Andy Dawn’s POV


Two weeks. It’s been two weeks since Dad’s car accident and two weeks since my suicide attempt. We found out the total of Dad’s injuries hours after the surgeon first told Andy he was out of surgery. He has a concussion, broken fingers, fractured cheekbone, fractured jawbone, broken Leg, hip, arm, wrist, 5 ribs, and that’s not all of it. He has a lot of bruising, cuts from the glass, and there is the worry he wont be able to walk if he wakes up. The doctors removed him from the medical induced coma and he has been out cold on his own for the last 11 days.

The doctors wanted to take him of life support but we all fought them over the decision. We all have hope that he will wake up and be okay. Christmas is tomorrow meaning tonight is Christmas Eve. Jinxx and Sammi doll took the little ones home while I remained at the hospital with Andy and Jake. CC wandered off some time ago and no one has seen him since. When I woke up the next day after my attempt, Jake was sitting next to me. He literally told me, “You have no idea how much we cried when we read your letter. Never scare us like that again.” he then hugged me tightly. Everyone came to see me except for dad. When I asked where he was, they all got silent and looked to each other. Andy sat down next to me and pulled me into a hug while Jake started to play with my hair. I’ll never forget what he said. It’ll haunt me for a long time.

“Andy Dawn, yesterday Ash…Dad was in a car accident. He’s in critical condition, it doesn’t look good but he’s made it this far so things are looking up.” Andy said as tears then fell from his eyes. Jake cut me off before I could say anything, “its not your fault. Don’t you dare think that.” “But I yelled at him. I said so many awful things.” I said crying. “But he knows you love him. When he wakes up, talk to him and everything will be okay.” Andy said.

A doctor came in after and explained that I would be under suicide watch for 3 days before being released into Uncle Jinxx’s custody. Those 3 days came and went and I went home. The media some how found about my attempt and it’s been hectic since. I haven’t been on twitter or face book or talked to anyone other than the band and Aunt Sammi. It’s all over the media because my dad is also in the hospital. Uncle Jinxx said that I should talk to a therapist so he has been taking me there twice a week. It actually is helping a little bit however; when dad wakes up I will be going to a rehab place to get better. Aunt Sammi knows about my eating disorder. She and Jinxx found out from the doctor. So since then, they have helped me eat and start a better relationship with food. They’re not forcing me but they ask me to eat a little bit and then a little more.



Because Dad had an eating disorder too, I have to be monitored as well as he does. Right now, the main reason he isn’t waking up is because he isn’t strong enough, well that’s what the doctors think. CC told me that he was so under weight when he first came in; they didn’t think he would make it through the night but here we are two weeks later. The doctors later told us that dad had over 400 fresh and scared cuts. The cuts are mostly on his thighs but there are some on his hips and even his stomach. I overheard someone say that dad should have died from his injuries or from his eating disorder because it didn’t look good for him. He looked like death when I first saw him. Now he looks better. He’s still super skinny but he is slowly getting better. For example, the bruises on his face went from a black color to a faded blue.The surgeons cut his hair because they had to drill a few small holes to release the pressure on his brain. So its literally short on one side and long on the other just like Andy had it for while.


Right now, I’m sitting beside dad and next to Andy. We talk to him and tell him what’s going on and just talk about anything. It’s too silent. The sound of the medical machines is disturbing. About two hours ago, they removed the tube that was in Dad’s throat so he can breathe. He’s breathing on his own now, which is good. Right now if I wanted anything for Christmas, it would be my dad waking up. If he woke up, things would start to look up. Jinxx would finally start talking, Eve would stop crying and I would be able to tell dad I’m sorry. CC would have his partner in crime back; Mamma Jinxx would have someone else to scold, Andy would have his dad back as well, and Jake would be all daddy bear over everything he does.“Andy Dawn, you should go with Jake to get something to eat. Nothing much just something. Please.” nodding, I followed Jake to the cafeteria.



CC’s POV


I was wandering through the floors of the hospital when I somehow managed to get my self onto the floor where Cancer patients were being treated. Walking through the halls, I bumped into a girl with long black hair, which also had red stripes. “Oh my gosh, I’m so sorry.” I said to her. She smiled and said, “It’s alright. Its not everyday you bump into someone from your favorite band.” Smiling I said, “good thing I’m not in the band you hate.” She laughed. Her laugh was adorable. Taking in her appearance, I saw that she had an eyebrow piercing, septum piercing and a Marilyn Monroe piercing.Her eyes were a vibrant green, almost greener than Ireland. Her skin was pale and had a few freckles along her cheeks. She was really pretty in other words and was curvy in all the right places if you know what I mean ;)

“Hi. I’m Breaneka.” She said shyly. “Hi! I’m CC.” She nodded and said quietly, “I know.” I laughed and said, “So maybe I could buy you a coffee to make up for bumping into you?” she smiled and said, “how about a can of monster and you got yourself a deal.” “Sure. What’s your favorite monster?” I asked. “I like the blue cans as well as the original.” “Cool! I like them all! Jinxx says I drink to much so he takes them from me all the time.”

She smiled and said, “is that the Mamma Jinxx thing?” I laughed and said, “oh yes. It’s funny to watch but when he’s after you, not so much.” She laughed and said, “so MR. CC where shall you be taking me to get a monster?” “How about we go to the grocery store and then the park. I would like to get to know you more. You seem interesting.” she thought for a moment and said, “sure.” “So I believe I hear an Irish accent, are my ears correct?” she nodded and answered, “I moved here when I was 13 but the accent never left.” “That’s pretty cool though. Its different and different is awesome.” She smiled and thanked me.

“So if you’re a fan, what’s your favorite song?” I asked. “I really like Revelation off the newest album but I really like Fallen Angels, Youth and whiskey and Rebel love song. I cant pick one.” I laughed and said; “Youth and Whiskey, is that because you’re Irish?” she laughed and sheepishly said, “yeah. Whiskey is fun. My Mom used to be able to out drink my dad and I could out drink her.” “That’s awesome! I think I found a new drinking buddy! Haha I hope you don’t mind me asking but you said that in past tense, did something happen?” her smile dropped a little bit and she said, “with a week of getting here to America, they were killed in a car accident. I lived with a family friend until I was 18 and left to follow my dreams, then it’s been just me since then.”

“That sucks. I’m sorry for your loss. I probably shouldn’t have asked, anyways you said to follow your dreams, what are those?” her smiled brightened a bit and she said, “I would like to be an author but I currently work at a café.” “That’s awesome! So what do you like to do when you’re not working?” I asked as we were now exiting the hospital. “ I like to bake when I get bored, I play my guitar or drums when I need to escape to the world of music. And I like to take pictures of stuff.”

“That’s awesome! So are you a good baker?” I asked. “The best they’re ever was.” she answered with a wink. “Well you now realize I have to be the judge of that now, right?” she laughed and said, “that’s fine with me.” going into the grocery store, I bought two cans of monster and two candy bars. She said after a few minutes of silence, “I’ve talked about myself, why don’t you tell me about your self.”

I replied smiling, “well, I’m 28. I play the drums in the band called Black Veil Brides. Pugs are awesome! I love Monster and anything sugary. I like the red cherry Pepsi; I love green, family guy and the beach.”

She smiled and said, “cool! I like teal; I love the Simpson’s, the beach and the forest. I am a huge music lover. I’m shy when I first meet people and I am a crazy bitch when you hurt my family or friends.” This girl is seriously amazing. “Well Ms. I would love to hang out with you more. Can I get your number?” she blushed and handed me her phone and I handed her mine.

We hung out and learned more about each other before I had to return to the hospital. As I walked into the room, I immediately noticed Ashley was awake. My eyes widened and my jaw dropped. Slowly walking forward I said, “holy shit. Your awake!” he said, “yeah.” “Alright. So not a lot of talking dad, your jaw was fractured and shit so its gonna hurt when you talk to much.”Andy said. He nodded slowly.I looked to Andy and he got what I was asking and shook his head No.


“Ash, there’s something we need to tell you.” he nodded and Andy continued on saying, “Andy Dawn attempted suicide the day you were in the accident. It was actually hours before the accident. She’s awake and has been out of the hospital for over a week now. She’s doing well. Jinxx has her in his custody so she’s been seeing a therapist. The reason why was because of many things. 1) She was being bullied at school.” A tear rolled down his cheek. We carefully held his hand and reassuringly squeezed it. “Jinxx told us that the doctor told him that she had an eating disorder. Ash, she self harms.” He slowly said, “…My fault. I fucked...up.” “Ash, it’s not your fault. She had the eating disorder when you got custody of her. The guys and me noticed but didn’t want to say anything until we had proof.” Andy said. He closed his eyes and slowly said, “Does…she…hate…me?”

“No. Not ever. In the note she left, she said that she wanted you to not love her so when she died, it wouldn’t hurt you. She was trying to protect you. It hurt her badly to hurt you but she did it to protect you.” I said. He closed his eyes again and said, “What day is it?”
“Christmas eve.” Andy replied. “What about Christmas?” he asked. “Well, the kids are with Jinxx and Sammi right now, so Santa is still coming but we are going to have Christmas all together when you get out of the hospital.” I said.



Andy Dawn’s POV



Jake and me had been out of the room for about 30 minutes when Andy texted us saying dad woke up. Jake being Jake, made me finishes my food before we could return. Once we threw our trash away, we walked back to the hospital from the star bucks we went to. Anxiety coursed through my veins. What if Dad hates me? What if he doesn’t want the little ones or me anymore? What if he doesn’t remember us?

Putting his arm around me, Jake said, “ It’s going to be alright. Deep breathes little one. Deep breathes.” Following his advice, I calmed down a little bit. Pulling me into a hug he squeezed me until my back cracked. When he let go, I felt a little bit better. Getting in the elevator, I took several deep breaths as the elevator climbed the floors. Stepping out, I took another deep breath and then slowly walked to the room.

Knocking on the door first, I walked in. Dad sat there leaning against a bunch of pillows with his eyes shut while Andy and CC sat next to him. CC and Jake left to give Andy and me privacy. “Andy Dawn.” He said softly. “Hi dad. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.” He tried to smile but it hurt him so he stopped and then said, “I heard about what happened. Andy, my beautiful daughter, even if you pushed me away, I’d still be hurt if you died. I don’t know what I would do. I’m not mad at you. I understand that you did what you thought was right to protect me.”

Looking to the ground I said, “I never should have let what those girls said to me get to me but I did. I should have told you guys but I was scared. I was afraid I would be a burden. They made me so miserable; I took out the anger I felt out on you. I never should have done that.” “I understand. Believe me I do. I know about the other things to Andy Dawn.” Tears fell from my eyes. “I’m sorry.” Andy put his hand on my leg and patted it, letting me know he was here for me. “I know more than anyone in this room, what its like to self harm and suffer from an eating disorder. I want to get help. Sitting here now, I realized how bad it all got. But to be honest, I was eating it was my anxiety that wouldn’t let me keep it down. The cutting was because I couldn’t cope with my anxiety or with the lose of Mckendrie. I… I proposed to her. That was right before Kellin.”

We all were crying now. None of us knew that. He lost more than just his girlfriend/ex he lost his fiancée. We carefully hugged him. Jake and CC returned to the room after we sent Andy for them. Jake was silent for a moment and then said, “Before the band, back when I was like 17, I attempted suicide. Two times.” I gave him a massive hug and let him know he wasn’t alone. CC said, “I went to a party in high school and there were a lot of drugs there. I left but my friend didn’t. He died of an over dose the next day.” we all gave CC a hug. All Andy said was, “you guys know everything about me. I never kept anything of my past a secret. Well there was one thing. I knew this girl who was a few grades above me and was bullied just like me. She committed suicide days before graduation. I felt for the longest time that if I had talked to her a bit more, she’d still be me, I will recover and I will be better than ever. here.” we all gave Andy a hug and I made sure to squeeze the crap out of him. Sharing the one secret we all had, made us all closer. It brought us together, it made me feel like with these guys behind

Notes

hi guys! I'm sorry its shorter than normal! I got stuck a bit because I got writers block plus some drama in my life. anyways, Ms. Breneka is a character who was submitted by a reader!

its not to late to submit a character.

WHAT I NEED: TEEANGER. TEENAGER. TEENAGER.
I need a teenager for an idea I have. I think I need 2. so a girl or guy is fine.

stay strong, we'll brave this storm together. never give in and never back down. lets set the world on fire, for we are the Fallen Angels.
-Ash