"I..I...l-love you too."
The line went dead. So did my heart.

My arm fell to the side, phone still clentched in my fingers. I'm so horrible. Not only did I cheat, but now I'm leading him on. He's going on tour though! I...I can't hurt him now. He can't be mopy on stage. What can I do? I want to scream. I fold my legs and sit cross legged on the asphalt next to the bus. My head drops into my hands as I hold in the waterworks. Damn it. Damn this. Why must everything be so fucking complicated? Can I never just be happy?
The door to the bus opens, and I'm engulfed in a pair of long tattooed arms. Black straight hair cascades over my shoulder. I look over to see it was Ashley hugging me.
I sniffle, wiping away tears, "Wh-what are you doing here?"
"I saw from the window, I know you don't like people seeing you weak. I know I seem like a perverted asshole most of the time, which I am, but I have a heart too." He too curled his legs and sat, back against the back rim of the tour bus. He reached over and placed his hand over mine, that was resting on my bent knee. "Why don't ya tell me what's going on."

I stared, wide eyed at Ashley. I'd never been close to him ever. Honestly I never understood what Siren ever saw...or sees in him. He pushed, his eyebrows persuading me to speak. I drew in a shaky breath, "When Andy cheated, I was a wreck. I started cutting again. Then I met Clayton. I'd known him because he's the guitarist of Late Nite Reading. I'd met them before in Indiana. He recognized me, we started talking, you know how it goes. I've been clean for eight months, since I met him, almost nine. I promised him to stop. I had started again because I used to wake up having anxiety or panic attacks. It hurt so badly." I turned my arms over, exposing the fading scars that painted my wrists. Ashley pulled in a sick gasp. "I know...they are horrible. Clayton was the first person I let back in my protective walls. He made me smile, and laugh, even when he was over 1000miles away. If I had a panic attack he'd call me and talk to me, or sing to me."
"Sounds like a great guy."
"He is...he just called me...and he said I love you."
"Ahhh, I see now." Ashley wrapped his arm around my back and pulled me into his side. "Reya, you do love him, but differently than Andy, right?"
I nodded my head as I stared at him. He flipped his silky hair out of his eyes.

"Reya, you can't have both. If you love Clayton, stay with him. But if you still have the same burning feelings for Andy, then let Clayton go. I know it seems so difficult to decided, but that's what it comes down to. You can't stop everyone from getting hurt."
"I know Ash," I said as I wiped under my eyes again. "I'm j-just...so confused."
"I know sweetie. Listen to your heart, it will lead you the right way."
I looked over noticing a slight blush in his cheeks. "Ashley Purdy, are you blushing?" I laughed.
"Yeah," he chuckled. "Just thinking about how I went through something similar a few months ago. You know my reputation, ladies man." He rolled his eyes. "I've been seeing this ine girl, smoking hot, off and in since the we stitch these wounds era. Then I met Siren. When you too left, I got back with the bunny, seriously she's a Playboy bunny. Tall, curvy blonde. Best tits I've ever seen."
"You we talking about Siren," I laughed as I punched him in the arm.
"Oh, yeah. Sorry. Uh...but like I was saying I started hooking up with her again, but when I did, it didn't feel the same anymore. I mean, sex is sex, but this was just that, sex. When I was with Siren, it wasn't sex, we...we made love."
I stared at his large eyes, seeing a glow, a sort of brilliance. A smile was plastered on his squared face.
"Wow...I would have never known," I whispered.
"She's...she's amazing."
Suddenly a little light bulb fired in my head. "Are you the one who bought Siren that ring?"
"Oh yeah, it's a promise ring. I gave it to her when you guys were near Indianapolis."
Clayton...that's the weekend he first kissed me. "Oh, wow."
Ashkey stood up, holding a hand out for me. "Come on beautiful, let's get cleaned up and dressed. I say we all go out for a nice dinner or a movie or something."
I giggled and used his hand to pull myself up.

We got back on the bus and all agreed to go see a movie. I borrowed a pair of skinny jeans Siren had left on the bus, she Appearntly left a lot of clothes on here. I touched up my natural ringlet curled and did smokey eye make up. I put on a black tank top with a cross in pyramid studs that was Ashley's and put my black leather jacket over it with my black spike heels ankle boots from last night. I walked back to the living room, oh he'll, we are all wearing black. I caught a glimpse of Andy...oh my. He stood up from his place on the couch, wearing black skinnies and a black leather vest with a crop top of some type under. Oh good lord he is so sexy. He smiled when he saw me, walking over and placing a tender kiss on my lips as he leaned down. All of the guys let out a collective groan, but Siren cat called. I laughed into Andy's lips as I let go, taking his hand in mine. The driver took us to the theater, and we all stepped off. The driver had parked in the back so we had to walk across the lot. Andy walked beside me, taking my hand in his long slender fingers, weaving with mine. I blushed as we walked down the lot to the doors. Damn, we had all slept the day away, it was sunset. Siren and Ashley walked, arms around each other beside us. The rest of the guys walked behind us, since Ella had gone home this morning for a fashion shoot, Sammi had to fly back to Europe for her bands tour, and Lauren had a wedding to attend.
We were almost to the door, when suddenly a group of girls came running up.
"OMG! It's BVB! Can we get a picture with you guys?" they all squealed. Siren and I laughed and stepped aside for the four fan girls to take pictures and get autographs.

"Alrighty girls, we are gonna miss our movie!" Ashley said as he walked back to Sirens side. Andy hugged each girl and then followed me into the theater, wrapping his arm around my waist. He bought our tickets to see Fast N the Furious 6. CC and Jake each bought a giant thing of popcorn for themselves. I was especially worried when CC was able to buy three monsters. Andy bought me a box of Buncha Crunch, my favorite candy. It made me smile that he still remembered that. He also got us drinks and a small bucket of popcorn. Luckily there wasn't a lot of people in the theater. We took our seats, I sat between Andy and Siren. Andy wrapped his arm around my shoulders and I cuddled into his shoulder. It was a great movie, although I was extremely worried when CC said he wanted to try the drifting and drag racing thing with the tour bus. I almost cried in the ending when Han and Chisel die. Definitely an awesome movie though! At the end of the movie I stiffly stood up, and stretched out my back as the lights came back up. Andy wrapped his arms around from behind as I stretched my arms and he planted a kiss on my cheek. I giggled and turned around, wrapped in his arms as I reached up on my tippy toes and kissed him lightly.
We left the theater and boarded the bus. The driver came into the living room.
"Hey guys, John says we need to get on the road tonight."

Notes

Uh oh. Back on the road.
So school started again, and I'm having panic attacks again :/
right now I'm watching teen wolf

I'm tired so here ya go! I hope you liked this. Thanks for all the views, subs, ratings, comments :)
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