I need some advice... BADLY!!!!

So I have been doing really bad lately because my best friend is now my ex boyfriend and he keeps messagin me telling me to go kill myself and shit like that, and then when I see him at school, he asks if I'm doing ok... Like, wtf!!! This is coming from the person who saved me from seven suicide attempts and possibly going to jail once, how the fuck am I supposed to react to this?

Hey! So, I'm going to try and attempt to give you some advice but honestly not too sure how good it will be so anyway, here we go.

There really is no right or wrong way to react to this. I mean, obviously I can't really tell you how to react to it but I can try and tell you what you could do about it. Have you tried to block his messages online? I understand that he's someone who has meant a lot to you but blocking him on any site you're connected to him through is a good way to stop the "kill yourself" messages. Maybe it's not even him on the other side, you know? There's no way to tell who's on the other side of a message when it comes through online. Then again, it could be him, and he's saying these things to you so he can hide behind his computer screen and not say them to your face. Sometimes the people you think you know so well turn out to be people that you don't know at all. The only way to really find out what the deal is would be to talk to him face to face and confront him about the whole situation.

Also, why did you guys break up? Because that would help me understand the situation better. If you ended on bad terms, I can see why he would be hiding behind his computer saying these mean things to you and doesn't have the heart or the balls to say it to your face. Now, I'm not saying that he should be saying these things at all, but I'm just trying to think how he would think.

If you guys ended on okay terms, then maybe there's something going on in his brain that isn't working quite right like bi polar or something like that. The mind works in really strange ways so it's hard to tell exactly why he would be acting this way.

Honestly, I think the best way to figure out what's going on is to talk to him face to face to figure out what the deal is. Maybe you need to just disconnect yourself from him altogether if that's going to be the healthiest choice for you. Having someone constantly telling you to kill yourself does mess with your brain a bit, even if you don't think it is.

If you are in need of someone to talk to if you're feeling suicidal again, I would say a therapist honestly. You can talk to me, and I can tell you about my story and maybe help you out a little, but I do honestly believe talking to a professional is your best bet. I never did, because I thought it would make me weak, and take a toll on my family financially, but now that I'm in in-depth psychology classes, I believe it's the best thing to do. They're the ones who know the most about mind disorders and can help you more than I or he ever could.