I am a Good Girl

Hayden's POV

That same day, I made my way to Ashley's after my session.
I really thought about everything. The whole 'I can't commit', but I can. I've been committed to Ashley from the start. I didn't even realise that I was. I knew Ashley was different, but it wasn't till I really knew him that I started to fall for him. Of course, he treated me like a wingman, using me to get other girls. I don't know how someone can fall in love like that, but apparently I did.
Ashley is a complicated soul. Despite the sleeping around he is an amazing friend. He has always been generous, kind, smart and nonjudgmental.
I finally pulled up to Ashley's house and I was nervous. I've never been nervous about a guy other than CC.
I knocked rapidly on the door and waited.
There were footsteps, accompanied by clicking of little paws. The door clicked open and Ashley smiled at me.
He quickly pulled me and shut the door so the dogs wouldn't escape, but he held a finger to my lips.
"Before you say anything, I need to speak and I'm going to be a hundred percent honest for once in my life" he huffed a large breath. "Okay, first off, I know you saw CC today. He called me and told me what happened. He is really hurting, but I explained to him that I prompted all the things you did because I was jealous! I didn't know what was happening with me! I just hated knowing that another guy was touching you and I don't know... I didn't like it. When we got back from Warped and you told me what you did, I used it to break you and CC up. That's why I got so mad at you, so you knew that I didn't approve of it, instead of telling you not to tell him. Even though I shouldn't judge cause I've done it many times" He sighed, angry with himself. "But I have to apologise to you cause I knew you were going to tell CC, I know you're not as bad as me. But all this has made me realise how much I'm in love with you. Knowing that you weren't there when I woke up in the morning. It drove me crazy. Everyday you were with CC I missed you! At first I thought it would go away, but it never did! That's why I've been a huge flirt with you. Trying to get you back into my arms, trying anything to get you to think about me. And I wondered whether you missed me... Of course, it doesn't matter if you didn't, cau-"
"Shh" I cut him off, placing a finger on his lips. "I missed you" I whispered.
A grin broke across Ashley's face. He pulled my hand away and quickly leaned his face in, planting a kiss on my lips.
Again, I felt butterflies and fireworks and roses budding and roaring fires flood my body. Everything about us was right.
When Ashley finally pulled away, he actually looked at me; not at my boobs, my eyes.
"You know that I do love you and I do accept you. I don't care about all the stupid shit cause it's almost as bad as me so, I can't judge" he chuckled.
I just couldn't stop smiling.
"I have waited so long to hear you say these things to me. I guess jealousy really does have it's affects" I giggled.
"You know, I quite often tried to make you jealous, but you were so nonchalant about it" Ashley shrugged.
"What?! When did you try and make me jealous?!" I gasped in surprise.
"Anytime I bragged about how I got a girl, or what we did in bed. I hoped it would make you want me to stop, but you were a noble wingman" he leaned in for another kiss, holding us in place.
He stopped again, but kept his lips close.
"Question, did you really not sleep with anyone else?" His face was completely serious.
"No one else. I may have lied to you a few times about sleeping with the guys I dated, but for similar reasons, I wanted to make you jealous. In reality, they were a time filler. The moment you called I would blow them off somehow. Even if it was just for us to hang out and get drinks. I wanted to be with you" I whispered, looking down at his chest.
I finally looked up at him and he seemed content with my answer.
"I think we're just two people that are so similar that when something changed the both of us at the same time, we get scared and try so hard to go against it" I said, wrapping my hands around him tighter and pulling him in until his lips touched mine again.

Notes

I know, I have been M.I.A
I have been so so so busy and I literally just got back from Hawaii and just a whirlwind, but I have finally updated!
So, please share thoughts and comments. Might wrap this up soon. So enjoy!