Reyas POV
Siren is sound asleep on the floor on the inflatable bed. I can hear she quiet, easy breaths. I blink rapidly, trying too hard to prevent the tears from streaking from my face. Tonight was supposed to be for me. I told myself I wouldn't think of Andy anymore. We both had new lives, new loves, we were different people now. I can't keep going to my razor. I don't want to hurt myself anymore. I can't keep bottling up this anxiety. I can't cry...I won't cry...I wont...I won't...I am.
The one heavy drop persists over my lid and trails it's own precious route along my cheek as it disappears into my pillow. Who's arms do I belong in and who's arms do I crave? I don't need Andy. I don't need his cheating ways, his too good attitude, his fucking smirks, his easy smiles...his warm hugs that make me melt. Those cool blue eyes simply pierce- OH FUCK. I CAN'T keep thinking about him. Andy is gone. GONE. Done. Finale. Over with.
I pull out my iPod, only to be tortured by the one song that perfectly explains this all...

Andys POV
I was half asleep on the couch, I'd flipped on batman. How the fuck did I fall asleep? I never fell asleep during Batman. I glance over to see Ashley walking up the steps back onto the bus. "Hey, where'd you run off to?" I asked as I at he'd out and sat up, running a hand over my hair, trying to pointlessly flatten the mess it was. Ashley walked over to the fridge, removing his huge ass bottle of Jack.
"Oh, just caught up with a chick here I used to fuck with."
"Anyone worth remembering?" I laughed thinking of the endless loads of girls he's banged.
"Eh, just another chic," he said as he took a swig from the bottle and put it back.
"Good, I was worried my favorite man whore was getting sick or something."
"Fuck that." He pulled off his shoes and plopped down on the couch, sprawling over where I'd just been.

I was about to reply when my phone buzzed. I pulled it out of my extremely tight pants, god I need new ones. Juliet's picture was on the screen. I walked back to my bunk as I picked up.
"Hello?"
"Heyyyy baby! How's your day? I had an amazing time today. I performed in New York and then tomorrow I leave for Florida. I'm soooooo excited. If only my Andy baby could be with me," she said.
"Yeah." I honestly hadn't been paying attention.
"I got to go shopping with Angela today too and I got this really cool dress for the Warped Tour end of tour party! I'll be joining you soon sweetie! I can't wait so we can spend a bunch of time together. We can perform together do signings, cuddle, and everything. I can't wait! We can see each other every day and spend every night together. We can share your bunk and do what ever we want."
"Uh-huh."
"Aren't you excited?"
"Yeah, I'm just...just tired." I lied smoothly.
"I'll let you sleep then baby. Goodnight! I love you! Kisses!"
"Night."

I hung up. I plodded along back to my bed. I stared at it for a moment. For some reason, ever since Ashley brought it up, I couldn't stop thinking about Reya. This aching pain filled my chest and burned in my lungs. Sighing, I dropped down on my bed. I looked at the empty space. This was want fate had destined. As much as I do love her, things are over. It hurts so much, but I don't think she will ever forgive me. I never even got the chance to really apolgize, never even said goodbye. She just cut me off. Rejected me. I'd fucked up so badly and now I had to lay in the consequences like Jinxx had said. If I ever had the chance I would have never kissed Juliet. Maybe then, Reya would have been the voice on the other end of the call. She could have even been here in this bed with me.

I looked at my phone as it buzzed. It was a text from our manager. He'd been pestering me to look at some new potential band named Me Vs Gravity. I link was attached for a song called Alone. Might as well look at it.

Reyas POV
Everything hurt so badly. My head hurt from the over thought. My stomach hurt from the anxiety. My lungs hurt from the gasping sobs. My eyes burned with tears full of the love and hate I shared at the moment. worst pain of all was in the one things I'd seemed to have torn apart. My heart. The tears came in torrents, rushing down my face and soaking my pillow as I silently choaked in my own pain. The lyrics blasted in my ears, as I subjected myself to suffer.

"Waking up alone again, you're somewhere next to him.
This empty bed is nothing new. And now it starts making sense,
Its no coincidence, the one mistake I made was you.
And now I, I won't take it, not one more night.
Im gonna learn to live without you.

You won't make it out on your own.
You can't break me down, this time I know.
I don't need you now, I'll do it alone.
All the lies you live, brought me to my knees,
so I won't forgive what you've done to me.

Now there's no turning back, caught you right in the act.
Cant do a thing about it now.
Dont know you you can say, he treats you better than me,
when I gave up everything for you.
I won't take it, not one more night.
Im gonna learn to live without you.

You won't make it out on your own.
You can't break me down, this time I know.
I don't need you now, I'll do it alone.
All the lies you live, brought me to my knees.
So I won't forgive what you've done to me.

After all this time,
I can't believe how you could stand to watch me burn.
I know every night, you'll think of me and where we've been.
You can't break me down. This time I know,
I don't need you now. I'll do it alone.
All the lies you live, brought me to my knees.
So I wont forgive what you've done to me.

You can't break me down, this time I know,
I don't need you now, I'll do it alone.
All the lies you live, brought me to my knee.
So I won't forgive what you've done to me."

I clutched my pillow tight, holding it as close as possible with every gasp for breath. He can't break me done, because this time I know I don't need him. I can't do this alone. The lies he lives might have brought me to my knees tonight, but I won't forgive what he's done. I'm not crying for nothing. I am strong, so much stronger than this. Andy is in my last, another wound I've stitched closed finally and it's healing, scarring. My heart is healing slowly. I can live. I can heal.

I wipe the years away, composing myself finally. I'm so glad I removed my make up. As I flip my soaked pillow over and sniffle a few times, a hear a gentle rapping on the door. I sit up as a small stream of light creeps through with the opening door. I gently see the outline is someone peaking in.
"Reya?" a voice calls quietly.
"What?" I whisper in return.
"Want a cuddle buddy?"
I laugh quietly. "Sure."

He steps quietly in the room and closes the door softly behind him. I'm glad it's so dimly lit in here. I scoot over in my bed and feel the mattress dip beside me. His gentle hands pull the fluffy blanket over both of us. I know he is smiling, I just have that feeling. His arms carefully wrapped themselves around my body as I turned over on my side, my back against his chest and stomach. He laced his fingers from the arm over my waist with my fingers and I pulled my arm up, resting our twined hands right on my chest, over my heart. I smiled too, his prescence calming me. The pain was still there, but it was much easier to deal with, here with Clayton's head gently resting next to mine on my pillow, wrapped in his considerate embrace. I felt like I was finally relaxing. Finally...comfortable..finally..sleepy...

Andys POV
I should not have listened to that song. Here I am alone in my bunk, knowing she probably is wrapped in someone elses arms. Juliet had been my mistake and know I had to learn to live without Reya. Even with tears streaming down my face and my chest feeling like a dead weight, I know I have to do this alone, I can't cry over her anymore. It's time to be a man. I can't take this one more night. I don't need her now. She caught me in the act, I understand if she won't forgive me, there's nothing I can't do now. Sitting here hating myself isn't going to fix anything. Or resolve any of these issues, only make me even sadder. I hope she's not thinking about me, not crying to herself. She deserves so much better. Another part of me prays that she still cares. What a foolish, selfish fuck I am. I'm here, all alone. Can I do this all alone?

Notes

Hey guys :D I'm back.
The song is Alone by mevsgravity.
i hope you guys look it up, it's really good.
Hopefully tomorrow I can update again but I just wanted to give you guys something at least!
I hope no one...ok maybe I do....needed tissues.
Soo yeah that's all I got.
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