Too Young to Fall in Love.
We Know This Thing Wasn't Built To Last
Sin Sixx; two days before the tour
Head for a Breakdown plays softly in the background as I pack last minutes things for my 3 month long tour with Black Veil Brides, Asking Alexandria and this new upcoming band Palaye Royale. I’m excited and dreading it at the same time. I’m happy that I get to spend time with friends but it sucks being stuck on a bus with your womanizer of an ex.
Just as I zip up my makeup bag, my FaceTime notification started going off on my computer. A smile appears on my lips once I see my mom’s name coming up. “Hey Momma.” I say, once I accepted the call.
“How’s my favorite daughter doing out there in L.A?” She asks smiling. “Your brother told me you’re going on tour with a band as their photographer.”
“Yea, I’m joining the big leagues I guess.” I chuckle. “It was a last minute thing or else I would have told you myself. I’ve been spending the last couple days finalizing contracts and getting gear and crap like that.”
“So who’s the lucky band that gets to spend time with my daughter?” She asks. “And while you guys be anywhere near Atlanta?”
“Yea we’ll be in Atlanta.” I answer her second question first. “In fact we have a day off in Atlanta so I already told them where I’ll be. It’s been nearly a year since I saw my giver of life. And the band that hired me is Black Veil Brides.”
She gives me a concerned look. “Ashley still in that band? Wouldn’t that be awkward?”
“Yea he’s still their bassist and it’ll only be as awkward as I allow it.” I shrug. “I already laid down some ground rules when it comes to him. Hopefully he’s not a complete asshole and actually follows them.”
“I still wish you and Ashley stayed together.” My mother sighs. “He truly loved you Madisyn. You didn’t see the way that boy looked at you. He may have been a womanizer before but you made him want to change.”
“We were friends with benefits for three years before he wanted to try something.” I remind her. “It took him three years to realize I might just be the best thing to happen to him. Yea I knew I blew it but I wasn’t the one catching feelings. I will not settle down with a rockstar.”
“They aren’t like Nikki.” My mom states. “I was an idiot that slept with him. I allowed myself to be a homewrecker. I was just a stripper to him. But you know what? In that one weekend, he gave me the greatest gift of all; you. And it pains me to think you believe every guy out there is like that. I can guarantee in those three years, you were the only one Ashley was sleeping with. And I know for a fact, he was the only one you were sleeping with too. I think labeling it was what freaked you out the most. Because you knew you were about ready to go back on your own promise to yourself.”
I let out a frustrated sigh, “I hate when you’re right.”
“I’m a mother, I’m always right.” She laughs. “Just don’t do anything stupid okay? Work out your issues before you do anything stupid to hurt yourself or Ashley.”
“Ashley has already moved on, I don’t have to worry about hurting him.” I inform her. “And I haven’t felt anything for Ashley in years. I’ll be fine on this tour.”
“Somehow I don’t believe you.” She looks at me narrowing her eyes at him. “I remember the break up. You ran away with your tail between your legs. You escaped L.A and hid down here. You were a wreck. I don’t want to see you like that again. Plus we all know you’ll never stop loving Ashley.”
“This might be the first time you’re wrong mother.” But we both know I’m lying. She’s right. She’s always fucking right.
Head for a Breakdown plays softly in the background as I pack last minutes things for my 3 month long tour with Black Veil Brides, Asking Alexandria and this new upcoming band Palaye Royale. I’m excited and dreading it at the same time. I’m happy that I get to spend time with friends but it sucks being stuck on a bus with your womanizer of an ex.
Just as I zip up my makeup bag, my FaceTime notification started going off on my computer. A smile appears on my lips once I see my mom’s name coming up. “Hey Momma.” I say, once I accepted the call.
“How’s my favorite daughter doing out there in L.A?” She asks smiling. “Your brother told me you’re going on tour with a band as their photographer.”
“Yea, I’m joining the big leagues I guess.” I chuckle. “It was a last minute thing or else I would have told you myself. I’ve been spending the last couple days finalizing contracts and getting gear and crap like that.”
“So who’s the lucky band that gets to spend time with my daughter?” She asks. “And while you guys be anywhere near Atlanta?”
“Yea we’ll be in Atlanta.” I answer her second question first. “In fact we have a day off in Atlanta so I already told them where I’ll be. It’s been nearly a year since I saw my giver of life. And the band that hired me is Black Veil Brides.”
She gives me a concerned look. “Ashley still in that band? Wouldn’t that be awkward?”
“Yea he’s still their bassist and it’ll only be as awkward as I allow it.” I shrug. “I already laid down some ground rules when it comes to him. Hopefully he’s not a complete asshole and actually follows them.”
“I still wish you and Ashley stayed together.” My mother sighs. “He truly loved you Madisyn. You didn’t see the way that boy looked at you. He may have been a womanizer before but you made him want to change.”
“We were friends with benefits for three years before he wanted to try something.” I remind her. “It took him three years to realize I might just be the best thing to happen to him. Yea I knew I blew it but I wasn’t the one catching feelings. I will not settle down with a rockstar.”
“They aren’t like Nikki.” My mom states. “I was an idiot that slept with him. I allowed myself to be a homewrecker. I was just a stripper to him. But you know what? In that one weekend, he gave me the greatest gift of all; you. And it pains me to think you believe every guy out there is like that. I can guarantee in those three years, you were the only one Ashley was sleeping with. And I know for a fact, he was the only one you were sleeping with too. I think labeling it was what freaked you out the most. Because you knew you were about ready to go back on your own promise to yourself.”
I let out a frustrated sigh, “I hate when you’re right.”
“I’m a mother, I’m always right.” She laughs. “Just don’t do anything stupid okay? Work out your issues before you do anything stupid to hurt yourself or Ashley.”
“Ashley has already moved on, I don’t have to worry about hurting him.” I inform her. “And I haven’t felt anything for Ashley in years. I’ll be fine on this tour.”
“Somehow I don’t believe you.” She looks at me narrowing her eyes at him. “I remember the break up. You ran away with your tail between your legs. You escaped L.A and hid down here. You were a wreck. I don’t want to see you like that again. Plus we all know you’ll never stop loving Ashley.”
“This might be the first time you’re wrong mother.” But we both know I’m lying. She’s right. She’s always fucking right.
I love it, it is so beautifully written and well worded.
4/15/19