I'm a Loaded Gun

Every support beam and railing was covered in red decorations for our "Hollywood" themed dance. Seth quickly dragged me to a group of his "friends". The music was fast and the DJ had brought strobe lights. He instantly pushed me in front of him and latched onto my waist with his hands. He pressed himself into my back and started grinding on me. I was uncomfortable. I don't grind. My body doesn't move like this. I looked around to see some of his friends getting carried away with grinding. I looked over just in time to see his friend Travis's girlfriend turn around and she pressed her body into his and they began to make out next to us.

Seth pulled me around to face him. "Why won't you dance with me?"

"Seth it's uncomfortable...it's awkward doing that in front of people. It's rude and gross."

"Everyone's doing it. No one cares. Now come on babe."

He put his hands on my back and pulled me into him, crushing his lips into mine. I tried to pull back, but he was pushing me into him with such force that I couldn't retreat. I used to love kissing him. Seth was my first ever kiss, but it wasn't special. We were both 15 and it was in his mom's van while she was in the grocery store. My body had almost gone into a full panic when he placed his lips on mine. It was gentle and careful, the ways his lips lightly moved with mine. I would have kissed him all day if I could, but things changed. After a few months, Seth started to get into a group with some of the more popular guys. He became rougher with me, physically, and it seemed his gentleness was nowhere to be found.

I was trapped in Seth's chokehold kiss. I finally dropped my chin and felt his lips contact my forehead. He pulled back and looked at me confused. "I'm gonna go outside for a minute, it's really hot in here..." I said. I walked away from Seth and into the foyer. It was much cooler in there and they had small tables set up. I looked around for a moment and spotted Siren Campbell, one of my best friends. Her medium length blonde hair was curled and it beautifully fell in ringlets around her shoulders. I sat down next to here and sighed as I placed my head against her tan shoulder. "Siren, why does my life suck?"

"Because you didn't go get ice cream with me yesterday," she joked.

"I'm sorry, Seth and I went 4 wheeling."

"So what are you going to do after this? I heard that BVB is releasing the new CD tonight. I'm going home in twenty minutes so I can order mine the second it's available! The first fifty orders get a free t shirt too," she said.

"My god, I wish I could. Seth wants to go to Travis's house after because there's gonna be a huge after party."

"Rey, you hate parties. You don't drink."

"I know, Si."

"Why don't you crash with me tonight? We haven't had a girls night in months. I'll even order your CD and you can just pay me back next week when you get your allowance."

"OK."

Seth came walking around the corner, "Babe, you've been gone for awhile."

Siren glared at Seth. "We just got to talking."

I looked up at Seth who was standing over me. "Hey, I'm gonna go to Siren's tonight, I'm too tired to party."

"I already told Travis you were coming," he grimaced.

"It will be OK. I'll go to the next party."

"Whatever," he stomped away.

Siren must have sensed my level of stress mounting. She grabbed my arm and pulled me from the table. I followed her to her car. I drank in the fresh air like it was my dying breath. I was ready to put some miles between myself and this hell hole.

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