I sat backstage at the venue. It's been about two and a half hours and the boys just finished there last song. But something was off about there show. I think the fans sensed it too, because they didn't cheer as loud. Andy's voice sounded jumpy, and Ashley's bass didn;t sound sweet and perfect, it sounded dark and heavy.

The show was over, so the boys would have a signing for an hour, then a after party. I planned on going. I planned on getting so wasted I couldn't see. Why did Andy have to kiss me? It's not like I didn;t love it, and the feed back from the fans was amazing, but it was Ashley/ He knew I wasn't ready to tell him.

"How long has that been going on?" I heard Ashley say behind me in a monotoned voice.

I stood up from the curb I was sitting on and threw my cigerette to the ground. Ashley stood beside me, not leaving my eyes, and sat down on the curb. Only then did he drop eye contact. He looked at his shows and put his head between his knees. I sat beside him, shifty as close as I could. Finally I gave up and took him into my arms. He burrid his head into my chest and started to cry.

"Carr I'm hurt. You hurt me. Do you not trust me anymore? You used to tell me everything. Now you're keeping this a secret? Why Carr?" He left my chest and was now looking into my eyes. I still had my hands wrapped around him. I kissed his forehead before answering.

"I didn;t want you hurt. I thought... I don't know what I was thinking. Ashley honestly. I don;t want to pull you away from your best friend." I stroked his face. "I'm so sorry. But please, still trust me."

His expresstion flushed from saddness to anger in half a second. HE stood up pulling me p by my arm.

"I'm not mad becuase you guys are dating! You fucking know that! And you know why I'm so mad too! You expect me to trust you?! Carressa you know I love Andy!" I looked at me feet, only to have Ashley contnuie to yell.

"Look at me! It was okay when you took Trevor! I wasn;t that upset when you took Cyle! But really, Andy?! You knew how much I loved him! Carr you knew how I wrote 'Die For You' for him! Fuck you helped me with the music!"

I started to cry. Uncontrolable beastly tears, they streacked my war paint, but I didn't care. Ashley was right, I am a slut.

"I'm sorry Ashley. I really am! The way you were so hostile towards Andy, I thought you were over him!"

Ashley's face went redder.

"I was hostie towards him because I wanted you to leave him alone!" Ashley was inturuptted by Jinxx opening the backstage door. He looked at Ashley and then over to me. I turned my back to him so he couldn't tell I was crying.

"We gotta go for the signing." Jinxx said to Ashley.

"5 minutes. We'll be 5 more mintues." Jinxx shut the door and Ashley grabbed my shoulders and whipped me so I was facing him.

"Okay. Stop crying. A stop fucking Andy. I want you to call off whatever-" Ashley paused, looking at my face. His expresstion changed again. To sorrow.

"You really love him don;t you Carr?" Ashley said puling me into a hug. I stopped my crying and nodded.

Ashley's body stiffened. "Looks liked we're at a abit of a dilema."

He turned and left for the signing, I followed.

Notes

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