow after you go to school for the last day and then we stay here for one last day and then go to LA. And from LA we will get you in school when you’re ready to return, look for a bigger house for all of us, and get you a phone!” “Alright. That sounds like a good plan.” I answered back. We then hung out for a bit and then I realized, “wait, I think I need to go to the apartment tonight because I’m going to need clothes for school tomorrow.” Dad then realized my point and then said, “right. So do you think these four can handle the kids?” I thought for a moment and then said, “right so Jinxx and Jake will stay and so will Andy because their good with the kids, CC you can come with us if you want.”
“Nah. I think I’ll stay behind so you two can bond and stuff.” he answered. I laughed and said, “ or do you want to watch them struggle to change a diaper if one of them needs it?” he nodded. We all laughed. I hugged Jinxx and said, “ sissy is going to go with Daddy to get some stuff. Will you be alright here with them?” she nodded and replied, “I be fine. Jinxxy is funny! And Mr. CC has a funny name. He has a girl’s name.” I hugged her and then said, “We’ll be back soon. If you have any problems, call me err him.” they nodded and then we left. I looked at the time on dad’s phone and read that it was 6:50. “The little ones need to eat before it gets to late. Oh and their bedtime is 8:30. The perks of being in charge. You get to set bedtime.” He laughed and said, “ I get the feeling that you raised them more than anything.” I sighed and said, “it feels that way sometimes. Mom worked every day. She came home late and went to work early. We saw her briefly on weekends but that was about it. She worked and worked to support us. I basically raised Jinxx all on my own. I would wake up in the middle when she cried and take care of her. Oh god, how am I going to tell her mommy isn’t coming home?”
My anxiety was increasing and I began to panic a little bit. Dad must’ve known how to help me because a moment later, I was embraced in a massive hug. It helped calm me down. When I was better, he let go and asked, “better?” I nodded and hugged him again. Our cab showed up and we got in and made the trip to the apartment. I was dreading it a bit. I knew my mother was in a better place and not sick anymore but it hurt to know she is gone. I mean when I was younger we were very close but as I had more siblings and she worked more, we lost our closeness. We could’ve been strangers that’s how bad it got at times. I never told her about the bullying. She never once heard me cry my self to sleep. Jinxx heard me a few times and would cuddle with me in hope of making me feel better. Sometimes I wish Jinxx were a normal 5 year old. She acts so much older because she didn’t have a normal childhood. I know that know she won’t have a normal childhood but I hope it is better. I will miss her though but I think I will be happy when we get to LA. I just hope dad doesn’t find out about the bullying. I don’t need his pity. I mean when people find out your bullied, they begin to make the connection of why you wear hoodies in the summer and long pants all year long.
He would know the signs that someone would self harm because people in the music industry are admitting that they used to self harm and then they would say something and then it would all come back to me at some point. The car ride passed as I took a journey through my thoughts-, which is never a good thing because it leads me to my blade. We got out and dad paid the cabbie and patted my shoulder as we walked to the apartment door. Opening it up, I turned the lights on and stepped inside. “Welcome to my crap hole that my mother worked very hard to afford.” Yeah I think I failed to mention that we don’t exactly live in the best of areas either. Like someone was seriously murdered on the third floor two years ago. I then went to my room and put everything I own in a duffle back. I filled up the one bag and then threw in my one stuffed animal and blanket before getting Jinxx’s stuff. I repeated the process until all of our stuff was in bags. I then went to my mom’s room and looked around for what to keep. I also told dad to come in the room. I sat on the bed and looked at the floor. He sat next to me and put his arm around me.
Just him sitting next to me helped calm me down. I wanted to cry but then I didn’t want to. I’ve been strong all my life so I was afraid to cry. He held me close and said, “ I know you want to cry and I know you also don’t want to cry. Don’t bottle everything inside you. Its not good.” tears began to form in my eyes and then I started to cry. Every time I tried to calm down, I cried harder. We sat there for almost an hour. When I finally managed to pull my self together, I grabbed all of mom’s pictures, jewelry and perfume and put them in a bag. I grabbed a box that was in her closet and put all of the stuff I didn’t want to keep in which was pretty much all of her work clothes and a shirts I didn’t want to keep. I kept most of it though because I knew Jinxx would want some things and so would Eve. When we finished, I did a sweep of each room and made sure it was all packed up. Dad said that we would get new beds and clothes when we got to LA so it was okay to leave our furniture behind. Nothing was really worth keeping so I added it to the pile of garbage and good will donations.
When I was done, Dad called a cab and we carried the bags down. The ride back was silent. Halfway there I fell asleep.
Thanks! (:
2/23/15