As you fade into the night.
Don't go, I can't do this on my own.
"Jess.." I heard a voice call and I groaned rolling over burying my face in the warm pillow.
It was Sunday and the guys were leaving tomorrow, Johnny left on Tuesday and the whole week we have been hanging at the house.
I was sad they were leaving but I knew they had to, Sammi and the other girls were goig to watch me, but for the most part i would be alone.
" come on I know your up"a voice mocked me shaking me.
Ashley
. " Jessica's not here , leave a message" I mumbled into the pillow and I heard him chuckle.
" come on, it's the last day I get to see you for 3 months get the hell up" he wined and I instantly rolled over opening my eyes.
He was standing there with his hair perfectly straightened wearing a cut off misfits shirt and black skinny jeans. I yawned and sat up fixing my hair.
" what time is it?" I asked rubbing my face and stretching my arms out before pulling my knees to my chest.
He laughed and sat at the edge of the bed leaning over to kiss my cheek.
" 12, jinxx and Sammi are out, cc's with Lauren, jakes with Ella and Andy's with a girl" he smirked and I raised an eyebrow
" he has a new girlfriend?" He nodded
" her names Juliet"
" wait Juliet Simms? i thought they hated each other?" I asked and he nodded laughing
" they did but I guess not so much anymore"
I smiled, I love her music an he was so pretty I'm glad he finally got a good girl.
" that's great. I'm happy he found somebody"
" yeah she's really sweet"
I yawned again and leaned against the wall.
" no no get up. We're spending the day together come on.." He wined and I groaned slipping out of the warm bed.
I just wanted to spend the day in bed but I know he had other plans. He got up also and kissed my cheek.
" get dressed ill be downstairs" With that he walked out closing the door.
I smiled still feeling the warm kiss as changed into black skinny jeans and a jack skellington pull over hoodie.
I brushed out my brown hair and applied a thin line of eyeliner before I shut the light off in my red room and skipped down the wooden steps.
I walked into the kitchen where Ashley was sitting. He immediately smiled standing up when I walked in.
" ready?" He asked and I nodded
He smiled again picking up his keys and grabbing my hand leading to the door. My heart sped up when he took my hand. It sent tingles up my arm and I felt my heart flutter. I squeezed it and he squeezed it also as we stopped at the door.
I slipped on my black vans as he opened the door. I walked out and he followed shortly closing the door. We walked silently to his car.
We got in and he turned to me kissing my lips passionately catching me off gaurd.
" what was that for?" I asked once he leaned away. He just smirked at me. I felt my cheeks grow warm and his grin grew wider as he turned the car.
"Nothing I'm just going to miss doing that" I laughed shaking my head as he started to back up.
I was going to miss him, I was going to miss them all but mostly him, since he's been In my life everything's been better, I've been sleeping better with him next to me , I had no idea what I was going to do without him.
I hate being alone, I needed him I didn't want him to leave I wanted him to stay with me.
"Jess?" I snapped back into reality as I heard Ashley's worried voice.
" hmm?" I Asked looking over at him. he stole a worried glance at me.
" you okay? You spaced out for a good 2 minutes" he said and I nodded.
" I'm fine I was just thinking.."
" oh yeah? What about?" He asked as we stopped at a stoplight. He looked at me.
" just about how much I'm going to miss you, I don't know what I'm going to without you" He let out a sad smile kissing my cheek before the light turned green and he continued going forward.
" I'm going to miss you too ,but you'll be okay, I'll only be a phone call away, if your in school you can text me , the months will fly by " he said grabbing my hand while he kept the other on the wheel.
I let out a breath and slid my finger of my right had over his hand that was entwined with my left hand.
" I know.." I mumbled just as he pulled into a parking space. He cut the engine off and leaned over kissin my lips again. I smiled into his lips.
" I love you" he said stroking my cheek.
" I love you too " I said smiling
. He kissed my nose before pulling away and unbuckling himself.
" good, because you have no choice" he smirked. I shook my head grinning as I got out of the car looking around.
We were in front of a restraint near the beach and my stomach growled at the smell. He chuckled and grabbed my hand before leading me into the small place.
It wasnt crowded so we got in and out within 45 minutes.
When we walked out he gripped my hand and led me towards the beach .
The whole time we were silent as we walked hand in hand. It was a comfortable silence as we made it to the slightly crowded sand. He dropped my hand after walking for about a minute and stared at me.
His beautiful deep brown eyes locked with my hazel ones and he grinned ear to ear.
" what?" I wined and he laughed shaking his head
" nothing your just so beautiful" I shook my head flicking his cheek.
" your so sappy ash"
" oh yeah?" He asked and I nodded.
Without hesitation his arms reached out and started tickling me. I screeched an started to run laughing as he followed.
He caught up to fast and as he came to me and put his hand on my waist we both tripped and fell into the warm sand. We both laughed as we were laying side by side probably causing many people to stare but I didn't pay attention.
He moved his hand on my waist and brushed my hair out of my face.
" that's what you get" he teased and I stuck my tongue out at him.
" whatever " He didn't say anything else.
He instead smiled and rubbed his hand up my arm over the faded and looked into my eyes. They became more serious.
" promise me you'll call or text me if anything happens?Expceially at school? I don't care if I'm sleeping please just don't do anything while I'm gone" he asked and I sighed knowing what he meant.
I haven't in forever, but I knew I'd get lonly and having no one to talk to and it would get to much.
" i will ash" I mumbled looking at the sand. He moved his hand under my chin and lifted it so I was looking in his eyes
. " no promise, promise me that you won't hurt yourself or anything like that when were gone promise me" he said and I nodded feeling a tear slip down my cheek.
I couldn't believe he cared so much, I haven't had anyone care so much besides jinxx. It made my heart swell and my Body numb.
" I promise ash. I promise" I said and he smiled swiping his cold thumb under my eye.
" good, I just love you so much I don't want you hurting yourself" he said and I nodded leaning up and kissing him hard.
His mouth moved against mine and every second that went by was a second i wanted to cherrish forever. When we pulled apart i burrowed my face into his chest. He grabbed me pulling me close.
" I'm going to miss you so much you have no idea" he said against my neck and I gripped him harder.
" I'm going to miss you too ash, I'm really going to miss you"
" but want to know what? The three months will go by fast and when they do, we won't have to tour till warped which your coming on" he said and I lifted my head from his chest seeing his eyes sparkling.
I smiled widly and kissed him again
" I can't wait" i mumbled against his soft lips. Neither one of us pulled apart and I was fine with that.
I didn't care about anything at that moment all I cared about was the kisses I was going to miss for three months.
It was Sunday and the guys were leaving tomorrow, Johnny left on Tuesday and the whole week we have been hanging at the house.
I was sad they were leaving but I knew they had to, Sammi and the other girls were goig to watch me, but for the most part i would be alone.
" come on I know your up"a voice mocked me shaking me.
Ashley
. " Jessica's not here , leave a message" I mumbled into the pillow and I heard him chuckle.
" come on, it's the last day I get to see you for 3 months get the hell up" he wined and I instantly rolled over opening my eyes.
He was standing there with his hair perfectly straightened wearing a cut off misfits shirt and black skinny jeans. I yawned and sat up fixing my hair.
" what time is it?" I asked rubbing my face and stretching my arms out before pulling my knees to my chest.
He laughed and sat at the edge of the bed leaning over to kiss my cheek.
" 12, jinxx and Sammi are out, cc's with Lauren, jakes with Ella and Andy's with a girl" he smirked and I raised an eyebrow
" he has a new girlfriend?" He nodded
" her names Juliet"
" wait Juliet Simms? i thought they hated each other?" I asked and he nodded laughing
" they did but I guess not so much anymore"
I smiled, I love her music an he was so pretty I'm glad he finally got a good girl.
" that's great. I'm happy he found somebody"
" yeah she's really sweet"
I yawned again and leaned against the wall.
" no no get up. We're spending the day together come on.." He wined and I groaned slipping out of the warm bed.
I just wanted to spend the day in bed but I know he had other plans. He got up also and kissed my cheek.
" get dressed ill be downstairs" With that he walked out closing the door.
I smiled still feeling the warm kiss as changed into black skinny jeans and a jack skellington pull over hoodie.
I brushed out my brown hair and applied a thin line of eyeliner before I shut the light off in my red room and skipped down the wooden steps.
I walked into the kitchen where Ashley was sitting. He immediately smiled standing up when I walked in.
" ready?" He asked and I nodded
He smiled again picking up his keys and grabbing my hand leading to the door. My heart sped up when he took my hand. It sent tingles up my arm and I felt my heart flutter. I squeezed it and he squeezed it also as we stopped at the door.
I slipped on my black vans as he opened the door. I walked out and he followed shortly closing the door. We walked silently to his car.
We got in and he turned to me kissing my lips passionately catching me off gaurd.
" what was that for?" I asked once he leaned away. He just smirked at me. I felt my cheeks grow warm and his grin grew wider as he turned the car.
"Nothing I'm just going to miss doing that" I laughed shaking my head as he started to back up.
I was going to miss him, I was going to miss them all but mostly him, since he's been In my life everything's been better, I've been sleeping better with him next to me , I had no idea what I was going to do without him.
I hate being alone, I needed him I didn't want him to leave I wanted him to stay with me.
"Jess?" I snapped back into reality as I heard Ashley's worried voice.
" hmm?" I Asked looking over at him. he stole a worried glance at me.
" you okay? You spaced out for a good 2 minutes" he said and I nodded.
" I'm fine I was just thinking.."
" oh yeah? What about?" He asked as we stopped at a stoplight. He looked at me.
" just about how much I'm going to miss you, I don't know what I'm going to without you" He let out a sad smile kissing my cheek before the light turned green and he continued going forward.
" I'm going to miss you too ,but you'll be okay, I'll only be a phone call away, if your in school you can text me , the months will fly by " he said grabbing my hand while he kept the other on the wheel.
I let out a breath and slid my finger of my right had over his hand that was entwined with my left hand.
" I know.." I mumbled just as he pulled into a parking space. He cut the engine off and leaned over kissin my lips again. I smiled into his lips.
" I love you" he said stroking my cheek.
" I love you too " I said smiling
. He kissed my nose before pulling away and unbuckling himself.
" good, because you have no choice" he smirked. I shook my head grinning as I got out of the car looking around.
We were in front of a restraint near the beach and my stomach growled at the smell. He chuckled and grabbed my hand before leading me into the small place.
It wasnt crowded so we got in and out within 45 minutes.
When we walked out he gripped my hand and led me towards the beach .
The whole time we were silent as we walked hand in hand. It was a comfortable silence as we made it to the slightly crowded sand. He dropped my hand after walking for about a minute and stared at me.
His beautiful deep brown eyes locked with my hazel ones and he grinned ear to ear.
" what?" I wined and he laughed shaking his head
" nothing your just so beautiful" I shook my head flicking his cheek.
" your so sappy ash"
" oh yeah?" He asked and I nodded.
Without hesitation his arms reached out and started tickling me. I screeched an started to run laughing as he followed.
He caught up to fast and as he came to me and put his hand on my waist we both tripped and fell into the warm sand. We both laughed as we were laying side by side probably causing many people to stare but I didn't pay attention.
He moved his hand on my waist and brushed my hair out of my face.
" that's what you get" he teased and I stuck my tongue out at him.
" whatever " He didn't say anything else.
He instead smiled and rubbed his hand up my arm over the faded and looked into my eyes. They became more serious.
" promise me you'll call or text me if anything happens?Expceially at school? I don't care if I'm sleeping please just don't do anything while I'm gone" he asked and I sighed knowing what he meant.
I haven't in forever, but I knew I'd get lonly and having no one to talk to and it would get to much.
" i will ash" I mumbled looking at the sand. He moved his hand under my chin and lifted it so I was looking in his eyes
. " no promise, promise me that you won't hurt yourself or anything like that when were gone promise me" he said and I nodded feeling a tear slip down my cheek.
I couldn't believe he cared so much, I haven't had anyone care so much besides jinxx. It made my heart swell and my Body numb.
" I promise ash. I promise" I said and he smiled swiping his cold thumb under my eye.
" good, I just love you so much I don't want you hurting yourself" he said and I nodded leaning up and kissing him hard.
His mouth moved against mine and every second that went by was a second i wanted to cherrish forever. When we pulled apart i burrowed my face into his chest. He grabbed me pulling me close.
" I'm going to miss you so much you have no idea" he said against my neck and I gripped him harder.
" I'm going to miss you too ash, I'm really going to miss you"
" but want to know what? The three months will go by fast and when they do, we won't have to tour till warped which your coming on" he said and I lifted my head from his chest seeing his eyes sparkling.
I smiled widly and kissed him again
" I can't wait" i mumbled against his soft lips. Neither one of us pulled apart and I was fine with that.
I didn't care about anything at that moment all I cared about was the kisses I was going to miss for three months.
I love this so much update soon plzzzz
6/2/15