Reyas POV
Siren had pulled in the driveway. She looked over at me. "What?"

I held one hand up to my mouth and held back the tears as I held my phone in her direction.

She pulled it from my grasp. "What could be so- oh shit. Oh fuck. Oh...OK...yeah...this is bad. Uh..." She placed a hand sympathetically on mine. "Reya, you know this had to happen. How else could you be with Andy?"

"IT SHOULDN'T HAVE HAPPENED LIKE THIS!" I yelled in the car. "I CHEATED on him, Siren! He's been cheated on so many times...and I...I promised, not I SWORE to him I'd never do that!"

"Reya, this isn't your fault. Tell me, tell me right now, when you wake up who do you think about?" she asked.

"Andy..."

"THAT'S RIGHT, Andy. I KNOW when we were in Indianapolis and you swore you loved Clayton that you didn't. Cause when I mentioned Black Veil Brides new album you got so pissy with me! And don't say it didn't upset you because I could hear you crying yourself to sleep until Clayton came in and you sucked it up and put a smile on your face just so that you wouldn't have to tell him. If you didn't love Andy would you have really given him your virginity? The one thing I know you treasured and coveted more than ANYTHING? If you didn't trust Andy, if you didn't care about Andy, if you didn't LOVE Andy I know you wouldn't have done that. If you loved Clayton you would have made him your first. But you didn't Reya!" She placed her hands on my shoulders, staring into my eyes and shaking me lightly. "Wake up, Reya! It's over now. You are with Andy now. Do you really think he'd like to know that you are sitting here crying about Clayton? What do you think he'd do?"

"Dont you dare tell him," I growled through the retreating tears.

"Exactly." She let go of me. "Come on Rey. It's 11:30. Let's get some sleep. I know we are both exhausted."

I sniffled a few times and nodded my head. I grabbed my bag and followed her into our dark apartment. I set my purse on the counter.

Siren was staring at me from across the room. "Oh Rey." she walked over to me and embraced me in a big hug. "It's all going to be OK." I held her close. "Listen to me, don't you dare think about hurting yourself. If you need anything I'll be here for you."

"Thanks, Si. I'm gonna go get a shower and go to bed." "Sounds like a good plan. I'm gonna set up a movie or something and some popcorn. What do ya think?"

"Sounds good," I weakly laughed. I left her in the living room and went into our shared bedroom. I pulled out a pair of cotton short and a stretchy tank top. I walked into the bathroom and turned on the shower. I pulled the ponytail out of my hair and quickly brushed out my long layers before stepping into the steaming shower.

I sighed in relief as the water spilled over me. I scrubbed the vanilla scented shampoo through my hair and used the mango body wash. I reached down and picked up my shaver. I ran it over my under arms. I began to place it down when my eyes locked on the bright silver blade. Oh...how easy this could be. I have an emergency razor hidden in this shower, hidden in the underside of my face wash case in here between the two compartments of the base. It would be so easy. I could pull it out and cut my hips, oh the sweet ecstasy of the cold metal across my skin. Watching the blood leak down my body and blend with the warm water. Such beauty in pain. The loving burn fills my body as the life and pain slowly leak from me. I close my eyes in joy of the pain. Fuck. No. I shake my head, panicking as I look down. The blade is in my hand. There is blood mixed with the water. I look at my leg...Nothing. My hips are only marked with faded out and old healed scars from months ago. What the hell. Where is the blood from? I look at my arms...nothing new. I open the case and return the blade, hissing as I feel the electricity through my left hand with pain. I turn over my hand, seeing a fresh cut.

I didn't purposefully do it, I'd been clutching the blade so tight and not even noticed it. I...I stopped myself...I didn't technically cut... I got out of the shower and dried myself. I dressed the cut and pulled out my spandex black and grey scene gloves. I separated my scenes style from the rest of my hair and pulled the longer layers into a high ponytail. I turned off the light and stepped out of the bathroom.

Siren was already asleep on the couch, curled up with her my little pony blanket and a bowl of ice cream. I rolled my eyes and turned the light off. I closed the door to the bedroom and snuggled down in my bed. It was so...empty. My phone buzzed. I looked down at the glowing screen. It was...Andy. Requesting a FaceTime. I accepted. The light on my iPhone turned on and Andy's face came onto my screen.

"Oops! Sorry babe! Did I wake you?"

"No, no, I was just laying in bed."

"Oh, I just wanted to see if you got home OK."

I lay my head down on my pillow, tilting my phone with me. "I miss you."

"I miss you too baby." He is sadly smirking. I reached up to brush my bangs back. "Why are you wearing gloves?"

"Oh...uh..." I froze.

"Reya don't tell me you did anything."

"I swear I didn't!"

"Then take off your gloves," he says as his voice lowered and his face tightens.

I sighed and pulled off the glove on my right hand. "See?"

"And the other."

I sighed again. "Just promise you will listen to me first, OK?" he nodded. "Ok, I was in the shower, I was thinking about cutting and how great it'd feel. Next thing I knew I had the blade in my hand."

"Show me."

"Andy...please...I just."

"Show me."

I pulled the dressing from my hand, revealing the deep incision in my palm. He studied it. "It's not what you think Andy," I whispered. "I didn't do it purposely. I wanted to...but I didn't. I cut my hand because I had gripped the blade too hard when trying to resist doing it. Please don't be m-"

"I'm proud of you," he interrupted.

"I know I'm so- wait...what?"

"I'm proud of you darling. You stopped yourself, injuring yourself in the process but you resisted, and that's the hardest thing to do."

"Thanks Andy."

"Reya, you are beautiful, scars and all, but why continue to damage such beauty? If you saw the most beautiful rose you would run and pluck off all it's pedals would you? No, you'd cherish it, and preserve in in all it's beauty until you finally must allow it to die. Baby, you are the most beautiful girl I've ever set my eyes on. Don't keep plucking your petals. Eventually you'll run out, and I won't be able to put them back together, only you can do it, and I know you can and will."

I held back the tears welling in my eyes. "Andy...that's beautiful."

"You're beautiful." He blew me a kiss. "I'd kiss every scar on you if I could, just to show you that I think every part of you is beautiful."

"I want to hug you so badly right now."

"I want to kiss you," he said back with a smile.

"I want to cuddle with you," I replied.

"JUST FUCK ALREADY!" someone yelled.

"Who was that?" I laughed.

"FUCK YOU MOTHERFUCKER!" he yelled to someone off screen.

"I USED TO BE a motherfucker. Now I'm a Siren fucker!" Ashley yelled back.

"Good God Ash. And how would I fuck her over the phone?" Andy asked.

Ashleys face came in the shot on my screen. "Seriously? Phone sex, nudes, mastur-"

"THAT'S ENOUGH," Andy and I said at the same time.

"I'll tell you later," Ash said shoving Andy and with a wink he disappeared. "OH REYA? Where's my girl?"

"Sleeping Ash, she's out on the couch," I said with a giggle. He mumbled something I could hear. Andy stood and entered his bunk. "So where are you guys at babe?" "

Somewhere in Nebraska. I expect when we stop for gas soon a blue shirted little freak will stalk us down," he laughed as he closed the curtain to his bunk, turning a small mstring of lights on.

I bust out laughing. "Excuse me while I tweet Bryan Stars."

"No doll, it's Bryan Starzzzz...zzz..zzz...z."

"Sorrrrrryyy. Bryan Starzzzzzzzz."

"No, that's too many z's."

"Fuck you Andy," I said holding up my middle finger to the camera.

"You already did," he replied with a wink. "Hey baby I got a penis."

"I know you do."

"Damn right you do!" We both kept laughing. I yawned widely as I felt the exhaustion hitting my body. "Are you gonna go to sleep baby?" he whispered, his voice low.

"Mmmuh." I mumbled. "

Why not, you look tired."

"I don't want to hang up," I grumbled with another yawn.

"Let me help you sleep," he quietly began to hum. It slowly flowed into his beautiful voice.

"I ruled the world. With these hands I shook the heavens to the ground.
I laid the gods to rest. I held the key to the kingdom lions guarding castle walls.
Hail the king of death. Then I lost it all.
Dead and broken my backs against the wall."

The worlds began melting into a string of melodies. I closed my eyes as things began to quiet. My phone dropped from my grasp as I slipped into a beautiful sleep.

Andy's POV

As I sang to Reya I could see sleep overtaking her. Her eyes drooped and her body began to slump over into her pillow. Slowly the camera tilted and I could see her angelic face, relaxed in sleep. Her lips ever so slightly pouted, her eyes closed, and her chest closely rising and falling to an invisible beat. I rested my own head in my pillow and laid memorized by her sleeping form. There was such a sense of safety in watching her at peace like that. I pulled my batman blanket over my torso and myself drifted off as I watched a small smile creep into her face.

"I luh you anny," she mumbled.

"I love you my beautiful rose, sleep now my darling, Reyalie."

Notes

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