Hallie's POV

Picking up the test with a shaky hand I try to make out what the results are. It's really hard to tell, I can barely see the difference between positive and negative on the instructions. Ugh. Great. I need someone else to help me with this, I mean someone who knows what happened. So it's either Andy or Ashley. Ashley will kill Andy if its positive so I should probably just text Andy.
Hallie: Andy I need your help with something on the bus.
Andy: what? Where are you anyways? You kinda just ran away....
Hallie: just get to the bus. I don't want anyone to accidentally see what it actually is so just come.
Andy: fine, it'll be 10ish minutes.
Hallie: You can go faster than that!!
Andy: you've never said that before... ;)
Hallie: :| stop. This is important.

I sit in the bathroom on the shut toilet until Andy's voice rings through the voice, "hallie?"
"In here." I call back. His footsteps make their way back to where I am eventually, this is taking forever and making me anxious. "Hey, are you alright?" Andy asks from the doorway when he finally reaches the bathroom. "I'm fine I just-" He cuts me off, "you don't look fine." Andy walks through the tiny toor bus bathroom to where I am, kneeling by the side of the toilet. His fingers rest on my shoulders as he asks again, "what's wrong? You know you can tell me anything right?" I sigh, moving around the test in my hands. "Andy, this is a pregnancy test.." I say it so quietly it's almost a whisper. His eyes bulge as he asks at the same volume, fear, worry and panic apparent in his voice, "are you?..."
"I- I- don't know." I sigh and look into my lap out of embarrassment, "I can't figure out what it says." His mouth forms an 'o' as he grabs the test out of my hands. Should I tell him how I took the test? I doubt he would want to have it in his hands then...
"Where are the instructions?" He asks while holding it close to his face, I should tell him.
"Andy.. Do you know how you take a-"
"Ya you pee on the stick--" he looks up from the test he was holding, at my nervousness, then back, "oh."
"That has my..." He doesn't look up from his concentrated stare on the test. He looks back and forth between the instructions in one hand and the test in the other.
"Andy seriously, put it on the counter, that's just gross!"
"It's not that bad. I think that sex is actually grosser than this." He responds dully, breaking his focus for the brief second. "Then why do it?" I accidentally say my thought out loud. "I didn't mean to say that out loud!" I quickly add. He shrugs it off, not removing his eyes from the test and paper. "How many do you have?" He asks, finally putting down the test on the counter top. Andy begins to walk the short distance to where I am. "Don't you dare. Wash your hands." I snap. After washing his hands quickly, Andy is once again by my side. His red tips have faded to an almost black. I reach out to pick up a piece of his hair, and glances at my hand letting a small smile tug at the corners of his lips. My hand drops the hair, coming to rest on his shoulder. "Andy what did it say?"
"I couldn't tell."
I can tell he's lying. Andy casts his faze on to the floor. "You're lying."
"Hallie you need to take another test." He sighs, "I want to make sure that it is accurate before telling you. You don't want to be completely emotional or not expecting to be completely emotional.."
"I guess I will, I only have three more." The singer leaves the bathroom to let me take the test, coming back in as soon as I say I finished.
"What did the first one say?"
"I think you should take the other two as well just to make sure because sometimes these things are wrong." He grazes his hand over my cheek, caressing it lightly with his thumb. Andy slowly places his lips on my forehead for a moment, leaving them hovering over with just a thin layer of air in between. I know it was positive, I can tell by how he's acting. "Andy it was-" Instead of letting me finish, he holds a finger to his lips, making the shushing sound. His hands grasp mine as he says in almost a whisper, "just wait." I solemnly nod, knowing he's not going to tell me. This is really the first time we have been around each other, alone, with no intention of doing anything sexual, as I just realized. Andy's arms engulf my small frame into a tight hug, he holds my head to his chest, stroking my hair carefully. As I look up at Andy to see his bright blue eyes staring into mine, the timer we set buzzes, ruining this moment. It wasn't awkward, something about it felt undeniably right, yet so so desperately wrong. Andy's strong arms are no longer around me, instead he has walked over to where the test was sitting. His hands are visibly shaking as he picks it up, he glances back and forth between the test and me regretfully.
"Hallie-" Andy puts the test down, returning to where he was less than a minute ago. He engulfs me into yet another sudden hug.
"Andy, I am.. Aren't I?" I ask innocently. "Yes." He mumbles and places his lips on my forehead again. I sigh in his grasp, how can I be pregnant at 15? "I- I'm pregnant. I have a living thing growing inside me. How did this-" I begin to panic, Andy cuts me off with, "I got you pregnant. Hallie you're carrying our child!" He begins to panic as well. "I'm not ready for this, I'm only 15. I can't even drive yet! My parents are going to-" we start talking at the same times, more to ourselves than each other. "I'm only 22, I can barely take care of myself. I don't even really live in one spot! Lola is going to kill me."
"Andy, what are we going to do?" I whisper, nervousness and fear apparent in my voice. "I don't know..." He sighs, "lets get out of the bathroom at least. The amount of hairspray in the air is toxic."
I am barely able to laugh, due to my emotions all swirling in my head. We decide to talk in the back room in case anyone comes in, they had cleaned it up this morning thankfully. Taking a seat on the small built in couch, Andy lays my head in his lap. His fingers lightly stroking my hair, sending a calming wave over my body. A sudden memory of something the nurse said in health class pops into my head. 'Store bought pregnancy tests aren't always right. I know at least one of you will get pregnant before high school ends, but take more than three and then go to a doctor if the results vary.'
"Andy, I'm going to take another one to make sure." I sit up, seeing him nod subconsciously as he is deep in thought. After quickly taking the test I return to my previous spot on the couch. "Andy-" I sigh, looking into his bright blue eyes that are filled with worry, "I can't carry a baby. I'm 15, and I know I am definitely not ready."
"You- you want to get an abortion?" His voice is shaky as I sit up, he runs a hand through his hair, brushing it back. Andy scoots a tiny bit closer to me. "It's the better option." I break eye contact, casting my gaze to the floor. Andy grabs my hand and whispers, "if you don't I'll help raise it. You know I wouldn't ever abandon you and our kid if you did decide to keep it right?"
"Andy. No one can ever know that it's your child if I don't. It will ruin you, Lola will be devastated, my parents would press charges- your fans would-"
"They'd understand."
"Andy, I'm not going to have a baby at 15. If I do I wouldn't just be ruining my own life, I would be ruining the baby's."
He doesn't respond. Just when he opens his mouth to the timer dings indicating that we need to check the test. I stand before he can, get the test from the bathroom and bring it back to him. Andy takes it into his own hands, squinting as he tries to identify the small answer. His eyes widen as he whispers out of shock, "How did this happen?" I feel the nervousness return to my stomach, "what's wrong?" He sets the test down, immediately engulfing me into another hug. "Hallie, it's negative."
"What?" I ask, my voice suddenly hoarse as my mouth has gone dry. "That makes no sense. Let me see the other two tests?" He lays all three out on the counter. I can barely make out the distinctively different results. "What does this mean?" Andy is maintaining a good poker face through all this. "I don't know. Should we call a doctor to find out why this happened?" He pulls out his phone and dials a number. "It's my doctor, she'll understand why I'm calling her." He rests his hand on my thigh and taps his foot as he waits for the person on the other line to answer. "Hello? Oh. Umm may I speak to dr. Idelson please?"
"Thank you."
Andy waits a few seconds before talking again. "Hi dr. Idleson, I'm sorry if I interrupted anything but my friend is having an issue with something and was embarrassed to ask her doctor."
"Thanks, so she took three pregnancy tests and two of the three were positive.. But one is negative."
"Yes she's right here. I'll put you on speakerphone."
"Hello? I'm doctor idelson, I would recommend going to a specialty doctor that can test to make sure which answer is correct. I can give you the names of a few in LA if you like." I nod, andy says, "ya that'd be great." She lists a few and then hangs up.
"Hallie, I'm sorry that this is happening." Andy tells me quietly, taking my shaky hand in his. He brings my knuckles up to his lips and kisses it. A small tear leaks out of the corner of my eye, if I am pregnant I have to get an abortion.
"Andy- I have to get to the tent."
"No you don't, why don't you go lie down. I'll say you weren't feeling good and needed to rest. This is a lot to take in for both of us and we both need to think about it all." I simply nod as he texts the band and Lola on the group text. I get it too obviously.
Andy: hey, hallie isn't feeling good so she is going to rest a bit before working.
Lola: why are you the one telling us this??
Andy: I had to go to the bathroom and I don't like to use the port a potty things, she was in here and looks really sick so I told her to rest.
Cc: she's not dehydrated right?
Andy: no, it's probably food poisoning.
jake: I think someone should stay there with her.
Andy: I will for a while. But then we have to play at 3 and then the signing so.

"Andy I can stay here by myself."
"no. I want to stay here with you." He pulls me into a hug and whispers in my ear, "I shouldn't have let you, I mean I shouldn't have not worn a condom." "Andy, you know this could have happened while you were wearing one right? I mean 3% chance isn't that small. And it's equally or maybe even more my fault for tricking you into doing it unprotected." I let go of him, "I would go lay down back here but.. You know.." I get up and walk to my bunk, Andy follows me, chuckling, "ya, 'shut the hell up!' And I heard you tell jake your playlist to block out us.. Great choices, really hallie. Carolyn is a very loud and overpowering song."
"haha."
Sarcasm, I love you.
"you should lie down incase anyone comes in to check on you or something." Andy motions to my bunk. Is he going to be one of those people that won't let me do anything because I could possibly be pregnant with his child. His child, the one that I am not going to be able to have if I am pregnant. I just can't do it. I just can't do it.
I lay down in the bunk, my thoughts bringing me to tears, then eventually quiet sobbing. I hear Andy open the curtain. "Hallie, why are you crying?" He asks sweetly, placing a hand on my shoulder. "Andy, can I just think for a bit." I turn my back to him. The bed dips beside me and I feel his arms wrap around me, his chest against my back, our legs bent slightly against each other. Why are we spooning? Andy whispers in my ear, "I want you to know I am here for you." He places a hand on my stomach as he whispers, "and this guy. If he exists." I think Andy is secretly hoping that I am pregnant- and that I will keep the baby. I close my eyes to think about what my options are. Abortion, adoption, keep the baby.
I start to imagine Andy holding a cute baby girl with bright blue eyes and both of our blonde hair- his natural color is almost like mine. The baby has cute chubby cheeks and a small nose, she is pale and is swaddled in a light pink blanket. She giggles as Andy makes faces at her, he is rocking her back and forth and smiling back at her. She closes her eyes after a few minutes filled with giggling and smiles, Andy kisses her nose. He slowly sits down in a chair and holds the girl close as she falls gently to sleep in his arms. I see him look up at me, "Hallie, come see her. She's so cute when she sleeps." Andy gets up slowly, walking to where I am and hands her to me, I hold her close to my chest. Her heartbeat and steady breathing instantly sends a calming wave over me. Andy is standing next to me he whispers, "she's adorable." He kisses my cheek and says, "we should make another."

I wake up to Andy whispering in my ear, "I know you're asleep so you can't hear me but I actually would kinda like to have your pregnancy be real. We would make a cute baby, and since Lola would probably hate me we could raise it together. You could finish highschool online and come with us whenever we tour, and the baby too. I would take as much time off as I could hallie, I know I seem irresponsible but I'm not. You and I and a baby would be a great family, traveling and touring, staying at home and I would sing to him or her every night. To all of us. The baby could be friends with Jinxx and Sammi's child, I think they want one. And hallie, we could all live in my apartment, there's an extra room that could be a nursery. You could teach me to cook so that when you do get a pregnant belly I could make you breakfast in bed. We could read stories to him or her too, every night before he or she sleeps. I bet we would raise a happy and healthy baby together, who I know we would love with all of our hearts and they would love us. And hallie, I would be able to love you openly. I love you hallie, I hope your dreams are going well." Well this just made the decision a whole lot harder.

Lola's POV:

Ashley's been staring at me a lot more than usual. He keeps looking over at me during shows too. I haven't seen him actually take any girls on the bus as I expected. Maybe he wants to seem more mature to hallie... "Lola? Can I ask you something?" Ashley asks from behind me. They are waiting for their set to start so they were walking around. I saw cc and jake talking to some of the other bands earlier. "Ya. One second." I finish writing down the sale I just finished before turning back to him. "What's up?" "Uh, can you get someone else to watch the tent for a second? I need to ask you in private." He looks down at the floor nervously. It's kinda cute. "Uh. Hallies sick so not right now. Maybe one of the crew members is on break? Or there's Jinxx!" I see him standing by a tree, people watching. Ashley pulls out his phone and texts him quickly. Jinxx comes over, "5 minutes." "Yes sir." I joke and follow ashley to where all the buses are parked. He grabs my hand and pulls me behind the bvb bus. "Lola, I bet you're going to laugh in my face but..." He sighs and looks down at me nervously, "I like you- alot. I've never really felt like this with anyone though. I can't get you out of my head." I am frozen in shock. How the hell do I deal with this? "Ashley, I'm dating Andy. I'm in love with him, I'm sorry though." I hug him lightly and am about to leave when he pulls me into a hug. I accept for a few moments before letting go. I kiss his cheek in a friendly way before going back to work. At least I avoided an awkward conversation.. But I can say that This is going to be an awkward few weeks.

Notes

Hmm? Is hallie actually pregnant or was the third test right? Will anything happen between ashley and Lola? Or am I just being annoying?
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-C