"I still love you," we whispered in unison.

Pain flooded in my chest like consuming fire. The flames licked at my heart, singed my lungs, and melted my brain. The air caught caught in my throat as I choked on my own breath. Swaying, my knees felt weak, as if I'd been running a few miles. I stood frozen in his ice blue eyes as they mirrored a similar resoonse. Pain. Need. Confusion. Lust. My chin dropped and my forehead contacted with his thin shoudler. I collapsed, my walls had fallen. My cold heart had melted, but left one that was scorched and ash like. I swear I could feel as if I knife had been jammed into my sternum and blood was pouring from it. There was no greater pain than this. He held me close as I sobbed. I was oblivious to the hundreds of dancing bodies as Andy finally led us away from the newly energized dance floor. As we passed the door leading to the lobby we'd been in earlier, Andy leaned down and whispered, "Would you like to join me outside?" I nodded slowly as I wiped away the tears. He gently placed a hand on my back and led me outside of the venue. We stepped out into the humid Florida night. He continued walking toward a large row of tour busses. We continued down the line until we reached the Black Veil Brides bus. Andy used his key and opened the empty bus.

He held a hand out to help me up the stairs. I stepped into lavish black decorated bus. It was so much bigger and nicer than the one I'd been on. This me was decorated with black leather sofas, a large 40" flat screen, and a black on aluminum kitchenette. Andy sat down on a black recliner facing the tv. I sat on the couch across from it, trying to calm myself down. It wasn't working. Andy sighed and held his arms straight out and motioned with his hands to come over. I pulled off my high heels and crawled onto the leaned back recliner with Andy. How many times had I wished I could just lay with him and forget the world like I used to? I'd slept with a pillow, only dreaming as I held it that it could be Andy's warm, bare, tattooed chest. He pulled me close and wrapped an arm around me as he held me into his chest. He set his iPhone on the speaker home next to the chair. I wrapped my arm around his torso, snuggling my head into the shoudler of his black button up shirt. I readjusted my dress to cover myself and did my best to calm down. Andy began to slowly rock the leaded back recliner as we listened to his playlist. We said nothing as the songs came and went. I had no idea about the time. I didn't care. My phone went off a few times but I ignored it. I couldn't move, not when I'd been longing for this moment for so long. My eyes began to feel heavy as Andy's soothing hums mixed with the gentle rocking of the recliner. I could feel my heart relaxing and my breath becoming steadier and quieter. His music switched to a soft song. A song id known too well lately.
"Katie don't cry. I know, you're trying your hardest, and the hardest part is letting go of the nights we shared. Ocala is calling and you know it haunting but compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright. And when we look to the skies, its mine, but i want it so. Lets not pretend like youre alone tonight. I know hes there and your probably hanging out and making nice, while across the room he stares.
Ill bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor, and ask my girl to dance. She'll say yes, because these words were never easier for me to say, or her to second guess. But I guess, I can live without you, but without you ill be miserable at best.
Youre all that I hoped id find, in every single way. But everything that I would give is everything you couldnt take. Cause nothing feels like home, when youre a thousand miles away. And the hardest part of living is just taking breaths to stay. Cause I know I'm good for something I just haven't found it yet. I need it....
And this will the first time in week that I've talked to you and I can't speak. It's been three whole days since I've had sleep. Cause I dream of his lips on your cheek. I got the point that I should leave you alone, but we both know that im not that strong. I miss the lips that made me fly."
Here in these warm tattooed arms was where I wanted to be. This is where I belonged. This is...this is what I love...who I love. I love Clayton...but differently. Clayton is like my best friend, my brother. these lips made me fly. These arms made me feel strong. This voice makes mine spoken and strong. I can't take this, not one more night. I can't live without him. I can't do this anymore. I can't be strong forever. I'm broken, but I'm beautiful. In Andy's words that I remember, clear like a bell.
"Why," I cried from my place in my hospital bed. I was covered in bandages. I was bruised and scarred...permanently. "...why do you...care so much? I know I'm shattered, and a mess...and I don't know why you jumped in so headfirst into all of my mess. I'm just...shatteered remains." I said as a tear crept down my face. He stood up, leaning over me.
"Reya, you aren't just any girl. And you aren't a mess. If you insist you are just remains...you are beautiful remains...that I would like to see whole again." he whispered. He leaned closer, placing his lips on my forehead. "You may be remains, but some day, some day, you will no longer be a puzzle, but instead the beautiful picture they create."

That day in the hospital, after Seth had hurt me so badly in that hotel room. Andy saved me. Those words...I'm a mess still, but with Andy my puzzle is not longer impossible. I feel like the I true com together and becomes attainable. This...this is when I belong. I would wait an eternity, because Andy's more than a crush, this bleeding heart, there's no rust here. No dust has grown over my love for him, it's always been he, suppressed. It's golden, and I had decided to paint it black. But all I did was cover it. Our love is still golden. The way we left is alright, but we will never go without an argument or a fight. I might hate his words, but I know that hes right. This is my life, there's no way to way to get rid of the pain in stomach, because this pain is what I'm doing to myself. It's an empty hole I create every time I leave Anyd. I can't do this anymore. I can't...here. Here's in Andy arms. This is my heaven.


I strained to open my eyes, still very groggy from sleep. I blinked through the blur as my eyes adjusted to the dim lighting. Where am I? I'm...in a bus? I go to stretch before realizing, there's another person asleep with me. I tilt my head up, Andy's face was calm with sleep, looking so much like an angel. I blinked a few more times with my eyes squinted as I realized I'd woken from the sound of laughter. The door of the bus swung open and in comes Siren and Ashley, and she's got her legs around his waist as he carries her uo the steps. They both have their eyes closed as they kiss. The door bangs shut. Andy jolted in his sleep, eyes opening and body stiffening as he sharply pulled me into him. He stays quiet as he sees the love birds continue down to the the bunks. He rolls his eyes before turning his attention to me. His grip on my loosens. He is scanning my look, wondering what I'm thinking. I glance at the clock in the wall. 2:03A.M.

I yawn suddenly and Andy lets out a low chuckle. Oh god I forgot how much his sleep voice excited me. It was some ones just injected my veins with hot acid. Andy looks at me with a small smile playing on the corners of his lips. "Why don't you go back to my bunk so you can sleep?" I mumble "OK" before we both slowly Untangle from each other, stretching as we stand up. He turns and looks at me. I close the space between us and wrap my arms around his torso under his arms, holding him close. He seemed confused at first but relaxes as he holds my head into his chest like a child. I savor his smell, the sound of his heart beating in his chest against my ears, the warmth of his body, everything.
I pull away my head, looking in his icey blue eyes in the dark lighting. They only seem more vibrant. One look and I'm sold. I don't know what came over me, but I leaned up, crushing my lips against his. Holy Jesus...my body was on fire now. Save me now. His lips were so soft against mine, and that lip ring, good I'd forgot how much I'd loved kissing him with this. His lips have buried me. My heart is racing as we share this moment. Take me. Eagerness, pain, passion it was all piled into one long passionate kiss. I'll take whatever he gives me.I never want this to stop in this temporary love. I want it all. I wrap my arms around his neck, pulling myself up to his body as his arms wrap even tighter around my body. He pulls me up by my thighs and I pull myself up, wrapping my legs around his hips. His hands splay out on my back as he massages his fingers on my spine. I balance myself in his hold, keeping my lips against his as I reach down with my hands, pulling the top buttons open on his dress shirt. His lips turn up as he holds back a smile. His hand trails up to my head, his fingers pulling my hair out of the high ponytail, spilling my long hair over my shoudlers and back. Andy walks, taking us past a now sleeping Siren and Ashley in the bunks to the back bedroom. He closed the door with his foot. Setting me down on the edge of the bed, I stand up. I pull our lips away, gasping for breath for a moment. I reach out and start taking off the last few buttons of his shirt and pulling it over his shoudlers, letting it fall to the floor. His bare skin was so beautiful in the dim light from the moon pouring in the window. His skin looked porceline white and his black sleeve and other arm looked only more beautiful...He smiled and wrapped his arms around me, pulling down the zipper on the back of my dress. He slipped his fingers in the side of the dress and pulled it down as it slid to the floor. I kicked it next to his shirt. I pulled him back into a kiss as he walked us backed to the bed. He picked me up and put me on it, without hesitating to crawl over me. Good lord, my body is going insane. Andy's hands do the same as mine, relearning each others bodies. He pulls away for moment, his lips trailing over my neck, I could feel each slow, careful kiss as he continued down my neck, onto my bust and down the center of my stomach. My stomach was burning now. I reached for the buckle of his jeans, kicking them off with him. I heard them join the pile.
"I'm yours Andy," I say into his ear as he kisses my neck.
He pulls back and looks be very carefully in the eye. "Reya, are you sure? You..you never wanted to.."
"I know what I used to say, but Andy I've never been so sure before. I love you, Andrew Biersack," I said as I pulled his lips back to mine. I opened my mouth, our tongues dancing with each other.
"I love you Reya Chance," I says into my mouth.

Notes

*let your dirty minds wander*

i hope you guys like this. I went a bit out of my comfort zone but hopefully you like it. I didn't want to go 50 shades of grey on this. Some thing are best left to the reader imagination.

thank you to everyone who reads! Please comment (: I love comments.
So who do you like more Reyton or Rendy? (Reya and clayton) (Reya and Andy)?

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