Reyas POV
My heart is torn. Ever since Siren brought up Andy, I can't get him out of my head. It's like someone has taken a dagger to my heart, and I'm not sure which side of my heart is which anymore. A part of me loves Clayton, with his funny ways and adorable teddy bear eyes. There is no sad moment when I'm with him, because he's a constant party. Then there's Andy. There's passion, and maturity. There's no moment that goes by that it's not intense. But how long can intensity survive. Do I love him still? Could I still love him after all that happened? He cheated on me, in plain public sight. Why did Siren have to mention this? It's only making my anxiety worse. I was happy and content, and now I'm brooding again.

Ive been here with Clayton and Brady for a few days. Things have been pretty good. The guys act a lot like large bands, party all night and sleep all day. I'm pretty sure the earliest anyone here wakes up is two or three in the afternoon. I've sat in on a few of Late Nite Readings band practices. We are going to be auditioning against a few other bands to tour with Late Nite Reading this fall. Auditions will be held in a month. Siren and I are performing as an acoustic duet. We will play together, singing and playing our acoustic guitars with our songs. I hope this goes well in auditioning because I must say, I seriously miss touring. We would be on three week tour of the US with them and Timmy, a kid who has a one man band. It's called 7 minutes in heaven. I got to meet him yesterday, he seems pretty cool.

Im getting a little suspicious of Siren right now though. Ever time I see her, she's trying to text inconspicuously. She's ALWAYS texting. She's always trying not to smile. I wonder if she's got a boyfriend or something. Why hasn't she mentioned it to me? I hope she's not afraid to tell me she moved on from Ash. I shake my head as I walk in the room we share. She's listening to some CD, more like blasting some CD. Her eyes are closed as she lays in her back. I walk over to the CD player and find a black case. I gasp as I flip it over. Black Veil Brides. I slam the mute button.
Sirens eyes snap open as she sits up. "What the fuck?! I was- oh Reya. Sorry."
"I could say the same thing. What the fuck is this? I thought we made an agreement to both be done with Black Veil Brides?!" I yelled as I threw the case down in front of her.
"It's just a CD Reya. You should really listen to it. You'd really love it."
"I don't give a shit. I don't wanna here it. I don't wanna think about it. I don't wanna think about Andy! I don't wanna here his voice or that whore Juliet's voice in place of mine in the studio. I don't wanna think about everything anymore Siren. It's giving me anxiety problems and Ive been considering cutting again! I CANT HANDLE IT. So STOP."

Someone cleared their voice. I turned to see Clayton and Brady standing in the doorway. Clayton looked sick...concerned...and slightly pissed. Brady slowly walked away, obviously uncomfortable.
"Clayton...I..." I stammered.
"You cut yourself?" he asked as his face hardened.
I dropped my head. I couldn't answer. He walked forward and grabbed my hand, pulling away my wristbands to reveal the scarred slash marks. They were an off shade of white pink, raised skin.
"I've been clean since we start dating. It's been six months. I promise." My voice cracked.
"Why would you do it now? After all that? You'd give it all up someone whose not in your life and only hurt yourself because of what they did."
"I know it's stupid, Clayton. But I don't know how to deal with the anxiety anymore..."
"You said Andy. You're ex Andy?"
"Not just any Andy, Clayton. Andy Biersack of Black Veil Brides. I didn't just tour with them. I dated Andy." I felt the tear begin to form. I never wanted to have to tell him this. "He...cheated on me with Juliet. That's when I started really cutting again. I'm moving over it slowly. I won't ask you to bear with me if you don't want to. I know...I'm a mess..." I couldn't help but start crying.

He sighed and wrapped his arms around me, pulling me into his chest. "I wish you would have told me, ReyRey." He rubbed a hand up and down my back. "I could have tried to help you. I'm not going to abandon you because you self harm." I pulled away and looked at him. "Reya, it does concern me hat you are still emotionally attached to him, but if you say you want to stay together I won't leave."

"I don't want to lose you," I whispered as I pulled him into a close hug.
His lips buried into the hair on the top of my head. "Then I'll stay."

Andys POV
"You're not staying?"
"No I'm not," Juliet answered from the buses bathroom. She peaked her head around the corner, curling iron still in her black hair.
"You're seriously leaving?" I asked from my place on my bus's sofa.
"Yep. I'm going back to my studio and I won't be here for the Warped Tour celebration. Sorry."
I could feel the muscles in my face form the frown on the tips of my lip. "You're not just leaving in tour are you." It wasn't a question.
Juliet returned to the living area, putting down her make bag beside the rest. She sighed loudly and sat beside me, taking my hands in hers. "Andy, listen. Ive cherished the years we've spent and the year we have been dating, but...it's time to grow. I do love you, but...things are complicated and I feel like this isn't working out anymore. You've been getting drunk so much and I think we barely talk anymore. We fuck but that's not love Andy. Im looking to find my forever and I don't think it's here. That's why I'm leaving."

I remained speechless for a moment. I pulled my hands away from hers slowly and brushed back my hair. She stared at me, studying every feature of my expression. I sighed too. "I guess I saw it coming."
"You what?"
"It was predictable. I understand."
"You...understand?" she asked questionably. "You aren't...surprised? You aren't going to try to keep me?"
"You've made your point that you're leaving. There's no sense in attempting to make you stay when you've clearly stated your eagerness to leave."
She remained stunned next to me. I stood and picked up the of her four bags and carried them down the bus steps and out to her car that was next to the bus. I put them in the back and returned to her, where she was waiting at the bus door.
"I wish you well," I said as I stepped back on the bus. I closed the door. She was still standing confused by her car. Eventually she got in and drove off, obviously taken back by my civil reaction.

Ashley came into the living area of the bus, phone in his hands, texting. He looked up at me and glanced around. "Juliet leave?"
"Yeah, we're done."
"Done? As in...broken up?" he asked as he glanced up from his screen.
"Yeah. I'm alright though. I saw it coming. It wasn't really working."
"And...you're OK?"
"I'm fine." I answered flatly.
"You're sure?" he asked to which I nodded.

"Weeelllllll, this means we can find you an awesome chick for the Warped Tour party!" he shouted.
"I think I'm going to attend alone on this one Ash."
"Aww, seriously? At least let me get you a date."
"Fuck, you're going to pester me until I say yes, so what the fuck. Sure. Go ahead."
He smied and dialed a number.

"Hey, it's Ashley. Yeah. So you remember what we talked about, the party? Bring your friend. YES, that friend. Yep. Yep. Uh-huh. Alright, bye!"
He smiled devilishly.
"What do you have planned Ashley?" I asked with an eye brow raised.
"You'll see."

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