"You fucking asshole!"

He just stood there, that smirk plastered across his face, "What did I do now, Addisan?" He asked sarcastically.

"What did you do? Keep your hands off my shit, I don't care where the fuck you found it, don't read my stuff," I screamed at him.

His now small smirk, grew bigger. "You know what, Ashley, I fucking hate you. And no, I don't fucking like you. Not as a friend, not as in like like, I just fucking hate you."

I grabbed my notebook off the table and went to my room.

I had so many thoughts running through my head;

Does he understand what someone's privacy is?
Why is he such a dick to me?

I never did anything to Ashley, to make him hate me, so I don't understand what his problem with.

As I was about to go put my phone on the dock and blast music, I heard screaming coming from downstairs.

"That's my little sister man, I don't care how fucking much you hate her, don't talk to her like that God damnit!" I heard Andy scream.

"Have you ever heard how bitchy she is too me?! She's a fucking bitch Andy and you know that, you never gave a shit about her before that one year. You treated her as bad as your fucking parents did! Don't act like number one fucking brother because you helped her out once!" Ashley fought back.

And with that, I heard a thud on the hard wood floor.

"Fuck you, Ashley!"

I just ruined my brother's friendship with his best friend. I walked into the bathroom and rummaged through the drawers.

Long time, no see, my old friend.

I'm such a fuck up.

I deserve every single scar on my wrist, or anywhere in fact.

"Your worthless," I whispered to myself. One cut.

"Piece of shit," another cut.

"Everyone feels bad for you," another cut.

"Fuck up. You fuck everything up!" I screamed. From then on, I just cut, cut, cut.

Right as I was about to do one more cut, the bathroom door from the right busted open. I looked up with tears filling my eyes to see Andy.

He grabbed a towel from the cabinet under the sink and wrapped my it around my wrist. "Why? Addisan, why?" he cried.

"I'm just a fuck up! I fuck everything up! Ashley is right, I am a worthless piece of shit, I am a bitch, Andy, I can't do this anymore! I'm just a fucking waste of space!" I screamed.

He held me close while we both cried. "Addisan Marie Biersack, your not a waste of space. You have to ignore Ashley, none of the things he say are true. Addie, I love you more than anything, you may be nineteen, but you are and always will be my baby sister. You have to stop this, this is going nowhere but making ugly marks on your body. Please Addie, stop this."

I looked up at him to see him bawling, I knew my brother cared about me, but Ashley makes me think he doesn't. Ashley made me think that I was nothing.

I have to stop listening to what Ashley says. It means nothing to me.

After we sat there for like ten minutes, Andy grabbed bandage and wrapped all the fresh new cuts up. "You have to promise me you won't do this anymore, Addie," he said.

I looked up at him. "I promise, Andy, I won't so it anymore," he smiled and pulled me into a bone crushing hug. "I love you Andrew."

"I love you too Addisan, and me and you will have to go out soon, just me and you, brother and sister," he smiled. I nodded and we went downstairs.

When we got down there, everyone was looking at us; including Ashley.

It must've been because of the smeared make up and stained tears on both of our faces.

Out of nowhere, all the guys go up and hugged me tight. These guys were like my brothers, and I know that they are there for me too.

Everyone except Ashley. He still just sat there, the ice pack resting on his right cheek. I shook my head at his asshole attitude, and walked over to a seat at the table.

It was awkwardly quiet as we all just looked at each other. I didn't bother to look at Ashley. Jinxx spoke up, "Erm, so what are we going to do the rest of today, it is only twelve in the afternoon," he said.

It was hard to believe that it was only twelve in the afternoon, so much shit happened in the time of two hours. "I don't know, none of us are really dressed to go out and do stuff, so yeah I don't know," I said.

"Shut the fuck up, no one asked for your opinion," Ashley mumbled quite loud.

"What?" I asked, "I'm sorry, speak up."

"I fucking said to shut the fuck up, no one asked for your fucking opinion," he screamed in my face.

"Ashley, can you go one fucking day without picking a fucking fight with her?" CC screamed.

"No! She just has that fucking stuck up attitude and it's fucking annoying!" Ashley shouted back in CC's direction.

"Holy shit, Ashley, tell me how I'm fucking stuck up, because obviously your the only fucking one who says anything. Is it because I'm a bitch to you? Is that why?" he nodded, "I'm a fucking bitch to you because you don't know how to respect someone, for fucks sake, you called me a fucking cunt, Ashley."

I got up, but Andy pulled me back down to sit down. I looked at him, and glared at Ashley. "Ashley, why the fuck would you call her that?" Jake asked pissed off, because I was like his little sister.

"She pissed me off," he simply said.

I sat back down in my chair and rolled my eyes. I don't know how many times I call this kid an asshole a day. "I want to punch him in the face so bad," I said.

"Sorry, your fucking brother already did," he said with a fucking attitude.

"God, I fucking hate it here," I hissed standing up and going to my room.

"Then leave for fucks sake!" He screamed from behind me.

I ignored him and went into my room, closed and locked the door.

"Fine, maybe I will."

Notes

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