You Left Me Wanting Love.....

-__-Andy's POV-__-

I sat at my desk writing lyrics, again. Why can't I come up with anything good?! I have the idea but I can't put it into the lyrics! Damn it! Fuck this I'm just gonna call Ash and see if he wants to come over. I really like Ash but I don't know if he likes me and he is a lady's man. Why would he like me? I'm so ugly and stupid. He could never like me. He is so perfect and I'm just a fuck-up. I wish he would though I miss having someone to talk to and cuddle with. Juliet never could do what Ash does without even trying. I got my tattoos covered that were for her. I couldn't stand to think about her anymore. She broke my heart.
*flashback*
Jules walked in and hugged me like she always did. I hugged her back and gave her a kiss. As soon as I looked at her I knew something was wrong, though. She was looking at me as if I was gonna kill her or something, which I could never even come close to doing. We sat down.
"baby, what's wrong?"
"please don't hurt me" she whispered almost inaudibly.
"why would I hurt you? I love you"
"b-b-bec-cause I-I ch-cheated o-on y-you" she stammered out through her sobs.
"WHAT?! How could you?!" I paused in frustration, "I gave you my heart! How could you do this to me?!"
"I-I'm s-sorry, b-baby I d-didn't m-mean t-to h-hurt y-you" at that I snapped. I hit her across the face immidiately regretting it. She looked at me with pure hurt.
"Oh my god baby I'm so sorry I didn't mean to do that!" She just cried harder and ran to our room. I ran after her but she locked the door. I sat against the door and cried.
*end of flash back*
i still can't believe what I did that day. I don't think I will ever forgive myself for hurting her but she broke my heart into little pieces and for that I can't forgive her. I was pulled out of my thoughts by a knock at the door. I opened it to see Ashley and CC smiling and holding up pizza and three bottles of Jack Daniel's whiskey. I tried to smile but they could tell it was fake and asked what was wrong. I just told them I was having a bad day and invited them in.
-time lapse, two hours later-
I was drunk and I could tell Ash and CC were too. I knew I shouldn't do what I was about to do but if Ash says anything I can just blame it on the alcohol. Ash was sitting next to me amd he was talking to CC. I grabbed his chin gently and made him face me. I kissed him and he kissed me back! I wasn't expecting that I thought he was gonna push me away....

<<<<Ashley's POV>>>>

He was kissing me. Andy was actually kissing me. Shit! I'm kissing him back! What the Fuck?! What am I doing?! I don't even care I like it and I'm not gonna let it end. Oh shit I forgot CC is here too. He is probably to drunk to remember this tomorrow. I just hope I'm not. I don't want to forget this. I was pulled out of my thoughts by Andy pulling away. I didn't want the kiss to end. I grabbed him and kissed him this time. He kissed back with such passion. Had he ever kissed Juliet like this? Or was it just because its me? I love him so much. There is no way he loves me back though. He is so perfect. I'm so imperfect and I can't even be faithful...... I don't want to hurt him. This can't happen, he will just end up getting hurt again. Juliet hurt him so bad. I don't want that to happen again. I wouldn't be able to live with myself knowing I hurt him like that. Again I was pulled out of my thoughts by him pulling away.
"Ashley?"
"yeah bright eyes?"
"I-I l-love y-you" he was crying. Andy hardly ever cries.
"I love you too, bright eyes, I love you too" I said as i pulled him onto my lap so I was holding him.
"No I mean I really love you" he was still crying.
"I-I love you too Andy" at that CC got jealous. I knew he liked me. He always had. He got up and grabbed Andy out of my arms. He kissed him and then walked over to me and kissed me too.
"Ashley, Andy I love you both and I want to be with you"
"I love you too chuppy" Andy said.
"and so do I, I love you and Andy" he smiled and so did Andy....

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