Warped Tour Finally

It was my first time at a warped tour concert,actually my first concert,I couldn't believe it,I'm so excited as I look around taking selfies and pictures of everything before it starts. This is also my first time leaving home,and I was alone,completely alone. I saved all my money I made with the job I finally got for enough for tickets to the concert,and my train here,Cali was gorgeous. I couldn't take my mind off of how I was going to meet bvb. My boyfriend never liked them so he dumped me for this,and friends,I don't think I've ever had a real one,not one I could keep,I suck at keeping people,those thoughts started dragging me down,especially when I see a familiar duo who attended many concerts together and went to school with me,I caught the tear rolling down my cheek because of that and all the couples around. "Jess,today is happy time" I remind myself that my dreams were coming true then I begin to think aloud. "Hmm....I still have a while...heh~a tour bus....I used to watch every vehicle that went by me back home just hoping one would be bvb driving by" I chuckle to myself "Jessica!? Its Leigh!!" I bite the bullet and turned "hi" we hug and I also speak to the other "hi Breanna" only to have a nose thrown in the air at me,used to it.
"Want to come to the concert with us?"
"No thanks....y'all have fun" I say friendly as possible and quickly get away. I look at my outfit "this isnt right for a concert..." I was really trying to avoid the fact my smile was gone and my face had flooded over with tears,so I sat under a tree.
"Hey guys.....why is she-" I suddenly hear a voice but don't think it's for me because no one other than my parents and animals ever truly did care. Then someone sits by me "Hi". I don't look but I say "Hi....".
"Whats the matter?"
"Doesn't matter"
"sure it does"
I shake my head no.
"......I know that feeling"
"you do?"
"....mhm .....insufficient,unnecessary,unwanted,unmissed,left out,worthless,useless....that how you feel,like you don't matter?"
I nod "how would you know?" I look up and see Christian Coma "CC!?....sorry,but seriously you're bvb,how would you know what it feels like?"
He chuckles a little "what do I play?"
"Guitar...no drums....one of them"
"yes one of them,see?"
"I'm sorry,i actually study on the band,I didn't mean-"
"It's fine,no one ever realizes whether I'm gone or not,I'm not missed...its not like I'm Andy Beirsack or Ashley Purdy....hell even Jake has more recognition....but I don't care"
"lie,I think we both know it sucks....but still that's nothing compared to this,thanks for trying to help"
"yikes,ouch.....how about this,you come hang out with me on the bus during the concert and see what I mean....like juice pouches?"
"Me? Me on bvb tour bus with you?"
He nods
"alright thanks...and yes I love juice boxes"
"good me too,especially when you let them ch-"
"chill a bit and get shivers of ice"
"yes!" We both laugh and go on with that plan,as we drink our juice we talk about what's happened to me and all kinds of things,and we had fun,the concert seemed to last forever "so yeah I did that.....I doubt anyo-"
"no sad talk,just wait"
"Oh..okay?"
Soon after the rest of the band happily comes on excited about the great concert,it was like he was invisible,then he takes me to his bedroom he shares with ash and looks out his little window,I saw this in a video,I really did research.I hug him "I'm sorry"
"it's okay..." he smiles even though I know how he feels. I take my drawings from my bag and tape,I tape the ones I did of him on the small wall area of his bed "I did the whole band but I didn't forget you" he hugs me "thank you"
"you don't have to thank me....I should go,I have to catch my train home"
"you're leaving" I nod "I came to meet you guys,I got what I wanted"
"well,here,we're friends now right?"
"Friends?" I explain my paranoia to him again,he promises he is different like they all do "alright.....I guess getting screwed over one more time won't do me any more damage like it matters" I had just turned 21 and lately it was becoming harder to fight demons,not like it was easy before. He looks disappointed but writes his number down and gives it to me with a hug "thanks" I smile and leave "wait....I'll walk you there" he walks me to the train and watches me leave.
Several years go by in no time,we stay in touch but not often,I can't complain I was this lucky either way. One day I'm watching a segment on them and they actually interviewed him and they asked him "So CC is there a special person? I mean with all the other members settling down"
"Yeah I know,even Ash has a permanent girl....actually no,but I have a best friend...we met at tour a few years back,I hope she is watching this" a few hours go by where I spent crying and thinking about my past then my phone gets a message I smile a very fragile smile I am so happy and afraid by this I'm now really confused but laugh and say goodnight,several days later there is a trian ticket in my mailbox,not only that but a apartment key. I smile and I pack before leaving and walk to the train station which takes me about a day in total give or take but I don't mind I have nothing else to do then I get on my train to Cali and arrive at the station,he runs up and hugs me "hi" I giggle and hug him,I'm tired but don't say anything and he takes me to the apartment,well hotel room,and helps me unpack then gets our juice and we lay on the bed reminiscing "thanks for all this"
"don't thank me.....your feet look sore"
"Oh huh? Nah"
"Yea they do" he rubs them. My eyes widen "what?" He stops "sorry" "no don't be...." "Jess...." "yeah?" "I missed you" "lord knows why" he all of a sudden kisses me. I am shocked at first but kiss back,I suddenly stop. "Okay...I'm not pretty,or famous,I'm lucky you even talk to me" other than him I had no human interaction at all in the past few years "look......you are" he says it looking me in the eyes and holding my chin "for 3 years now I couldn't get you off of my mind" he holds my hand,I'm crying "p-please not you....a-anybody else but please not you.....p-please just be honest" he just holds me and hums,I see why he wasn't a singer but I'm not much better and I liked it,and it wasn't just to make me shut-up it was to help "I mean it,I really like-....love you" he kisses me again.
"I love you too..that's why I don't -"
"please...let me just prove it,I got you a promise ring,I remember the stories,I got You this ring,and I didn't say no"
I hug him around the neck and he hugs me "and the key is because I want you to stay" I nod and we stay like this a really long time

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