Lola's POV

I plug in my headphones and escape into the calming yet saddening world that is we stitch these wounds,
"You kissed the lips of evil,
Two months is all the same.
I begged for the mans approval,
Pray to die in vain.

Sit down with thoughts alone now,
With blood these lyrics came.
Your words, they eat right through me,
Death could hear my shame.

The tears we've cried, this love has died,
You're by yourself with me tonight.
It's what we hide with every lie,
And stitch these wounds with me tonight.

I think of it each time I touch you,
Or every time I hear his name.
These walls will never crumble,
Here's our cause to blame.

Sit down with thoughts alone now,
With blood these lyrics came.
Your words, they eat right through me,
Death could hear my shame.

The tears we've cried, this love has died,
You're by yourself with me tonight.
It's what we hide with every lie,
And stitch these wounds with me tonight.

Liar, liar, liar, oh

The tears we've cried, this love has died,
You're by yourself with me tonight.
It's what we hide with every lie,
And stitch these wounds with me tonight.

The tears we've cried, this love has died,
You're by yourself with me tonight.
It's what we hide with every lie,
And stitch these wounds with me tonight.

Liar!
Liar!
Liar say goodbye!"

It's been two months since I left Andy. I live with my parents again and I am taking photography classes on line. I've changed my hair color multiple times, the way I had it just reminds me of Andy. Right now it's still my natural auburn, but with streaks of black and purple running throughout. My parents have agreed to not talk about Andy or what happened while I left. I haven't seen Erik and intend on keeping it that way. Elizabeth moved back to la but I have avoided her at every possible chance. I haven't contacted Sammi or any of black veil brides yet. There have been a few close calls but I left before any one saw. I miss Andy so much.. I sleep with his shirt, cuddling with it as if it was him. No one has told hallie anything. My sister hallie moved back home, not wanting to go to boarding school anymore. She has changed a lot since I last saw her before coming home. The last time I saw her she was a typical rich kid who was spoiled rotten and bitchy to everyone. Now, She was a fan of pierce the veil, sleeping with sirens, and of mice and men. She dresses similar to how I did at her age, and has layered her blonde hair, adding side bangs. I however had attempted to stop
listening to black veil brides, their songs only make me cry and miss Andy even more. But I keep listening because It makes me feel close to Andy again. I hope he has moved on...

I need a friend, I'm lonely. I have no one to talk to except my family, who only makes me feel worse about my actions. No one knows the whole story.
I only have one person I can trust who has always been there for me. I haven't talked to her in two months.
Sammi.

I get out my new phone with a new number, I still have all their contacts in my phone.

Lola: Sammi, it's Lola. I need a friend. But please don't say anything about Andy. I did it for the best. Please..

I get an immediate response.

Sammi: Lola! Is it really you! I miss you. We all do!
Lola: yes it's me..
Sammi: you know I'm always here for you right? I won't say anything if you don't want me to.
Lola: please don't tell anyone I'm contacting you. I just have no one else.
Sammi: I won't. What have you been doing for the past 2 months.
Lola: Sammi, I've started online photography and modeling classes. My younger sister, hallie moved back home. We are both currently living with our parents. I haven't talked to them much. All they know is that I left and they have agreed to not talk about anything.
Sammi: ok.. I want to see your photography and modeling stuff soon!
Lola: haha ya..
Lola: also Sammi, I found out hallie self harms. Even though it hurts a lot I showed her bvb. She is now a huge fan of them, on the verge of fangirl. She doesn't know I dated.. Or that I know any of you. I think it's helping her though.

-

I remember back to two days after I moved back home. Hallie was in her room, listening to her iPod, she saw me walk down the hall and waved. The band bracelets she wore on her arm slipped down a bit, revealing new and old cuts and scars. She quickly lowered her arm not noticing that I had seen. I remembered Andy telling me once that a lot of their fans did struggle with self harm and that they told them that their music helped. I sighed and walked into my room, knowing what I had to do. When she left for school the next morning I synced my phone's music to her iPod's, adding in all the black veil brides songs. When she got home that day I heard her plug in the iPod to her IHome and Andy's deep voice travel through the speakers.

"I never meant to be the one
Who kept you from the dark
But now I know my wounds are sewn
Because of who you are
I will take this burden on
And become the holy one
But remember I am human
And I'm bound to sing this song

So hear my voice, remind you not to bleed
I am here, saviour
Will be there
When you are feeling alone, oh
A Saviour
For all that you do
So you live freely without their harm

So here I write my lullaby
To all the lonely ones
Remember as you learn to try
To be the one you love
So I can take this pen
And teach you how to live
What is left unsaid
The greatest gift I give

So hear my voice, remind you not to bleed
I am here, saviour
Will be there
When you are feeling alone, oh
A Saviour,
For all that you do
So you live freely without their harm

Saviour
Will be there
When you are feeling alone, oh
A Saviour,
For all that you do
So you live freely without their harm

When I hear your cries
Praying for life
I will be there

When I hear your cries
Praying for life
I will be there

I will be there!
I will always be there!
I will be there!

I will fight!
Yeeeeaaaaaahhhhhhh!"
She walked into my room as the song ended and asked, "did you put this on my iPod?"
I nodded and said, "I thought you would like them. It's a welcome back gift."
"I do! thank you! I'm going to go listen to more. Are you ok?"
I just nodded and put in headphones, listening to Andy's deep voice myself. The tears start rolling down my face as soon as the calming song begins.
"I ruled the world.
With these hands I shook the heavens to the ground.
I laid the gods to rest.
I held the key to the kingdom.
Lions guarding castle walls.
Hail the king of death.

Then I lost it all
Dead and broken.
My back's against the wall.
Cut me open.
I'm just trying to breathe,
Just trying to figure it out
Because I built these walls to watch them crumbling down.
I said, "Then I lost it all."
And who can save me now?

I stood above
Another war,
Another jewel upon the crown.
I was the fear of man.
But I was blind.
I couldn't see the world there right in front of me.
But now...I can... (Yeah)

'Cause I lost it all
Dead and broken.
My back's against the wall.
Cut me open.
I'm just trying to breathe,
Just trying to figure it out
Because I built these walls to watch them crumbling down.
I said, "Then I lost it all."
And who can save me now?

(Oh)

I believe that we all fall down sometimes (Oh)
Can't you see (can't you see) that we all fall down sometimes? (Oh, yeah, oh, yeah)

I believe that we all fall down sometimes (Oh)
(Can't you see) Can't you see that we all fall down sometimes? (Yeah, we all, yeah, we all fall down)
Yeah

I believe that we all fall down sometimes
Yeah"
"We let him down juliet," I mumbled, "you and me both."
-
I hear hallie knock on my door, "come in."
"Hey Lola, would you come with me to get spider bites?" She asked shyly.
I look at her nervous actions and sigh, "Did you ask mom and dad?"
"No.." She mumbles guiltily, "but you didn't ask if you could get a lipring or if you could get lyrics from beautiful remains tattooed on your arm."
I roll my eyes at her attempt, "fine. But I'm not responsible if you get in trouble. No tattoos though."
She runs up and hugs me, I let her but push her off soon.
"Lets go before they come home."
We drive to the tattoo parlor where I got my lip pierced and my tattoo. I haven't been here since then. We ride in silence until she asks, "why do you have those lyrics tattooed on your arm?"
I shrug and just say, "I felt like it.."
She mumbles, "Oh.." And I turn up beautiful remains which had ironically started playing on shuffle. The song finished as we pulled up to the tattoo shop. Once inside I wave rob over, he nods and comes right away.
"Lola! It's been a while!" He said and gave me a high five. "Who's this?"
"Oh.. This is my sister hallie, she's 15." I tell him.
"So why are you here? New tattoo? Piercing?" He asks me. I point to hallie and say, "she wants spider bites. And actually, I would like to get the snake bite redone."
"Ya I saw the video. Are you sure?" He asks, "you guys wouldn't be able to-"
I cut him off before he can say anything about Andy, "We broke up."
"Oh." He nodded and hallie looked at me confused. I shook my head and we followed rob to the piercing area. She was a very good sport and didn't even wince when the piercing went in. I handed him my snake bite that I had kept in my pocket for some reason and he redid the piercing. We thanked him and payed. As I was leaving I saw a car pull up and ashley climb out, I quickened my pace and pulled hallie to the car before she could see her favorite bassist.

She followed me into my room when we got back home.
"Who did you break up with?"
"Not important. Just someone I met who was friends with my room mate." I sighed and sat on my bed. She pressed for more information, "who? How long?"
"His name doesn't matter and neither does the amount of time."
"Fine." She grumbled and walked out of my room.

"Explain." Hallie said after throwing open my door.
"Explain what?"
"Re explain what you told me."
"Not much.. Met some friends, lived with them for a while." I shrugged and turned back to my computer.
"Really? Because I was just on YouTube looking up black veil brides and I saw a video clip." She put her laptop down on my lap and pressed play. It was the one of Andy and I getting our piercings stuck together.
"Explain that." She said sternly.
I sighed and looked up 'a day in the life of Andy and Lola.' I plugged in her headphones and gave it back to her.
"Watch that."
10 minutes later she gasped and put down the computer, tore out the headphones and stared at me in shock.
"One, I didn't need to see that last bit. And two, oh my frikin god! You dated Andy biersack!" She squealed and tackled me with a hug.
"DatED. As in did." I sigh and push her off me. I turned back to the computer and went to iTunes.
"What happened?" She asked, seeing from my reflection that I was about to burst into tears.
"Elizabeth, mom, Erik. Me." I sighed and layed down on the bed, "I fucking ruin everything." I cover my face with my hands and drag them down. She comes and lays beside me.
"Lola, Did he break your heart?" She asked quietly.
I shook my head, "I think I broke his."
"Why?"
"Because he is better off without me. I just brought him bad luck. I was convinced by Eliza that I was just using him to marry out of the family."
"That bitch.." She mumbled and grabbed her computer.
"Lola, when did you break up?"
"Two months ago."
"All his tweets since then have been depressing and not as frequent. He didn't delete anything about you either, I've never really looked that far back before." Hallie said and looked through Andy's twitter. I saw one tweet:
@andybvb: I have shed all my tears, I'm still not over you.

I sighed and closed the lid of her laptop.
"I miss him." I said weakly. She wrapped me into a hug and whispers, "I think he misses you too."
"It was for the best."
"No it doesn't seem like it was." She sighs and looks me straight in the eye. "Lola, you need to go back to him."
"No. He has to move on and so do I."
"Love isn't always fair but you have to make it work."

Notes

First chapter in the sequel!! I know the first chapters of everything are usually the worst. Also, I will add characters as they come into the story. Lola and hallies pictures might change. Along with Sammi and Andy.
There's a siren that's been going off outside my house for hours nonstop. :( anyways thanks for reading :)
-C