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A Brother's Friend

My Real Blood

I took the picture with the girls, trying not to look to upset, and ignore Andy's constent stares. They were burning a hole into my skin. I couldn't stop thinking about me and Ashley's encounter, I knew he told me he loved Andy, he told me awhile ago. I remember when we jokingly threw a 'Ashley's In Love' party.

*FLASH-BACK*

Ashley had been acting strange for a few days. He was moppy and bardley ever came out of his room. When we had friends over, he wasn't the same "Happy-Go-Lucky-Guy-Taking-My-Friends-Up-To-His-Room-To-Fuck" guy we all known him to be.

It had been three days sense Ashley last came out of his room. I had enough of this. I slammed my coffe cup on the counter and went up the stairwell. I hesitated outside his door just to throw it open. The stench of alcohol and vomit coming from the bathroom, Ashley's head was laying on his arms at his deak. His acoustic gutiar and and musin sheets were scattered al over his bed, I found a clean spot and sat cross leggedon it. I started strumming a sheet with the most notes. Ashley swayed with it.

When the song ended and she turned to me, I out stretched and he took it and sat across from me and smiled.

"Like it?" HE looked at his lap and then to me, he's completley sober.

"Why haven'ts you come out of your room?" I asked stroking his his cheek.

"Music." He said in mototone.

"Why haven't you been yourself? We've had people over every day this week, and you haven't fucked, hickey-ed, flirted, or even looked at any of the girls.

Ashley started crying, I pulled him into a hug.

"Carr. It's cause... Well, ther is- I'm in love!" I looked at him and I felt my smile go ear to ear. He smiled back at me, his face lighting up.

"Who? Is it Devon? The guy you keep texting?" Ashley 'Pfft' and motioned his hand like he was swatting a fly.

"No, no! Devon's just a back up." He winked and I laughed grabbing the voidca bottle from between his legs, opening the cap and taking a swig. Ashley did the same.

"Kay, so you know, the singer og the band, Andy right?" I racked my brian, the band wasn't very big then, but getting there. Ashley got reconized in public, it was awkward.

"Yes. 10 foot tall guy, amazing blue eyes. Yea, I know him." Ashley started nodding his head frantically "YOu dog! Let's finish this song shall we!"

We worked all that night and finally 'Die For You' as born.

***FLASH-BACK OVER**

I smiled remembering the memory, right then the photo shot. The girls walked away thanking me and Andy, telling us how cute a couple we were. If only they knew. We couldn't be a couple anymore. I couldn't hurt Ashley. I stole a glance at Andy, I couldn't do it.

I couldn't leave him.

My bosy started trembling. I was getting the feeling, I urged to end the pain, to gain some conrol over my body. I shuffled over to Ashley.

"I don't feel well. I'm going to the hotel. I'm not needed here." I fake giggled and he nodded, I ran out the door.

I stole a glance at Andy, he was watching. He tilted his head confused.

'I'm so sorry' I mouthed at him, a flush of realization flushed his face. I turned and ran. I only had so much time.

I made it to the hotel in 2 minutes. I cut threw the park. I stormed into the bathroom of the hotel room me and Andy shared. My phone started ringing, it was Ashley.

'God. Andy. Can't you keep anything to yourself?' I thought. I threw my phone in the toilet and looked around frantically for something to do it with. I needed to. I looked under the sink in the built in cupboard. There was only a bunch of cleaning suplies. At the back there was Bleach. I grabbed it and ran into the kitchen and grabbed a shot glass.

I walked back into the bathroom. The world around me started spinning, going black and grey, then back to normal. I stubbled but made my way back into the bathroom. I steadied myself with the counter top looking into the mirror.

'You slut!' I thought punching myself hard in the face.

'You are! You;re just a usless slut! no on will want you! Ever! I mean look at you!' I punched myself again, harder this time. I let out a small whimper, my jaw started to swell.

I poured my first shot, and took it. It burned, a thousand times worse then anything. My breathing jerked and I was gasping for air. The world started spinning faster. I looked into the mirror again and spat at what I saw. I took another shot, cuaseing my breathing to stop. The burning felt great! I didn't feel numb anymore. Looking in the mirror again, I puched it. I sent shrdes of glass everywhere around me. I took another shot and let the burning take me. This time it was different. There was very little burning. My mucles started to fail and I fell onto the floor, onto of all the glass. I could feel pieces jab me. But I loved it!

I lied on the twisting turning, color changing floor. Waiting . . . Waiting so pactionatly for what was coimg to claim me. Death.

My hand started working, but without me think. I didn't care, I didn't stop it. Foam started to spew from my mouth. Along with puke, the deadly acid burnt even worse coming up as it did going down. The world jerked to a stop, and I found myself gasping for are again.

I was almost dead. There was light building in the corners of my eyes. So this is what it's like. Dieing. I looked into a shard of glass beside me. To find a foam , puke , sweat , a nd war-paint covered girl in it's reflection. I picked it up and quickly, before giving myself time to think, stabbed my air with it. A scream tired to escape, but after 13 years of cutting, I know how to hold it in.

With the glas standing straight out of my arm I yanked it across. Causing blood to spew every where. On my face, the floor , my hair , it went everywhere. Like someone poured fake blood everywhere.

Only this was real.

This was my blood.

My real blood.

"CARRESSA?! WHERE ARE YOU?" A voice demamded. I could bardley hear. I stayed quiet, until I lost eye sight. A small whimper came out of me. I heard something crash on the floor.

Or rather someone.

The world then went black.

Notes

._. I don't even know what to say. I think I'm insane. I was really pisse writing this chapter. I never planned to make it so gorey. Ooops, sorry. Whatever, makes for a better story. Keep on readin' <3

Comments

I am so sorry, I tend to be be a complete psycho sometimes, and by sometimes I mean most of the time, and by most of the time I mean always... Wait...what?...pffft... I never said anything.... Who are you people!!!!

LIKE WTF!!!! YOU JUST KILLED ME LIKE SRSLY JUST FUCKING KILLED ME !!!! ANDY AND CANDI, THEN CANDI TRIES TO DIE THEY ANDY AND ASH GET TOGETHER AFTER ANDYS AND CANDIS BIG I LOVE YOU CRAP!! THEN CANDI GETS WITH AUSTIN!!!ARE YOU TRYING TO MURDER PEOPLE CUZ YOU JUST KILLED ME WITH THIS STORY!!!!!

you spell it pianist, not meaning to sound mean, I just wanted to let you know... um... I like your story... :)

ZalheraSakurayu ZalheraSakurayu
3/26/14
GRRAAAAA WHAT A PLACE TO LEAVE OFF AT!!!! I NEED THE SEQUEL!!
Lzzy Lzzy
7/10/13
Omg!!!!!!! This story was amazing!!! Im going. Read the sequel for sure!!!!!!!
Lost_It_All Lost_It_All
7/10/13