Worlds Collide

800,000 people kill themselves each year Crazy right? You know what else is crazier? I want to be number 800,001
Hi my name is Jordyn Jay Ferguson, my eldest brother is Jeremy ‘Jinxx’ Miles Ferguson the rhythmic guitarist for Black Veil Brides, he’s kind of a big deal, and I’m kinda not. Let’s get this story straight:
- Jinxx is my biological brother
- My mum and dad are dead (they had Jinxx and I when they were in their 50s)
- I don’t know, and I don’t want to know black veil brides, accept for Jake he’s my best friend
- Jinxx and I live together in LA and Jake lives a couple blocks away
-I lived in Australia for a couple years and picked up an accent (bloody Australians)
- I love my brother to the moon and back (even though he is way too over protective of me)
- I enjoy singing but I’m too nervous to share my voice with anyone
- I like to stay out of the limelight (that’s why I stay away from BVB)
-I don’t play any instruments, I want to but I’m too lazy to learn
- My dream is to be a band manager
-I’m really self-conscious about my body because I have small breasts and I think I look fat
- I feel depressed when I’m alone
- Jinxx knows about my anxiety but he doesn’t know that I have depression and that I’m suicidal
-I am really shy
- Im not really like your typical BVB fan
- I don’t have 10000 piercings
- I Have 3 tattoos
- I don’t wear chains and tails as my accessories of choice Yes I know how stereotypical that sounds, don’t judge me… but I’ll probably judge you
- My nickname for Jinxx is Jay
- This is what I’m wearing

“Jake pleeease, let me go with you.” I stepped in front of him and put my hands on his shoulders “No” he replied bluntly “Awwwww why not?” I want to go out to a bar with Jake and he won’t let me go with him “Cause Jinxx won’t want you to.” He said looking down at me “Who cares about him, he won’t be home for like three hours.”
“He’s not home and you’re my responsibility, last time I took you out he got angry at me.” He tried to walk away but I pushed him back and kept him in place “I’m 27 for god’s sake I’m no one’s responsibility.”
“Well I’m older than you so I’m in charge.”
“Pussy”
"I am not”
“Yes you are.”
“Fine.” He said quietly
“Fine what?” I said dropping my arms and batting my eyelashes “You can come with me, but only for like an hour.” “thankyouthankyouthankyou.” I kissed him on the cheek and ran off to get ready “It’s nowhere special so don’t dress up!” he yelled out to me as I run upstairs to my room “Okay!"
“If he catches us I’m throwing you under the bus.” I ran into my room and put on a jacket and grabbed some heels, I walked into jay and I’s bathroom and put more makeup on then ran down into the living room and sat next to Jake on the lounge to put my shoes on. “I like your shoes” Jake said absent mindedly while texting someone. “Thanks.” I said standing up and grabbing some earrings and my phone off the coffee table, I put the earrings in and shoved my phone in my back pocket, “Ready?” I asked Jake
"Yep,” he said standing up
“Where are your keys, I’ll drive.”
“They’re on the kitchen bench.”
“okayyy, let’s go.” Jake and I sung on in the car on the way, I lowkey sang really badly on purpose so that he can’t make any comments about my singing. We walked into the pub and sat at the bar, Jake ordered us both beers and started talking to me about the new BVB album but I wasn’t really listening. “Hey guys, over here.” Jake sang out snapping me out of my haze, I looked over and saw the BVB guys across the room walking through the door, “Jake,” I whispered quickly “you didn’t tell me they were coming.”
“Well I did tell you but you weren’t listening.”
“I can’t do this I have to go.” I said as the boys came closer and closer to where we were sitting “It’s okay, they don’t bite JJ.” The boys were really close now and I was freaking out, I could feel a lump growing in my throat I stood up and turned around to leave but the boys were right behind me, “Hey” one of them said, I ignored them and quickly walked out of the bar and caught a taxi home.

“JJ I’m home!” Jinxx called through the house as he walked in the door, I had already put my PJ’s on and taken off all my makeup, “Hey” I called out to him, he walked into the lounge room where I was sitting on the couch on my phone. “Where’s Jake?” he asked
“He’s out.”
“Where?”
“He’s at the pub with the boys.” I said still scrolling through my Instagram feed “So I’m guessing that’s why you aren’t there.” “Yeah.” I said looking over to him, he knows that I don’t want to involve myself with the media and shit I wanna stay on the down low, “Okay, well do you mind if I join them?”
“Go for it.” I said looking down at my phone again “Are you sure you don’t mind?”
“Yeah, I don’t care.”
“Okay well there is dinner in the fridge and don’t wait up.” “Okay.” I said switching off my phone and putting it on the couch beside me, Jay came over to me and bent over to kiss me on the cheek, “I’ll see you in the morning.” I said as he walked away, I grabbed leftover pizza out of the fridge, turned and on the TV to a random channel so it felt like there were other people home, I was having a pretty shitty day today, I should've just stayed and talked to the guys god damn it.

Notes

First chapter, let me know if you like it and I'll write more