Expect Me... NOT
In Seconds...Gone
I loved her, she was like a sister to me. She was my best friend and I wouldnt be here if it werent for her. She's...she's always been there, always setting things aside when I needed her..and in seconds she's.....gone.
I lost everything that I loved....
He...killed her, murdered her! Left her there to suffer! I blame myself, I promised her that we would run away...Just to get away from him and my parents and everyone in this small town...Go explore and visit places we've always wanted to go. We'd saved enough money for it but..I wanted to stay for another week and thats when he went after her....
He rots in a jail cell now....I hope for years, he deserves it. He put her through hell for years..Maybe it's better..no no its not because I lost my best friend! I lost everything. Everything Ive ever wanted was someone to be there...and...I lost it in a instant.
I do nothing besides sit motionless in my room. Staring at the walls that hold our pictures...memories....A razor hiding in my dresser...A razor that could kill me and send me up with her. I want to...I want to be with her, be with the girl that has always been there for me when my parents werent...
No one would care if I left anyways, no one knows I exsist. ..Even if they did, I wouldnt trust them..They just continue on to drag me through hell now. I've dated before but, its just ended in heart break on my side. I dont think anyone could like me more then..well nothing...I get pushed around and used by everyone that I Just feel numb now.
I guess I could run away but where? Its not like my parents would care though. They pretend I dont exisit either.I wouldnt feel right anywhere else..Ive always been a shy type..never one to make friends..That was Sara.
I had dipped into my money and changed everything about myself,dyed my hair red instead of it being white,got a tattoo in memory of Sara..a wolf,she's always loved them.
Honestly, I can say is music is keeping me here right now...Nothing more, nothing less...I know she wouldnt want me feeling like this or doing this to myself but I dont know, I just cant think straight anymore. I cant handle reality well...Honestly..I cant handle myself.
I lost everything that I loved....
He...killed her, murdered her! Left her there to suffer! I blame myself, I promised her that we would run away...Just to get away from him and my parents and everyone in this small town...Go explore and visit places we've always wanted to go. We'd saved enough money for it but..I wanted to stay for another week and thats when he went after her....
He rots in a jail cell now....I hope for years, he deserves it. He put her through hell for years..Maybe it's better..no no its not because I lost my best friend! I lost everything. Everything Ive ever wanted was someone to be there...and...I lost it in a instant.
I do nothing besides sit motionless in my room. Staring at the walls that hold our pictures...memories....A razor hiding in my dresser...A razor that could kill me and send me up with her. I want to...I want to be with her, be with the girl that has always been there for me when my parents werent...
No one would care if I left anyways, no one knows I exsist. ..Even if they did, I wouldnt trust them..They just continue on to drag me through hell now. I've dated before but, its just ended in heart break on my side. I dont think anyone could like me more then..well nothing...I get pushed around and used by everyone that I Just feel numb now.
I guess I could run away but where? Its not like my parents would care though. They pretend I dont exisit either.I wouldnt feel right anywhere else..Ive always been a shy type..never one to make friends..That was Sara.
I had dipped into my money and changed everything about myself,dyed my hair red instead of it being white,got a tattoo in memory of Sara..a wolf,she's always loved them.
Honestly, I can say is music is keeping me here right now...Nothing more, nothing less...I know she wouldnt want me feeling like this or doing this to myself but I dont know, I just cant think straight anymore. I cant handle reality well...Honestly..I cant handle myself.
3/15/13