Falling In Jake's Arms 2. (Rewritten)

It has been days since Kurt’s funeral. I didn’t ate nothing, I didn’t want to hear from no one, even my job knew I was expecting a kid so they gave me days off but I know I had to come back and tell them the news. I was crying on the side of the bed and then I got up went to drink some water. I didn’t knew that my kids were rushing in for school, I didn’t care about the time I didn’t care about nothing.
“Babe, i am not going to work you seem so down.” Jake says. I looked down.
“Don’t say you aren’t going to work just because of me. I’ll be fine.” I said. Trying to cheer myself up. He looked.
“Okay but you better not be doing nothing bad.” He says. I nodded and then everything was quiet too quiet. This depressing and this anxiety is pumping up so hard I needed a smoke. I got a lot of money to buy cigs, which I ment I bought a whole pack but I would need to hide it. I lit one up and then I felt a little relaxed. Good god I haven’t even felt like this since I was 15. I saw a car coming up and it was my brother Ronnie. Crap, he's gonna kill me if he see me like that. So I quickly turned off the cigarette and then I flushed it and then changed quickly to different clothes and perfume myself. I’ll have to wash the clothes fast. I went down with the basket without freaking out and made sure I hide the box of cigarettes. I started washing and I put the clothes in the washer. I went to put the dogs outside and I faked that I didn’t saw his car out.
“Hey sis, what are you doing?”
“Nothing, just trying to cheer myself up.” I said.
“I am sorry about your son sis. I am here to cheer you up.”
“Like what?” I asked.
“Well you haven’t been like since like years ago and I don’t want you to be back at smoking.” I chuckled and I looked up. “Or were you?” He asked all seriously.
“No, no I am not.” He gave me a small punch and then he laughed.
“I am just kidding. But seriously, don’t do it. Your the only family I have and I don’t want you to mess up your health.” I looked down and gave him a hug.
“Thanks for being there for me, your always here for me.” I said while I was trying not to cry.
Jake’s POV
I was so sad that I didn’t even have the guts to play guitar with the band. The guys let me be me. But since I started playing some notes on guitar and they were so sad that I didn’t notice that the guys recorded the guitar. I grabbed the headphones and then I started hearing the drums playing. I guess I made a song. Andy was singing along. It turned out a sad song. About Kurt. I got out and then everyone looked at me.
“So what is the name of this new song?” Andy asked me.
“Kurt.” I said while I placed my guitar.
“Hey dude, come and grab some coffee with me and let's talk about things.” Andy says. I nodded and then we went to his car. We sat down and then waitress came and asked for a drink we ordered and then we waited. “So dude, how is Aurora?”
“She isn't well. I feel like she is going back to that depressing era. Where she was smoking and everything else.”
“She won’t she knows how to control it.” I looked down.
“And your kids?”
“The kids are sad too, this affected everyone, everyone were expecting Kurt.” I said.
“We all did.” Andy says and then the woman came without coffees.
“Do you sirs want something to eat?”
“Can you order us both donuts?” She nodded and then. We started talking again with the convo and then he looked at me. “Have you guys ever thought about adopting a child?” Andy brought up that topic.
“No not really, I don’t think Aurora would like it.” He nodded.
“What if you talk to her about it and she might agree.” He says.
“That might be a good idea, but not right now, she is on those meds again and I don’t want her to yell or do something dumb.” I said to him.
“Aurora isn’t crazy, she never was.”
“I never called her crazy, she is my wife, I love her.” I said.
“Awh that’s sweet.” I nodded and then they gave us our donuts. Then the waitress noticed us for a couple of seconds that made me jump a little bit.
“I have been attending you and I notice you are from the band BVB! Oh my gosh but can I have your autograph?” She asked. We both nodded and then signed it. She fangirled a little. We were done getting coffee we tipped her, and left. We went back to the studio and the guys asked me if I was okay.
“Ya guys, thanks to Andy, I kinda got things off my mind.”
“Would you want the song you wrote in the album?” I shrugged.
“I don’t care.” I said. “I just not in the mood for writing more songs, are you guys okay without me?” They nodded I got up and then drove back home to my wife. I parked the car and I noticed that Ronnie was there, I hope he did cheer her up. I opened up and then I smiled to her.
“Hey baby!”
“Jake.” She says as she hugged me.
“What did you do Ronnie?”
“Nothing, I wanted to cheer my sister up.” He says.
“Are you okay?” I asked her she nodded.
“She poured everything out about losing her baby and everything.” Ronnie says. I nodded.
“Thanks.” He says.
“Gonna go, going to get ready for a date with my soon to be wife” Ronnie says.
“Soon to be wife?” Aurora says.
“I am popping up the question, we have been dating almost 3 years and I think it is time for popping up the question.” I nodded and he left. She upstairs and I followed her and then I went to the bathroom to see what I had in my teeth and then Aurora went to bed. I went along with her and cuddled with her. I was thinking deeply about what Andy told me. Should I ask her now or later. I thought but we went to take a nap.
Aurora’s POV
I Woke up and I looked and I remembered that Jake wrapped his arms in his my waist. I tried not wake him up but he felt me. He opened his eyes and then he looked. I kissed him.
“Hi Baby.” He says to me.
“Hey.” I said while I got up. I checked the time and the kids were close to get out of school
“Hey babe I am going to pick up the kids.” He nodded. I put on my shoes and then went to turn on the car. I texted Rebel and the kids to meet up up front to pick them up. I left and waited there for a few and then the kids came and then Alex came.
“Hey mom mind taking Alex to his house.” I nodded.
“Hop in.” I drove back to Alex’s house and then went back home. The kids ran and then I went and I smelled the food, Jake already made food. I rushed upstairs to throw the cigarettes away. I didn’t want to fight with him about this or that I started. I just flushed everything alway. I went downstairs and then I looked.
“Want something to eat babe?” Jake asked. I nodded. I haven’t ate nothing but when I was with my brother, Ronnie, he made me felt like my happy self again.
“So how was school?” I asked my kids.
“I have to finish notes and study for a test, which I am stressing out.”
“You have good grades, there isn’t no need for you to stress out.” I said while I ate. She looked down and she nodded about it. Dinner was quite. Barely no one was talking. I sighed for a little bit, my thoughts were coming in again, I was starting to think about Kurt. I got up and went to the room where suppose it was his, the only thing I was going to give him was this baby blanket. I smelled it and this gave me the memory where Jake gift me this and told me that it is for Kurt. I looked down. I closed the door and I was crying like heck. But I only flushed the Cigarettes that were in the room I hide some in the baby room, so I kinda hide them in my purse and then I went to the car for a drive, I didn’t say nothing to nobody that I was smoking and puffing. I didn’t even think about what I was doing. I parked the car in the park. I started smoke another one. I almost finished a whole pack that I went back home. I didn’t even care about anything or how I smelled like smoke. I opened the door and then he looked.
“Aurora, where in the world were you and why didn’t you answer my phone calls?” He asked worried. He sniffed. “Did you smoke?” I didn’t say anything. I looked down and I ran to the bedroom to change. I heard footsteps and then he opened the door. “I am not going to get mad at you for what you did Aurora. It made me feel upset.” He says.
“I am sorry! I tried so hard! All this losing the baby makes me feel like shit.” I said while I threw my hands. He hugged me and didn’t care about the smell of it.
“Just don’t do it. Okay, just know little Kurt will be in our hearts.” I hugged him.
“Okay, I am going to take a shower and put this clothes in the dirty laundry.” I said to him while was getting in the shower. He nodded. As the minutes passed I was wrapped in towel and then put on some random clothing on and went downstairs looking what is everyone doing. I had one of Jake’s hoodies along with some leggings on. I sat by Jake and he smiled.
“Are you feeling okay?” I nodded
“Yeah.” Then my kids came and hugged me and kissed me in my cheek. I have lost a child, but I still have my twins and my first child loving me.

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