I am a Good Girl

Hayden's POV

I lived the next five weeks in a world of guilt.
It was all I could think about. Being in CC's house only made it worse. I have had a lot of low points in my life, but this a whole new level.
But now, the Vans Warped Tour was over and the band was returning home. I was relieved cause maybe I could be pulled out of this funk.
I decided I would meet CC at the airport as a surprise. Hoping his smile would kiss my problems away.
I watched anxiously as people filed through the arrival gates, all in separate states of mind. Then, through the crowd, he stood out. He may have looked tired and worn out, but his eyes then landed on me and his face lit up like Christmas.
"Hayden! What are you doing here baby girl?!" He said excitedly, pulling me into his arms.
"I came to surprise you. I missed you so much!" I said into his neck.
"I missed you too. God you smell good. You smell like home" he chuckled, holding me tighter.
"Come on, let's go home" I said taking his hand. I had already forgotten everything.

"So, what have you been up to all Summer?" CC asked once we had finally gotten all his luggage inside.
"Umm, not much. Been working a lot" I shrugged.
"Go out partying or anything with Simone? I know you two get up to some mischief" he smirked.
If only he knew...
"Um, actually I haven't really seen Simone. We had a bit of a fight the week that you guys left. And with us on break from school, I haven't had the chance to talk to her" I said sadly.
"Oh no. What happened?" CC stopped and looked at me with worry.
"Oh, nothing really. It was something stupid" I lied.
"Well, I think you should reach out to her. Fights shouldn't go on this long."
"I have, but she hasn't responded. I'll try again before school starts" I shrugged, not wanting to have to lie anymore.
"Hmm" CC sighed. "Damn I missed you!" He said crashing on the couch next to me. "Get here" he said, pulling me onto his lap.
He curled a hand around my jaw, his thumb stroking my cheek.
"I'm so damn lucky to have you" he whispered, pulling my face close to his. Our lips were so close I could feel his breath against my skin.
I closed the gap and planted a kiss on his lips. Letting him be engulfed by me, but he pulled away after a few moments.
"I'm so fucking exhausted Babe. Lets get some sleep" he said tapping my butt.
"Okay" I reluctantly got off his lap and followed him to the bedroom.

As CC wrapped himself around me I couldn't help but think of how bad I've been. Between Ashley and Reece, I'm the worst girlfriend ever.
I don't know how I'm ever going to tell CC any of this. I care for him deeply and I could never hurt him. I hope I never do...

The following day, Ashley messaged me in need of a catch up. Obviously he missed me, but I was surprised to hear from him. Either way I met him for a coffee near my gym so we could work out together as well.
"Hey Ash!" I smiled upon his arrival.
"Hayds! Get here girl!" His arms extended for a hug. "I missed you! How have you been? What have I missed?" He asked excitedly.
"Umm, you've missed a bit..." I said, sitting down at a nearby table.
"Really? CC said you've been a hard little worker."
"Yeah... And I've been the biggest slut..." I said, full of shame.
"Why? What's going on?" His brow furrowed.
"Promise you won't tell anyone. Especially CC. Please, I never want him to know, I just have to tell someone" I pleaded.
"Of course Hayds. Whats wrong?" He continued, reaching for my wrist.
"I cheated on CC..." I said quietly, looking down at the table.
"Hayden... I know... It was with me..." He spoke, unsure of himself.
"No... I mean with someone else. A drunken one night stand that I'm going to regret for the rest of my life and I've been feeling like an absolute whore! I'm just not girlfriend material. I'm not... good" I struggled to find a better word.
"Hayden, you know you are one of my best friends, but so is CC. He really loves you..." His hand gently squeezed my wrist.
"I know! That's what makes this even harder! I didn't mean to hurt anyone, I just fucked up..."
"Look, for the sake of my friendships with both of you, I won't tell, but I think you should tell him. He is my friend and he deserves to know."
I looked at him in shock. "I can't. I can't do that to him."
"He has a right to know! If you were my girlfriend I wouldn't want you sneaking around behind my back" he scoffed.
"But it would be okay if you did it?"
Ashley rolled his eyes, "What's that suppose to mean?"
"You kissed me and pretended it meant nothing! You send me photos and texts, that you really shouldn't send to me, do you want me to tell CC about that?" I huffed "You're cheating on him as much as I am."
"At least I know who you really are. Not the good girl act you put on for CC" he snapped then got up and left me.

Notes

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