A Brother's Friend
"I Love You" : The First Time
Ashley must have not wanted me that bad, cause he fell right asleep. Or it could be the pain meds the hospital put him under. He looks so innocent sleeping, but the two porn magaziens sugjest other wise. Oh, how could I have done this to him?
"Babe? Are you okay? Why are you crying?" Andy's voice scared me I had forgot he was there, I was in a universe where only me and Ashley exsisted. I never noticed I was crying. I took my hand from Andy's and wiped my face with the sleeves of my shirt I let our a faint laugh.
"Yea, I'm fine thanks." I looked over at Andy who has not moved sense I came in, he stood at my side.
"Why are you so close?" I asked studying his expresstion.
"I heard when some people cry to much, or get really sad, they fall down. I want to catch you if you fal." He said this so sternly, but yet so reassuring.
Before I could reply we heard Ashley mer-mer.
"Ashley!" I squeeled. "I'm so so sorry I did this to you!" I ran and hugged him and slowly but with the same stron loving arms, he hugged me back.
"Hey Carr." Ashley said smiling.
"Wow. Even when we're here." I slumed down into a chair and took Andy's hand, Andy slide out of it and glided to the bed effortlessly. He was so graceful. He never said anything, he just took Ashly into his arms.
"I'm so sorry man! I never should have hit you." Andy's voice had a new kind of tone to it, almost as if on the verge of tears.
"Don't be Beirsack. You protected her man! I never should have said that to her. And hey, you put up a good fight." Ashley and Andy stopped hugging and laughed for awhile. Then it was silent again.
What seems like hours passed, but the clock told me it was only 4 minutes.
"So... When are they letting you out?" I asked trying to spite conversation. I want over to the bed and sat across from Andy on Ashley's other side.
"I can play tonight!" Ashley said with a huge smile on his face. This put a smile on Mine and Andy's face.
"Awesome. Thats relly awesome. Hey the others want to see you, so we'll be back later, kay Ash?" Andy looked at me and then at Ashley, were was he going with this?JInxx was here doing that paperwork, Jake goes where ever Jinxx goes.
"Kay. I love you guys." Said Ashley before we left.
Me and Andy waled out of the room and down the long halls without words. Without touching. Without even looking at eachother. Ashley's 'I Love You' probably caught us both of gaurd.
"You go out to my car. I'll be out after I get Jinxx and Jake." I nodded and did as Andy said. When I got into the car I began to cry. So hard my throat began to make the dieing animal noises. Out of the mirror I seen Andy comeing, so I tried to stop, but I guess he seen me to because he came running to the passangers door, hauled me out and held me tight in his arms while I continued to cry.
I know Andy only thinks it's because Ashley's hurt, but it's because today was the first time anyone's ever said 'I Love You' to me. We stood there for an hour before I stopped. And when I did he softly kissed me.
"You need rest." Andy said whiping away a tear. "Lets skip lunch and go right to the hotel. You can catch a nap." I nodded slowly and got into the car.
Me And Andy never talked the whole way to the hotel, but he reassured me by rubbing the inside of my leg with his thumb.
"Baby. I know this is hard for you. But it's only a few scratches." For some reason thing infuriated me.
"You just don't get it. It's not that." I moved my leg from out of his reache and curled so I was in a ball leaning against the window.
"Then what is it? I swear I'll help. Or try and understand." I looked over at Andy, we were in the hotels parking lot now, so he was starring at me. His eyes wore a pleeding sad look. I reached out and moved a piece of stray hair back to were it belonged and smiled. He grabbed my hand and pushed it against his cheek.
"It's nothing okay?" I said smiling.
"Carressa, I know it's something. Please don't lie to me." He too looked about ready to cry.
"Today has the first day anyone had ever said 'I Love You' to me."
I felt andy stiffen and again I fell into tears.
"Babe? Are you okay? Why are you crying?" Andy's voice scared me I had forgot he was there, I was in a universe where only me and Ashley exsisted. I never noticed I was crying. I took my hand from Andy's and wiped my face with the sleeves of my shirt I let our a faint laugh.
"Yea, I'm fine thanks." I looked over at Andy who has not moved sense I came in, he stood at my side.
"Why are you so close?" I asked studying his expresstion.
"I heard when some people cry to much, or get really sad, they fall down. I want to catch you if you fal." He said this so sternly, but yet so reassuring.
Before I could reply we heard Ashley mer-mer.
"Ashley!" I squeeled. "I'm so so sorry I did this to you!" I ran and hugged him and slowly but with the same stron loving arms, he hugged me back.
"Hey Carr." Ashley said smiling.
"Wow. Even when we're here." I slumed down into a chair and took Andy's hand, Andy slide out of it and glided to the bed effortlessly. He was so graceful. He never said anything, he just took Ashly into his arms.
"I'm so sorry man! I never should have hit you." Andy's voice had a new kind of tone to it, almost as if on the verge of tears.
"Don't be Beirsack. You protected her man! I never should have said that to her. And hey, you put up a good fight." Ashley and Andy stopped hugging and laughed for awhile. Then it was silent again.
What seems like hours passed, but the clock told me it was only 4 minutes.
"So... When are they letting you out?" I asked trying to spite conversation. I want over to the bed and sat across from Andy on Ashley's other side.
"I can play tonight!" Ashley said with a huge smile on his face. This put a smile on Mine and Andy's face.
"Awesome. Thats relly awesome. Hey the others want to see you, so we'll be back later, kay Ash?" Andy looked at me and then at Ashley, were was he going with this?JInxx was here doing that paperwork, Jake goes where ever Jinxx goes.
"Kay. I love you guys." Said Ashley before we left.
Me and Andy waled out of the room and down the long halls without words. Without touching. Without even looking at eachother. Ashley's 'I Love You' probably caught us both of gaurd.
"You go out to my car. I'll be out after I get Jinxx and Jake." I nodded and did as Andy said. When I got into the car I began to cry. So hard my throat began to make the dieing animal noises. Out of the mirror I seen Andy comeing, so I tried to stop, but I guess he seen me to because he came running to the passangers door, hauled me out and held me tight in his arms while I continued to cry.
I know Andy only thinks it's because Ashley's hurt, but it's because today was the first time anyone's ever said 'I Love You' to me. We stood there for an hour before I stopped. And when I did he softly kissed me.
"You need rest." Andy said whiping away a tear. "Lets skip lunch and go right to the hotel. You can catch a nap." I nodded slowly and got into the car.
Me And Andy never talked the whole way to the hotel, but he reassured me by rubbing the inside of my leg with his thumb.
"Baby. I know this is hard for you. But it's only a few scratches." For some reason thing infuriated me.
"You just don't get it. It's not that." I moved my leg from out of his reache and curled so I was in a ball leaning against the window.
"Then what is it? I swear I'll help. Or try and understand." I looked over at Andy, we were in the hotels parking lot now, so he was starring at me. His eyes wore a pleeding sad look. I reached out and moved a piece of stray hair back to were it belonged and smiled. He grabbed my hand and pushed it against his cheek.
"It's nothing okay?" I said smiling.
"Carressa, I know it's something. Please don't lie to me." He too looked about ready to cry.
"Today has the first day anyone had ever said 'I Love You' to me."
I felt andy stiffen and again I fell into tears.
I am so sorry, I tend to be be a complete psycho sometimes, and by sometimes I mean most of the time, and by most of the time I mean always... Wait...what?...pffft... I never said anything.... Who are you people!!!!
6/22/14