Legion Of The Black: Rebel Sisters
Freak Like Me
Rita’s POV:
Being alone really sucks, especially when your sister is not with you. Sherman, he’s a nice guy and I really like him, but he’s all the way in the front of the class and I’m just in the back. He knows about my past, but I never show him my cuts. I’m really self-conscious. Sherman wouldn’t judge anyone but my anxiety tips the scale, so I try to keep to myself. I just put my headphones in and blasted Freak Like Me by Blacklisted Me.
I was only 7 years old when I was abused by my father physically, verbally, sexually and emotionally. For some reason, he did those terrible things to Essence first; and after a year, he turned his sadistic attention towards me. He left us afterwards and I was happy that he did. But he’s still out there, and even if he was dead, I wouldn’t even care. Essence was the only person that was ever there for me. My mother kinda ignored me, I don’t know what reason. She didn’t really do anything when we were being abused, but she shouldn’t forget how many blows she received to the face, how many times she screamed ‘no’ when he raped her or how many she begged him to stop and leave her alone.
I don’t know what happened or what escalated me to be this person, but Essence used to do the same things that I’m doing. She tried to kill herself so many times and I was the only there for her. I begged her to stop. She became clean afterwards when she almost died from a suicide attempt. She tried to overdose on pills and her cuts were so deep, you would think that the pills didn’t really take effect yet, but it will soon, lots of blood coating the floor. I was so lucky that she survived because if she didn’t, I don’t think I would survive in this world, no matter how bad she wants me to.
I tried to stop myself from cutting last night because I was so close to being 6 months clean, but I can’t deal with my parents or the bullies; hell, I can’t even risk losing my sister. Essence is not just my sister, she’s also my best friend. I know that Essence is not the only one who loves and cares about me. There’s also Omar, Sherman, Nicole, Timika and Evelyn. There’s more people but I just can’t shake the feeling of emotional pain that bullies, my past and my parents bring me.
‘No, I won’t turn my back on a freak like me. No, I won’t turn my back anymore. I’m asking you to stay’
