Paranoia
Wisdom.
Jinxx. He was always my shoulder to cry on. He knew how to fix evey problem you had, but he couldn't help me. No one could. He always tried to and could probably sense something was wrong with me, especially towards the end.
He always tried to talk to me in private, asking me if I'm okay and when I lied saying that I am okay, he always said I could tell him anything. I never took him up on that, I should've. If I did we wouldn't be in this situation.
I hope he doesn't blame himself for my actions. I didn't want to hurt anyone or make them mad, I just knew I had to do what I did. It was the only way out and I'm sorry.
