You Find Your Hell Is Home

*Jinxx's POV*

"Jinxx, come out of hiding...." I could hear Logan laughing, it's a good thing he didn't have anymore of his powers or he could have found me already. "Come on, you know I won't hurt you. I have your friends. They'll freeze to death if I don't get back to them soon." He laughs. See I did have everything plan out. Jake and I were going to get him to follow us and the kids were going to gang up on him. The only thing that failed, was when Jake tripped. I tried everything to go back and help him but Logan was on our tails. He was taken and now I don't know where the guys are because here I am hiding.

"Leave him alone! You want someone to worry about, you should worry about us! We can hurt you they can't!" Alice screamed at him and I heard him laughing more.

"You little children are going to try and take care of me? It's funny that you say that. Okay then bring it...." That fast I heard him screaming in pain.

"Jinxx! Run get the others and get the hell out of here!" Alice yelled at me. I got up and ran to his area I looked around for them but I didn't know where they would be.

"GUYS! Where are you??" I was running around.

"Jinxx....." I could hear Jake and ran to him though they were all in a cage, in a pool of freezing cold water. I looked around until I found what I was looking for and got the cage out of the water. I grabbed blankets for all of them. "Why are you here? You should be hiding...." Jake was trying to talk but being that fucking cold he couldn't. Then I seen the others, cover in cuts and marks.

"Don't worry I'll get you all out of here. The kids are holding him off. Come on we need to move." I was walking with them out but I never thought to be the one getting hit with something. My world ended up going black and I didn't know what hit me.

Soon I woke up in the clearing wooden area again. The one that I seen Jackie in. She was there waiting for me. I looked around but didn't see anyone but us to around, she didn't look happy. I went to get say something but she cut me off.

"What are you doing here? Didn't I tell you to get away? You free all of them even Alice and yet you didn't read 202's file or leave. What the hell is wrong with you?? You're in danger!" She frowns more.

"I tried to get my friends, Logan had them. We were leaving, making a run for it and then something hit me and hard." I just looked at her now.

"Yeah, you're in the devil's playground now. He has you Jinxx, right where he wants you, has a padded room where you won't be able to run until he is ready to get rid of you or torture you. Right now he is planning how to kill all five of you at the same time. He needs their souls to help him stay here. You took all his connection away. He wants it back.." Soon the clearing started to get dark and we were in the asylum in my dream. "Fuck, he's coming...."

"Jackie, aren't you going to tell him about 202. I mean I really think he should know." I went to run away but found myself in that wheelchair in my dream. I was shaking and trying to break free but I couldn't. "No, you stay, I gave you a drug to keep you asleep, here in your dreams while the real me have fun with her friends again. They weren't done with their punishment...." He laughed darkly.

"Just let them go!!!" I tried to get out but still couldn't.

"Hello Logan, it's nice you can even fuck up his dreams. Let the other guys go. You have Jinxx, he can't run." What was she talking about? Just letting him do with me as he please?

"I don't want to. I dare you to stop me Jackie, unlike you. I can kill the living. Oh Jinxx, you're about to get a rude awakening." With that I was woke up and up to my neck in water. I freaked out but only to have the guys making sure I didn't go under the water. It was cold, really fucking cold.

"Damn it...." I just looked around and I could see him starting to fill up the pool a little more. "Fuck, guys can you all feel your limbs and move yet?"

"We're cold, but we still have some feeling. I think the only want having issues right now is CC. If it wasn't for Ashley, he would be under water right now." I looked over and seen CC out cold, his skin was blue and I could see the others turning the same color, they were freezing to death, this water had to be about 10 degrees....

"You boys looked like your freezing, maybe I should let you out of the water soon but I need you all unable to move for my next plan." He luaghed and I wonder what happen to Jackie.

"Fuck you, I swear if we get out of here, you'll fucking regret it!" Andy was looking him dead in the eyes. I was just looking around. The lock was underwater, if I could get to it, I can get us the hell out of here. Though, 10 degrees water, going under the water getting the lock open. This could end up badly. I needed to wait for Logan to be gone before I can even temp that.

"You think so, but by the time I let you out of here, you won't have feeling in any of your body and then I could kill all of you." He walked off and I could tell he went to go find the ghost kids.

"Guys, I have an idea....Jake move away from the door. This place is 15 years old and from the bones I can tell he left someone in here to die. So it's been underwater all this time the lock is weak." They moved out of my way and I went under the water, I really regretted this because it was fucking cold. I pushed and pulled, kicking the door until it open though from being under the water, I started to black out. The last thing I remember was someone dragging my arm and pulling me out of the water, I don't know who it was, couldn't tell if it was human or spirit. I just know the door was open and I know my brothers could get away even if I wasn't with them.

When I woke up, I was laying in a room and it was taking forever for me to come to. I could feel the cuffs around my ankels and wrists. I was laying on one of them asylum beds that were in a paddled room. I looked around and I know that I was awake. Where are the guys, please tell me they got out of here. I couldn't feel anything, I could tell I was wrapped in blankets too. Where the hell was I?

"It's good to see you up. Though you guys are very stupid for going into that place." I looked up and seen that I was in a real hospital, though why was I being held down to the bed.

"What's going on? Where are my friends?" I needed to know where they were, got please don't tell me I'm stuck here alone. "Please tell me that they got out of there."

"Your friends? When we went in there you were the only crazy person in the pool. The cops were the ones that found you. They said that you went missing for days and they couldn't find you in that place. When they did they said you told them that this Dr Logan was after you and that you all needed to keep moving. Hiding in offices and talking about ghost." He was looking at a file at the bottom of my bed. Something told me that they thought I was crazy.

"I want to see my friends!" I was fighting against the cuff things that held me down and then I realized I wasn't in my normal clothes. Where the fuck was I?

"Well we could let you see your friends, but they are all in body bags now." What?? He's lying, this can't be fucking real.

"No, I don't believe you. The last thing I remember was kicking open the cage and then passing out. This isn't real it's not!!!" I closed my eyes shaking, this isn't real, this isn't real. Wake up now. Come on just fucking wake up! Logan is fucking with you again! Jackie help me!!!

"But it's is real, they were trying to help you and you cut them down without a second thought, you gutted them, making sure they were dead. You do know kid, with this happening, we are going to have to treat you like a insane person or they will just put you to death for killing and slaughtering four people." This can't be real, it just can't.

"No, I don't believe this. I would never hurt the others. You can't tell me that I did that. I know I save them, I know someone pulled me out of the water before I passed out. They were all alive when I passed out, before I kicked the door to get us out of there. This needs to stop! This is a fucked up dream I didn't kill my friends! Just fuck off and let me out of this nightmare! NOW!" Damn it, I refused to open my eyes. This isn't real, this isn't real, this isn't real. GODDAMN IT WAKE UP!

"But you did, you cut them to pieces, stabbed them in the eyes. You killed them. If you can't believe that. I'll take you to them." The doctor started to wheel the bed I was on out of the room. I could read the signs, and it wasn't going to go see my so called dead friends. We were heading to a ER room. "You're really messed up kid, we are going to have to do something about this." They pushed my bed into this bright room and put a mask on my face. This wasn't cool. I started shaking my head from side to side to get it off. But they held my head still.

"No, I didn't do anything to my friends! Just let me fucking go!" I started coughing on whatever they were making me breath in. Everything was getting fuzzy and I wasn't feeling good. "No.....stop...." My vision was getting weird.

"Just relax kid, we are doctors, we are here to help you." I seen they had something. What the fuck where they going to do, cut me open or my head. "Just relax." Then I heard a saw, and I freak out but the drug in the breathing mask was taking me under. "We need to cut a hold in the top of his head, this kid isn't right, he don't remember killing his friends. We all seen the bodies, there is no way to tell who they are. Just that it was four others." No, this isn't fucking real. I didn't kill my friends, I know I didn't. This isn't real. Someone wake me up from this nightmare, someone fucking save me.

"DAMN IT! FUCKING WAKE UP JINXX!!!" I passed out from the stuff I was breathing in, but I did hear something that sounded like Andy.

Soon my eyes snapped open and I looked around, I was still in the area of the pool and I could hear sound around me. I didn't know where I was, but I know that I had blankets on me, tons and tons of blankets. I coughed a bit and everyone stopped talking. I closed my eyes again. What if what I just seen and heard was real, that I was just dead because they killed me for killing them.

"Man, come on you have to wake up for us. Please, just fucking show us you're alive. We can only hold him off for so long. Jackie, I can't tell if he's with us are not, can you?" Jackie, it sounded like CC talking to me.

"He's awake, he just had one really bad dream. Logan can't get to him, but he can still make him see and feel real things in his dream. You boys need to get back to my office. Use that wheelchair. Jamie, you have to help them. He needs a warm spot, me and the others will hold Logan back. Just help the boys..." I don't know what was going on, I feel someone pick me up and sit me in a chair before getting me out.

"I told you boys bringing a fucking medium here, bad things were going to happen. You're lucky that I was able to get in after he lost his powers to keep the doors shut. He would have froze to death in that water and with out my help, you would have been burying him." I could hear that old woman.

"Jinxx....you'll be okay...." I felt someone put their lips against mine, but the vioce sounded like Alice.

I was so out of it and I could hear a door closing and I was moved off the chair and on to the sofa. I felt someone pushing on my arm before a needle going in. It felt like an IV. "I need you all to find blankets. Jackie can hold him off, with the children. We need to get your friend to fully wake up, right now he knows something is going on, he can hear us all around him. But he in a dream like stage." I could hear more moving around and open my eyes again, I could see figures moving around the room. "Rest sweetie, you're too weak to be able to do anything. You need to rest..." I shake my head, I didn't want to go back to sleep. "I know, I'm sure you had a horrible dream. Logan was trying to kill you in your sleep before I came in. You need to rest, I don't want to have to force you back to sleep. I really don't want to, just sleep...." I feel someone holding my hand, it wasn't a person.

"Sleep, you have to, for me. I know who you are now." Alice seem to be happy but sad too.
"Who I was? What are you ta-...." I was cut off by Jamie.

"Not now Alice, he needs to find out that for himself. Boys if you can help Jackie and the kids. I'll take care of him and with Alice here you know he's safe. I'm sorry I didn't tell you I was a good person or medium. It's just I didn't want this to happen. Boys never listen." She sounded so annoyed. "Alice, he's not going to sleep, I'm going to have to force him. I need you to go into his dreams, pull him out of the nightmare that Logan forced into his mind."

"I can do that." She just hold my hand tighter. "Be strong Jinxx, I'll be there as soon as I can get through Logan's block." I'm so confused and I feel a needle of the IV pulling a bit. Like when they go to give meds to you in a hospital without sticking you more then once. I started getting sleepy again.

"We are heading out, see if Jackie needs us. We trust you to help him Jamie...." Andy's voice was deadly.

"I will, just get going now." I heard them leave before I fell back into that nightmare of a dream.
I could feel my head bandage up. I was still strapped down to the bed. "So, we looked at the parts of the bodies, it turn out to be the guys that went missing with him. I can't believe one guy could kill four others. There is something really wrong here. We are going to have to figure out another way to get him to come to realize that he did this. He don't think he did, but we know he did. His prints are all over it." I heard moving around. This was a dream they said but it felt so real. Logan did this to me, so what the fuck happen when I was asleep.

"I didn't do anything. Stop saying that I did!" They all moved over to my side and they took their flash light, shining it in my eyes and sighing.

"You really believe that and even with a hole in your skull you can still think. We know it was you,I mean we can show you pictures or the bodies that we found. You were covered in blood, THEIR blood." I just shake my head and closed my eyes.

"No, this is a dream, when Alice gets here I know she can make this dream go away. This is not real...it's not! You're just something that Logan made up in my mind!"I yelled at them.

"You need to stop this kid, we are going to have to report this. It's best if we talk to your parents about this." No this isn't really. I was freaking out. Again they had me in the ER room again and sticking me with different needles. I feel them pulled the bandage off of my head. My pain was numb, I couldn't feel a thing but I know they were messing with my head. What really fucking scared me was the fact in seeing part of a bone that should be in my body on the table next to me. Fuck, they really did cut a hole in my head. I closed my eyes feeling pressure and it wasn't making me feel any better.

"Please just stop, I didn't do anything, just please please stop. I don't like this.." I was shaking in fear, I could feel the tears falling down and I was just wishing it all to be over.

"Don't worry, all will be done soon, we are going to make a few changes to you. You won't feel anything anymore." I seen them pick up some tools and I just shaking in more fear, what were they going to do.

"No, this isn't real...." I felt a sharp pain and felt everything in my body just got numb, it's like whatever they did to me I had no feeling at all anymore, I couldn't talk anymore, it's like I was lifeless. No this can't be happening to me. I couldn't do anything anymore.

"There, with that, he won't be able to defend himself, we know he killed them, it's all over the place that he killed them. Call the cops, we are going to see if we put him under, having someone so lifeless now, it's just best to kill him off for what he did to them other guys." No, Alice, come quick I don't like this dream anymore it feels real, like they are really going to kill me. Alice!

Soon the cops came in, I could hear them telling the doctors that it was me who killed my friends. After they left, I seen the doctors have this shot and they were filling it with something. I couldn't do anything but watch, whatever they did to me, I had no say. "This will only hurt a little....you're going to be put asleep, for a very long time..." They put the needle into the IV and I could feel the stuff working. No, this can't be the end of me. SOMEONE HELP ME!!!

"Jinxx!!!" Soon everything was gone, the room, the doctors and I was laying in Alice's lap, she was just holding my head, running her fingers through my hair. "It's okay, it's just a dream, you'll be fine, you didn't kill anyone, Logan made this in your mind. When the guys pulled you out of the water. He knocked them out, he then went over to you and was messing with your mind while you were out cold, with what was left of his powers, meaning he had to release the doors and Jamie was able to bring Jackie back and have her help. Though we could tell the damage was done. You're not dead, you're very much alive and so is the others. It's just a bad dream..." She hugged me closely and just laying sweet kisses on my cheek. Why was she doing this?
"Alice?" She looked down and hugged me tightly.

"Oh my god, I wasn't too late! I'm so weird that I lost you again!" I was really confused now.
"Again?" I wish I didn't answer in one word but it was the only thing I could get out right now.
"Don't mind that right now. Just rest, I will stay here, keep the nightmares away...." She smiled down at me.

I smiled back at her, too tired and freaking out yet over the nightmare I didn't feel like pushing her tp find out what she meant. I ended up relaxing after what felt like days in my dream. I never knew you could fall asleep in your dreams but somehow I did just that. She was right though, she stick with me. She didn't leave my side and the nightmare never came back. I couldn't wait to find out what she mean by again. It was still on my mind. Did we know each other 15 years old? I was only 13 at the time. I let my mind rest, I would try and figure this out when I woke up.
After what fell like a year, I woke up from my mini coma and looked around the room. I was in Jackie's office, laying on the sofa with an IV in my arm. I'm guessing it was helping me. I had blankets wrapped around me and I still felt really cold. I coughed a bit and that fast, Jamie had a cup of water to my mouth helping me sit up so I could drink it. After a while I was just laying there.

"You're going to be okay kid, I'm glad Alice was able to help you. Though you can't do much yet. You're still freezing, that water was -10 deagrees. It should have killed you guys. The others are still suffering from it a little but you are the idiot that went head under the water." She just sighed and walked away. I sit up slowly and looked at her.

"The key to the safe behind the lighthouse picture is on the desk, get me the file and key out of there and then give me the metal box." I was sitting up and Alice just looked at me.

"Are you sure you should be moving around?" She was just looking at me, I know she meant well but I couldn't just stay laying anymore.

"I know, but my body feels stiff enough, I need to move. I'll be fine. I feel better too that the nightmare stopped, that was some really scary shit, being blame for killing my friends and then the doctors going and trying to kill me." I just sighed and Jamie gave me the things. I took Alice file first. "See, I told you, you were release in 1996 just a week before Logan came into the asylum. You had really bad depression but thanks to 202 and a lot of the other people that Logan had killed. You were able to be release and live normal. But Logan got his hand on this and Jackie hope he didn't read it but he did and he wanted you because he knew you could contact mediums after your death. That's what he did to you, he knew you would find me and others, he knew you would get Jackie to come back after they closed it down. He wanted mediums so he could become a person again. I was the last one he needed, that's why he had you bugging me, you knew that and tried to scare me into talking the guys out of coming here. But you don't understand my brothers, they love things like this and they wanted to help me."

"So in that box, I'm guessing it 202's file. Jackie locked it away because she knew that Logan would have went after him like she did to me. I remember 202, he was one of my best friends and he was a great person. I know his name too, he use to hate his 202 name and would tell people his name. Jackie use to laugh and tell him no that the number names were for us to all be the same and not picked on." She smiles and I took the key and unlock the box. Right there in front of me. The file of the person that was the only one to get away. I open it and started reading, I couldn't wrap my mind around this and Alice looked at me.

"Are you okay? You don't look so good. Is there something bad in the file?" She went to look at it but I pulled it away from her.

"Nothing bad, it's just I can't believe this. 202 is....."

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A/N: Have to wait until chapter 14 to find out that cliffhanger. This chapter gave me a chill I mean my mind went really evil.

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