Andley: I Love You More Than I Can Ever Scream
Chapter Two: Lay Your Heart Down
I woke up to the sound of a loud thump, and sat up quickly, banging my head on the bunk above. "Ow." I mumbled, rubbing where it hurt, and quickly climbed out of bed and headed into the main living area. "What's happened?" I asked, and Jake and Jinxx turned to look up at me, shrugging. There was a cry from the bathroom and the door was thrown open, to reveal Ashley stood there wearing only a towel. I couldn't help but admire the way he looked. Only the necessities covered, water droplets over his strong, toned chest, his sexy outlaw tattoo on show and his brown eyes glistening.
"Damn bus!" He exclaimed and stormed into the bunk room, only to return a few minutes later fully dressed in a Motley Crue top, black skinnies and a pair of cowboy boots. He mumbled to himself as he sat on the sofa by Jinxx.
"What's up?" I asked, walking over and sitting on the arm beside him.
"Bloody bus, taking a sharp turn and causing me to fall over in the shower. Everything's so much more difficult..." Before I had a chance to respond, CC burst into the room, completely naked. Cries of "Oh God, CC!" and "cover it up!" erupted around the room and he laughed before leaving to get some clothes on. I wonder what Ashley looks like naked. There was nothing I could do to stop myself thinking it, and the heat rushed to my cheeks causing me to blush bright red. I laughed with the others, trying to hide my discomfort. Lately, I hadn't been able to stop thinking about Ashley. Ever since me and Jules had broken up, I had just noticed more between us. Suddenly, every touch, every smile, every conversation meant so much more to me than it had before.
I wasn't in love with Ashley, not at all. I mean, I'm straight, right? And he's like a brother to me, nothing else. He was my best friend and I his. We'd been through so much together, I guess since things with me and Juliet ended, I'd felt more empty, more open, and being with him stopped that. That wasn't love, was it? No, of course not!
"Hey, I just thought," Jake spoke up, and we all turned to look at him "who want's to go out for pizza?!" CC burst into the room (fully clothed this time...thank God!) with a cheesy grin on his face.
"Pizza! Who said Pizza?"
"I did, who want's to get pizza?" Jake looked around excitedly. Jinxx smiled and CC nodded his head vigorously.
"Isn't it a bit early for pizza?" Ashley queried.
"It's never too early for pizza!!"
"Well, you guys go, I'm not really hungry." I mumbled. I hadn't eaten for a while, but I was too lost in my thoughts for any type of appetite.
"I'll stay with Andy." Ashley announced, and I felt my face light up. Why? Why was I so happy to be alone with Ashley? The guys nodded and left, and I moved onto the sofa next to Ashley.
~Time Laps: 30 minutes~
"They've been gone ages!" Ashley exclaimed, and I just nodded. I was too engrossed in Batman to really care. "You alright man?"
"Huh?" I looked up, hearing Ashley talk to me.
"You've been acting...distant...all day. What's up?" His honey brown eyes glistened with worry, as he looked at me, concern spread across his face. I knew I could tell him anything, I just didn't know what to tell him. That I'd been thinking about him, convincing myself that I wasn't in love with him. Yeah, that'd go down well. Maybe I could tell him, without making it clear it was him?
"It's just...well. There's this person who, I've kind of...I don't know. I've known them for years, but lately, something feels...different. I don't know what, but I've just been, I don't know, I don't think I love them, I can't...it just, wouldn't make sense?" He reached out and rubbed his hand on my shoulder. I c0uld feel the electricity when we touched. It doesn't mean anything!! My head shouted at me, but my heart had decided differently.
"Andy, since when have you cared about things being different...not making sense?! If you have feelings for this person, go for it! Tell them how you feel. I'm sure she'll like you back, heck, who wouldn't?" He looked kind of hurt, like the words were forced, almost. But one word bothered me, she'll like you back.
"Ashley," I began, was I really going to tell him this? What if I was wrong, I was just confused? But it was too late "it's not a she..." He looked up at me, startled.
"Oh." Was all he could say. "Well, I stand by what I said. Go for it, I'm sure he'll like you back." He gave me a weak smile.
"Thanks." I smiled back.
"But, um, do you mind me asking...who is it?" He seemed nervous. I was nervous. A part of me wanted to tell him, to scream it from the rooftops, just to get it out there. But another part knew I shouldn't; it would ruin our friendship, the band, both our reputations. Yet before I even knew what I was doing, I was leaning in towards him. He froze, not moving closer, but not moving away. Then, suddenly, I crashed my lips into his....
Title: Lyrics from Black Veil Brides - Knives And Pens
"Damn bus!" He exclaimed and stormed into the bunk room, only to return a few minutes later fully dressed in a Motley Crue top, black skinnies and a pair of cowboy boots. He mumbled to himself as he sat on the sofa by Jinxx.
"What's up?" I asked, walking over and sitting on the arm beside him.
"Bloody bus, taking a sharp turn and causing me to fall over in the shower. Everything's so much more difficult..." Before I had a chance to respond, CC burst into the room, completely naked. Cries of "Oh God, CC!" and "cover it up!" erupted around the room and he laughed before leaving to get some clothes on. I wonder what Ashley looks like naked. There was nothing I could do to stop myself thinking it, and the heat rushed to my cheeks causing me to blush bright red. I laughed with the others, trying to hide my discomfort. Lately, I hadn't been able to stop thinking about Ashley. Ever since me and Jules had broken up, I had just noticed more between us. Suddenly, every touch, every smile, every conversation meant so much more to me than it had before.
I wasn't in love with Ashley, not at all. I mean, I'm straight, right? And he's like a brother to me, nothing else. He was my best friend and I his. We'd been through so much together, I guess since things with me and Juliet ended, I'd felt more empty, more open, and being with him stopped that. That wasn't love, was it? No, of course not!
"Hey, I just thought," Jake spoke up, and we all turned to look at him "who want's to go out for pizza?!" CC burst into the room (fully clothed this time...thank God!) with a cheesy grin on his face.
"Pizza! Who said Pizza?"
"I did, who want's to get pizza?" Jake looked around excitedly. Jinxx smiled and CC nodded his head vigorously.
"Isn't it a bit early for pizza?" Ashley queried.
"It's never too early for pizza!!"
"Well, you guys go, I'm not really hungry." I mumbled. I hadn't eaten for a while, but I was too lost in my thoughts for any type of appetite.
"I'll stay with Andy." Ashley announced, and I felt my face light up. Why? Why was I so happy to be alone with Ashley? The guys nodded and left, and I moved onto the sofa next to Ashley.
~Time Laps: 30 minutes~
"They've been gone ages!" Ashley exclaimed, and I just nodded. I was too engrossed in Batman to really care. "You alright man?"
"Huh?" I looked up, hearing Ashley talk to me.
"You've been acting...distant...all day. What's up?" His honey brown eyes glistened with worry, as he looked at me, concern spread across his face. I knew I could tell him anything, I just didn't know what to tell him. That I'd been thinking about him, convincing myself that I wasn't in love with him. Yeah, that'd go down well. Maybe I could tell him, without making it clear it was him?
"It's just...well. There's this person who, I've kind of...I don't know. I've known them for years, but lately, something feels...different. I don't know what, but I've just been, I don't know, I don't think I love them, I can't...it just, wouldn't make sense?" He reached out and rubbed his hand on my shoulder. I c0uld feel the electricity when we touched. It doesn't mean anything!! My head shouted at me, but my heart had decided differently.
"Andy, since when have you cared about things being different...not making sense?! If you have feelings for this person, go for it! Tell them how you feel. I'm sure she'll like you back, heck, who wouldn't?" He looked kind of hurt, like the words were forced, almost. But one word bothered me, she'll like you back.
"Ashley," I began, was I really going to tell him this? What if I was wrong, I was just confused? But it was too late "it's not a she..." He looked up at me, startled.
"Oh." Was all he could say. "Well, I stand by what I said. Go for it, I'm sure he'll like you back." He gave me a weak smile.
"Thanks." I smiled back.
"But, um, do you mind me asking...who is it?" He seemed nervous. I was nervous. A part of me wanted to tell him, to scream it from the rooftops, just to get it out there. But another part knew I shouldn't; it would ruin our friendship, the band, both our reputations. Yet before I even knew what I was doing, I was leaning in towards him. He froze, not moving closer, but not moving away. Then, suddenly, I crashed my lips into his....
Title: Lyrics from Black Veil Brides - Knives And Pens
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