You Are My Shattered God

"No!"

Andy rushed over to me and managed to grab my hand as I fell. He began attempting to pull me up, but I put my other hand on his.

"Please, let me do this," I said softly.

"No way! I won't standby and watch a young girl die!"

Deciding I didn't want to upset him anymore, I grabbed onto him arm and put my feet on the railing to help him lift me up. He pulled me over the railing and pulled me into a tight hug. I sat there and looked down quietly, not saying a word.

"Why would you do this?"

"Because, I want my suffering to end. I don't want to deal with it all anymore."

I felt something wet drop onto my head. I looked up and saw Andy crying, looking at me. My stone cold heart began to crack at the sight of his tear stained face.

"Suicide... Suicide does not end the chances of life getting worse, suicide eliminates the possibility of it ever getting better," he choked out.

I looked into his eyes as mine widened. I never thought of it that way. I always thought suicide would save me from this cold, dark hell. I hugged him back slightly and cried quietly.

"I guess you're right," I mumbled.

Rain had started to pour down on us. It definitely matched the mood. Andy took off his jacket and slung in over my head, leading me to his car in the process. We drove in silence for about ten minutes before he finally broke it.

"So, umm, what's your name?"

"Morrigan Axel."

"It's a very nice name."

"Thank you," I replied, playing with my necklace.

He finally turned on the radio, playing some random station. Neither of us talked for the rest of the ride. We just sat there, letting the music swallow our awkward silence. We arrived at a huge building within a few minutes. He got out and opened my door like a gentleman. I mumbled a thank you and followed him inside the building.

"Where are we?" I asked quietly.

"At the Black Veil Brides house. Everyone else is asleep, so, I'll just show you to your room."

I stopped in my tracks and looked down. Andy stopped walking and turned around to face me. He slowly approached me, gently placing his hands on my shoulders.

"Morrigan?"

I let a few tears fall as I stood there.

"Andy, I don't deserve this sort of kindness. Hell, I just put you through a tough spot not even an hour ago and yet, you're being so kind to me..."

"That's why you deserve kindness. You've been put through so much, so, all you need is someone to be there, to show you that there is some kindness in this world. To show you that everything will be alright."

I hugged him tightly and did something I haven't done in so long; broke down and sobbed. I've cried here and there, but haven't had a full blown breakdown in so long. Andy picked me up bridal style and let me cry as he carried me. When I finally pulled my face away from his chest, I noticed we were in a dark room, sitting on a bed. Andy rubbed my back as my sobs subsided. Once I finally calmed down, Andy forced me to lie down on the bed.

"A-Andy?"

"We'll talk more in the morning. Sleep. Everything will be okay and I won't leave your side."
I looked into his calming, blue eyes. The look he gave reassured me and I slowly closed my eyes.

"Goodnight, Morrigan."

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