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They don't need to understand

GoodBye agony

Meridia*

Over the course of the next month I had stopped eating, And when ever I did eat I would just throw it back up. Chris and my mum got married 2 weeks ago, And in her eye's 'were a big happy family' but we all know that's Bull shit And since Sarah and Chris got married The cuts got deeper my shirts got longer and I got quieter I mean, sure Andy has gotten a litte better, we can hold a conversation for about 2 minutes but the people at school and my abusive boyfriend make it. The only good thing is I met this girl who moved into the house next door, Her name is Abby, She has long dark red hair and beautiful emerald green eye's.

Her and I were at the mall school had just ended for the christmas holiday, We were walking around when she suddenly stopped "Mer I'm so hungry! CAN WE GET FOOD NOW" she exclaimed I reluctantly agreed "Yaas, Lets go to taco bell" she said as she drug me behind her, I let out a small laugh and followed. We got there and ordered 2 soft tacos and a fry to split, I got half way through my taco when I heard Jen's voice from behind me "Oh god, Save some food for the rest of us. You fucking cow" I slowly put the food down and Looked up at Abby "I- I'm- I'm going home I'll- I might see you later" and with that I ran home, My mum and Chris were on there honeymoon sh it was just Andy and I.

I ran in the house crying harder then I ever have. This week was just torture.. MY LIFE was torture. I slammed the door shut and Andy's head shot towards me, he gave me a look, but not like his normal one.. This one looked concerned "A-are you okay?'' his voice broke the silence, I rolled my eye's "Li-like you c-care" I choked out before running off to my room.

I slammed my door shut and walked through to my en-suit bathroom, I looked in my full body length mirror and what looked back was a broken, fat, bruised ugly piece of shit. My hands shook as I picked up something off the counter and threw it at the mirror, watching my reflection shatter into a million pieces. If only I could shatter, too.
I was already shattered inside, like the mirror. All I wanted was to be skinny and perfect. But it only made me hate myself more. It never ends. I stretched my legs in front of me, my back against the marble of the bathtub.
"Meridia You okay?" Andy asked from outside the door. I made no move to respond.
The door creaked open slightly. “I heard something-” he froze. I could only imagine what he saw, Fat broken bruised me, With scarred as fuck arms and blood shot eye's.

He slowly treated towards me glass crunching under his boots, He slowly crouched down in front of me and lifted his had to my face, I flinched away "Pl-please just go..." I chocked out he slowly picked up my arm and looked at the cuts a broken expression crossed his face, and he closed his eyes willing himself not to cry, but let a few tears slip "why?'' was all he asked "Why?!? Really!? DO YOU THINK YOU HAVE THE NERVE TO ASK ME WHY?! LETS SEE, EVER SINCE I MET YOU YOU HAVE MADE MY LIFE A LIVING HELL, TORMENTING ME AND SPREADING RUMORS, CALLING ME FAT AND PATHETIC?!!? THATS FUCKING WHY" I screamed at him and ran out of my room and into the bathroom in the hall way, I locked the door and slid down sobbing, not even 2 seconds later I heard Andy knocking on the door frantically "Mer!! Meridia!!! Please. Dont do this, Ju-Just open the door, I'm Sorry" He pleaded but I couldn't take it anymore, I grabbed the bottle of anti-depressants and set them aside the I grabbed my razor and made deep cuts up and down both arms, The blade tugged on something causing me to scream and drop the razor "NO!! MERIDIA PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR, DONT DO THIS"
But it was to late, I stumbled a few feet, figuring I didn't need the pills anymore I let myself collapse to the ground, I heard the door brake open then Andy's shouting my vision was fading and so was I... "Meridia, Hey, Keep your eye's open.. Fuck, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean anything I said. Please, please dont die" he repeated over and over, but I soon felt the darkness taking over i manged to get out a "I don't get why you hated me" before the darkness finally won.

Andy*

I don't know what has been wrong with me lately but, I have been on edge and took everything out on Meridia. I didn't hater at all, it was just, My grades have been bad, My girlfriend cheated on me, and as of right now, My band is going nowhere.

It was a friday and My dad and Sarah were on there honeymoon, and Meridia was at the mall. I've noticed cuts and bruises here and there on her body, And she has gotten allot thinner then when I first met her. Honestly it killed me, But I didn't know how to handle it, I didn't know how to bring it up or ask about it. All of a sudden I was brought out of my thoughts by a door slamming shut and Meridia appeared in the hallway with tear stained cheeks and blood shot eyes I looked at her for a second "A-are you okay?'' my voice broke through the unbearable silence, she scuffed and rolled her eyes "Li-like you c-care" she half spoke half sobbed, then ran in the direction of her room, My heart broke I honestly have been such a dick to her. I heard glass break and I shot up heading in the direction of her room "Meridia You okay?" I asked just outside of her en-suit bathroom door, I got no reply I opened the door slightly “I heard something-” But stopped half way through my sentence what I saw in-front of me broke my heart Meridia was sat up against her tub, Bruised scarred and extremely thin, I slowly made my way over to her and crouched down, Bringing my hand up to her face she flinched away "Pl-please just go..." she whispered I looked at her shocked I gently grabbed her one arm and looked at her cuts. I closed my eye's letting a few tears slip "Why?" I asked almost in audible she yanked her arm away "Why?!? Really!? DO YOU THINK YOU HAVE THE NERVE TO ASK ME WHY?! LETS SEE, EVER SINCE I MET YOU YOU HAVE MADE MY LIFE A LIVING HELL, TORMENTING ME AND SPREADING RUMORS, CALLING ME FAT AND PATHETIC?!!? THATS FUCKING WHY" she shot up and ran out of the room to the other bathroom, I quickly chased her, she closed and locked the door before I could make it, I knocked on the door frantically "Mer!! Meridia!!! Please. Dont do this, Ju-Just open the door, I'm Sorry" I pleaded but got no response, I waited a few minutes then heard a scream, My heart dropped and panic surged through me "NO!! MERIDIA PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR, DONT DO THIS" I cried out, I did the only thing I could think of at this point, I kicked open the door and saw her lying in a pool of her own blood I quickly called the ambulance and told them what had happened and they were on there way.

I dropped to my knees and placed her head in my lap, Brushing the hair out of her face "Meridia, Hey, Keep your eye's open.. Fuck, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean anything I said. Please, please dont die" I pleaded as tears flooded down my face she opened her eye's for a slit second and quietly whispered "I don't get why you hated me" then she went limp.

The ride to the hospital was long and quiet. Meridia's vital signs increasing and decreasing making it impossible for her condition to remain stable.

Meridia*

I was on a hard bed and my arm hurt like a bitch, there was a dull pain in the back of my head and my throat hurt like a bitch, I realized someone had a hold of my hand and I looked over to see Andy "A-andy?" I asked weakly, his head shot up "Oh my fucking god! You're okay, Holy shit you're okay! I thought I lost you!" he exclaimed I sighed an looked down "You would have only cared for about half a day then would have moved on" I mumbled "No. no no no" "I was wrong for what I was doing, and I am so SO FUCKING sorry for it, I promise, I will be a better brother to you, I didn't understand what you were going through, I saw everything. I was just to scared to ask. I didn't get it. and I am truly sorry for that" I looked up at him "You won't ever understand, My father was abusive, My boyfriend beets me daily, I get harassed at school and tormented at home by you, People hate me. My life is fucked up. And no one would care if I had of died" I said to him "don't. Don't say that, I would care. I would be fucking heart broken. I may not have shown it, But I promise If you stay alive I will change. And as for your 'boy friend' I'll take care of that fucker" I gave him a smile. "I promise" I said "Good, I love you" he replied "Love you too."

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