Love Me Till It Hurts

Life can seem tedious as long as you don't live it thoroughly. When we're present, light and joy emerge from banality, so any perception, any emotion, any thought, any act brings us back to our own fulfillment. Life doesn't change: it is our gaze and our actions that determine what it becomes. I had long since integrated this concept to make it a real guideline in my life.

At the dawn of my 24 years old, I was finally going to fly on my own. Let me live in my sandstone in a totally unknown city and which, however, is far from frightening me. A page had just closed behind me, with its lot of memories both happy and sad. But when I look back, I don't regret anything. I cann't wait to take my new flight to this new life that makes me dream so much.

1:00p.m. A distant chime of church pulls me out of my sleep. I don't have the courage to open my eyes despite the time already well advanced of the day. It's my mobile phone, which I left on vibrator mode under my pillow, which forces me to get up. It's Ellie.

- Hello?

My hoarse voice betrays my condition right away.

- Amy ... Do not tell me you're still in bed?

Yes and ? I must remind her that I already have a mother to lecture me.

- I was going to get up ... I came back late from a party at Dimitri's house ...
- At Dimitri's? Alexis was there?

Okay. On this point, she's probably right to worry. But I wouldn't have taken the risk of going to this party if I had the slightest doubt of his presence there.

- No, he wasn't there.
- Good. So much the better.

She lets a long silence punctuate her sentence. My head starts pounding as I sit up in my bed. I'm not in the mood to be reproached. I need to change the subject.

- Can we talk about this evening later, if you don't mind?
- Yes, excuse me ... And I didn't call you for this at the beginning anyway. Are you awake?
- Why ? Do you have something important to tell me?
- A crazy thing yes!

I feel in her voice that she's still in the grip of emotion. I'm getting impatient.

- How would you react if I told you that the Black Veil Brides go on tour after the release of their new album in the coming days?

She decided to make a hoax or what?

- Where did you see that? One more rumors I guess!
- No, no, no, gorgeous ! Not this time ! They announced it officially on social media this morning!

My heart is leaping in my chest. Black Veil Brides, I love them since the release of their first album. Only, I never had the opportunity to go see them in concert because my parents judged me too young and it often fell during the school period. I hasten to turn on my computer. Not that I don't believe my friend, but I want to see the announcement with my own eyes. All social networks are on alert and only talk about it apparently.

- It's unbelievable...

As I browse the article, I see that they evoke a kind of "competition". Ellie is always on the phone.

- So ? Did you read everything?
- Well if I understand well, they want to recruit a band to follow them in the first part on their dates?
- Hun hun! And a French band moreover, because their first dates are planned in France!

I have the feeling that she has an idea behind her head.

- Ellie ... That would be awesome but you're not serious? The deadline is much too short to reform a group.

The date is indeed set for July 18, in a little less than three weeks.

- Don't tell me it scares you! We're quite capable of it. I'm sure you have a lot of riffs waiting to be exploited.

I smile. Indeed, she is right. I compose songs easily. As soon as I have the opportunity, I spend hours with my guitar company and for the only company of my recording software. And Ellie is often the first person whom I share my ideas with.

- Pfff that would be completely crazy ... I say with a sigh.
- Completely crazy but not impossible!

She's impatient that I give her my approval to start the operations.

- Good ... It's okay! I'm in your madness!
- Yes! We will not regret having tried the experience I'm sure.

I remain a few minutes in my bed to cogitate on the news that my friend has just announced me. You only have to look at the walls of my room to realize how important this group is to me. I can not believe it. And this time, I will certainly not leave the opportunity to go see them. Even if we can not reform a band, we can always console ourselves with a concert of their exceptional tour.

After a good half hour of intense reflection, I finally decided to get up.

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