Nobody's Hero
Chapter four.
He wants me to leave? That's exactly what I'll do.
I grabbed my phone and left my room. When I got downstairs, I looked Andy in the eyes. I shook my head and spoke up, "Sorry for fucking up all of your lives," I croaked out.
I walked out the door and slammed it shut behind me. I had no idea where I was going or where I would end up.
It was still early, and so much shit happened since the moment we walked off that bus. Ashley always finds something to start with me about, and I always feed into it.
If only I had someone to talk to.
Somehow, I ended up on a park bench underneath a tree. It was currently midnight. Andy, Jake, Jinxx, and CC all called and texted me asking where I was.
They don't need to know.
I felt my phone buzz again and thought it would be Andy, but to my surprise, it was Ashley.
I picked up the phone and unlocked it. I opened the text and read it out loud.
Ashley -.-
Addisan, everyone is going crazy looking for you, where the fuck are you?! Right now Andy and I are walking downtown. We will find you Addisan.
I rolled my eyes at his text and slid the phone in my hoodie pocket.
There was no one here at this time, which isn't shocking, and it's really dark. I don't mind it though, I would rather be sitting alone on a park bench at midnight, instead of sitting on the couch listening to Ashley bitching about me.
It really did piss me off. I don't even know why I waste my time thinking about why he hates me. It has to be something, because in the ten years I've known Ashley fucking Purdy, I haven't done anything to make him hate me.
I was hoping that they didn't find me. I don't want to deal with Ashley anymore, but I wouldn't have anywhere else to go.
My Insomnia must be kicking in, because right now the last thing I want to do is sleep. I got up from the park bench and started wondering downtown. I knew I wouldn't run into Andy or Ashley, because whenever Andy goes downtown, he uses it as a shortcut to go to our meeting spot on the other side of town.
I was walking with my head down, when I felt someone grab me. I thought it was Andy, until I felt a hand go over my mouth.
The mystery person dragged me down the street. I couldn't cry, because I could barely breathe, I couldn't scream because of this scum's hand over my mouth, and right then and there I knew I was screwed.
But, then I heard footsteps. "Fucking let go of her," I heard someone say. I knew the voice all to well.
It was the voice I have grown to hate. "I fucking said to put her down," the voice repeated.
I heard another pair of footsteps in the distance, and before I knew it, the scum that was gripping on to me, was on the floor.
I heard Andy's voice come closer and closer.
I ran over to him and jumped into his arms. I knew that it wasn't Andy who knocked the guy out; it was Ashley.
Sitting on the couch, in between Jake and CC, I broke the silence. "Why?" I asked looking in Ashley's direction.
"Why what?" he asked, looking up from his phone.
"Why did you help me back there?"
"I mean," he started scratching the back of his head, "Addisan, I, I don't know, did you want me to leave you there?" He asked.
"No, I'm just shocked, I thought you hated me," I said, my voice getting quieter. I looked back up at him, to see him once again engulfed in his phone. Clearly ignoring what I asked, "I'm going to bed."
I walked right past him and into my room. Slamming the door shut, I slipped out of my hoodie, and went to bed. It was a long day, and now I wanted to sleep.
Waking up the next morning, I heard voices coming from downstairs. I looked at my arm to see the bandages still there, I grabbed my old pullover from the chair in my room, and grabbed my hamper. It was my laundry day.
Yes, in this house, we all did our laundry on different days. Jinxx in on Monday, CC on Tuesday, I'm on Wednesday, Andy is on Thursday, and Ashley in on Friday.
I went to the third floor, where the washer and dryer were located, along with the guest room. I sorted my clothes and in the first pile. I threw the other piles back in the hamper and put it on top of the dryer.
I closed the laundry room doors and headed downstairs to where I heard everyone talking. "Morning Addie!" Andy screamed as I walked in to the living room.
"Morning Andy!" I screamed back. I heard a grunt; shocker. I looked up to see Ashley standing in the arch that separated the living room from the kitchen.
"Why are you two always the loudest in the morning?" He asked sitting down in an arm chair.
"I guess it's just in the Biersack genes," Andy said shrugging his shoulders. I laughed and sat back, my brother following in suit. It was awkward between us three. I still didn't get an answer as to Ashley hating me or not.
I don't want to argue, so I'm going to wait. Today I just planned on sitting around the house and doing nothing. That is always how it is the day after tour. Doing laundry was the last thing I wanted to do, but I had too. "When we getting more food?" Jake screamed from the basement, "Because we are throwing a fucking party this Friday!"
I looked at Andy. I don't know how these boys can just constantly party, but I'm not complaining. They throw some kick ass parties. "I don't know, want to go today?" Andy screamed back.
There was a minute of silence. "Sure!" Jake screamed back.
"Are you coming?" Andy asked me standing up.
I put my feet across where he was sitting and leaned against the arm of the couch. "No, today is laundry day for me."
Andy nodded and grabbed his keys from the kitchen table and called for Jake and CC. When I don't go, usually Jinxx goes, but he was up all night last night playing Xbox, so he is still sleeping. But it is a relief, because I won't have to be stuck with Ashley for two hours.
After sitting in awkward silence for about five minutes, the washer timer went off. I got up from the couch and went up the stairs.
I sorted through what had to be air dried and what could go in the dryer. After that, I put the dryer timer on and pulled out another pile to put in the washer. I then put that timer. I grabbed all the clothes that had to be air dried, and put them on the rack in the laundry room. Nobody would ever guess how organized these boys actually are. I grabbed my hamper, turned off the light to the room and closed the doors.
Making my way back to my bedroom, I heard rustling coming from the room down the hall. This must mean Jinxx is up. I walked into my room and started the shower.
I locked my bedroom door and Andy's. All three of the second floor bathroom are connected between two rooms.
Andy and mine, CC and Jinxx, and Jake and Ashley.
After stepping in the shower and letting the hot water run down my body I was in deep thinking. Nothing in particular. I knew there was one thing I had to do, but I couldn't put my finger on it.
After doing what I had to do I grabbed something casual, yet comfortable to wear. As I was looking through the drawers of the double sink, I found an empty prescription bottle.
Come on, Addisan. How could you forget that?
I had to go to the pharmacy to refill my Attention Deficit Disorder or ADD pills. Yes, Andy and I both have ADD and honestly it sucks.
I threw the bottle on my bed and found the simple hair tie I was looking for. I put my hair in a messy bun, and grabbed my keys, the bottle, and a pair of black Vans. I unlocked both of our doors and headed downstairs. I found Jinxx almost half asleep in the kitchen. "What are you doing?" I asked. His head snapped up and he nodded. Yeah, he was still half asleep.
I grabbed a water bottle and walked into the living room to grab my phone. "Where are you going?" Jinxx asked.
"Pharmacy," I said, waiting for Ashley to make a comment about it, "to refill my pills."
"Okay."
"Do you need someone to go with you?" Ashley asked, his back still facing me.
I grabbed my phone and left my room. When I got downstairs, I looked Andy in the eyes. I shook my head and spoke up, "Sorry for fucking up all of your lives," I croaked out.
I walked out the door and slammed it shut behind me. I had no idea where I was going or where I would end up.
It was still early, and so much shit happened since the moment we walked off that bus. Ashley always finds something to start with me about, and I always feed into it.
If only I had someone to talk to.
Somehow, I ended up on a park bench underneath a tree. It was currently midnight. Andy, Jake, Jinxx, and CC all called and texted me asking where I was.
They don't need to know.
I felt my phone buzz again and thought it would be Andy, but to my surprise, it was Ashley.
I picked up the phone and unlocked it. I opened the text and read it out loud.
Ashley -.-
Addisan, everyone is going crazy looking for you, where the fuck are you?! Right now Andy and I are walking downtown. We will find you Addisan.
I rolled my eyes at his text and slid the phone in my hoodie pocket.
There was no one here at this time, which isn't shocking, and it's really dark. I don't mind it though, I would rather be sitting alone on a park bench at midnight, instead of sitting on the couch listening to Ashley bitching about me.
It really did piss me off. I don't even know why I waste my time thinking about why he hates me. It has to be something, because in the ten years I've known Ashley fucking Purdy, I haven't done anything to make him hate me.
I was hoping that they didn't find me. I don't want to deal with Ashley anymore, but I wouldn't have anywhere else to go.
My Insomnia must be kicking in, because right now the last thing I want to do is sleep. I got up from the park bench and started wondering downtown. I knew I wouldn't run into Andy or Ashley, because whenever Andy goes downtown, he uses it as a shortcut to go to our meeting spot on the other side of town.
I was walking with my head down, when I felt someone grab me. I thought it was Andy, until I felt a hand go over my mouth.
The mystery person dragged me down the street. I couldn't cry, because I could barely breathe, I couldn't scream because of this scum's hand over my mouth, and right then and there I knew I was screwed.
But, then I heard footsteps. "Fucking let go of her," I heard someone say. I knew the voice all to well.
It was the voice I have grown to hate. "I fucking said to put her down," the voice repeated.
I heard another pair of footsteps in the distance, and before I knew it, the scum that was gripping on to me, was on the floor.
I heard Andy's voice come closer and closer.
I ran over to him and jumped into his arms. I knew that it wasn't Andy who knocked the guy out; it was Ashley.
Sitting on the couch, in between Jake and CC, I broke the silence. "Why?" I asked looking in Ashley's direction.
"Why what?" he asked, looking up from his phone.
"Why did you help me back there?"
"I mean," he started scratching the back of his head, "Addisan, I, I don't know, did you want me to leave you there?" He asked.
"No, I'm just shocked, I thought you hated me," I said, my voice getting quieter. I looked back up at him, to see him once again engulfed in his phone. Clearly ignoring what I asked, "I'm going to bed."
I walked right past him and into my room. Slamming the door shut, I slipped out of my hoodie, and went to bed. It was a long day, and now I wanted to sleep.
Waking up the next morning, I heard voices coming from downstairs. I looked at my arm to see the bandages still there, I grabbed my old pullover from the chair in my room, and grabbed my hamper. It was my laundry day.
Yes, in this house, we all did our laundry on different days. Jinxx in on Monday, CC on Tuesday, I'm on Wednesday, Andy is on Thursday, and Ashley in on Friday.
I went to the third floor, where the washer and dryer were located, along with the guest room. I sorted my clothes and in the first pile. I threw the other piles back in the hamper and put it on top of the dryer.
I closed the laundry room doors and headed downstairs to where I heard everyone talking. "Morning Addie!" Andy screamed as I walked in to the living room.
"Morning Andy!" I screamed back. I heard a grunt; shocker. I looked up to see Ashley standing in the arch that separated the living room from the kitchen.
"Why are you two always the loudest in the morning?" He asked sitting down in an arm chair.
"I guess it's just in the Biersack genes," Andy said shrugging his shoulders. I laughed and sat back, my brother following in suit. It was awkward between us three. I still didn't get an answer as to Ashley hating me or not.
I don't want to argue, so I'm going to wait. Today I just planned on sitting around the house and doing nothing. That is always how it is the day after tour. Doing laundry was the last thing I wanted to do, but I had too. "When we getting more food?" Jake screamed from the basement, "Because we are throwing a fucking party this Friday!"
I looked at Andy. I don't know how these boys can just constantly party, but I'm not complaining. They throw some kick ass parties. "I don't know, want to go today?" Andy screamed back.
There was a minute of silence. "Sure!" Jake screamed back.
"Are you coming?" Andy asked me standing up.
I put my feet across where he was sitting and leaned against the arm of the couch. "No, today is laundry day for me."
Andy nodded and grabbed his keys from the kitchen table and called for Jake and CC. When I don't go, usually Jinxx goes, but he was up all night last night playing Xbox, so he is still sleeping. But it is a relief, because I won't have to be stuck with Ashley for two hours.
After sitting in awkward silence for about five minutes, the washer timer went off. I got up from the couch and went up the stairs.
I sorted through what had to be air dried and what could go in the dryer. After that, I put the dryer timer on and pulled out another pile to put in the washer. I then put that timer. I grabbed all the clothes that had to be air dried, and put them on the rack in the laundry room. Nobody would ever guess how organized these boys actually are. I grabbed my hamper, turned off the light to the room and closed the doors.
Making my way back to my bedroom, I heard rustling coming from the room down the hall. This must mean Jinxx is up. I walked into my room and started the shower.
I locked my bedroom door and Andy's. All three of the second floor bathroom are connected between two rooms.
Andy and mine, CC and Jinxx, and Jake and Ashley.
After stepping in the shower and letting the hot water run down my body I was in deep thinking. Nothing in particular. I knew there was one thing I had to do, but I couldn't put my finger on it.
After doing what I had to do I grabbed something casual, yet comfortable to wear. As I was looking through the drawers of the double sink, I found an empty prescription bottle.
Come on, Addisan. How could you forget that?
I had to go to the pharmacy to refill my Attention Deficit Disorder or ADD pills. Yes, Andy and I both have ADD and honestly it sucks.
I threw the bottle on my bed and found the simple hair tie I was looking for. I put my hair in a messy bun, and grabbed my keys, the bottle, and a pair of black Vans. I unlocked both of our doors and headed downstairs. I found Jinxx almost half asleep in the kitchen. "What are you doing?" I asked. His head snapped up and he nodded. Yeah, he was still half asleep.
I grabbed a water bottle and walked into the living room to grab my phone. "Where are you going?" Jinxx asked.
"Pharmacy," I said, waiting for Ashley to make a comment about it, "to refill my pills."
"Okay."
"Do you need someone to go with you?" Ashley asked, his back still facing me.
Still in love
6/14/15