If I've ever met you
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It felt like nothing. No sparks, no vision, no image. Just blank. Only after that I realised that my vision got dizzy fot good and I could not see a thing in front of my eyes. I pushed Alexander away, trying to recharge my batteries. But it only got worse. I heard him yelling in my ears, blaming me for not being patient enough, for being reckless, for playing with fire. I felt my heart ache, beating faster and faster as the voice got louder. That deep voice I recalled from somewhere, so familiar... A tall figure crossed my mind and than everything got back to normal. I rised my chin to see an worried Alexander trying to handle the situation. I got fueled with anger that wasn't mine.
''What were you thinking? Are you nuts?,,
,,I know you like it, don't you even try to lie to me. You kissed me back!!,,
,,Fuck off, Alexander. It is clear that you cannot take no for an answear. Just go away. I don't want to see you now.,,
I got away from him, knowing that I might regret it later. But I didnt care. I was too worried about what just happened inside my head. I was getting mad as hell, hearing voices and everything. I guess that was an achievement unlocked, a whole new level of craziness.
,,Don't you like the pretty boy?,,
I turned to see a tall guy with long black hair smirking at me. I got pissed instantly.
,,Not your business, dude.,,
,,i am aware of that, but be sure that I would love to make it my business. You are no pretty girl, tho, so it might get interesting.,,
,,Thanks, man, you help,,
,,You know what I meant. I am not a pretty boy myself. Sometimes I think that my persona came from a sick wonderer's mind. ,,
Those word stroke me as weird, awakening some suspicions and rising some question marks. But at the moment, all I wanted was to go the fuck out of that crowdy sweathy place.
,,Yeah, whatever you say.,,
,,Well, where do you think you are going? It is not like you live in this city. I bet you don't even know where you are.''
''You know what?,, I said while facing him angrily. ,,You are fucking right. I don't know where the hell's pit I am. But I would love to find out. Would you be nice enough and tell me?''
,,Hell's pit? Well, that is new. And no, I am not nice enough. I'll let you figure it out by yourself.,,
,,Yeah, as I thought, you have been very useful.,,
,,I was not trying to be useful. I am no prince Charming, Cinderella.,,
He leaned closer to me, our facem just inches away and looked me straight in the eye, allowing me to discover his striking blue eyes. He smiled jokingly and dragged me to the dance floor. Without thinking about it, I just went with the flow and danced the night away. I had nothing better to do anyway. Everything just went blank. Little did I know that Alexander was watching form the corner, ready to burst into the girly cries I always hated. Jesus, why was I even friends with him? So not my type of human. While wondering about all of these, I was admiring the man in front of me, moving along my body with smoothness. Such a natural dancer. Once in a while he was throwing encouragins smiles at me, probably reassuring himself that I was still enjoying his company. And I really was. And again, I knew so little back then...
***
I was desperate for a break that didn't seem to come. He was just RESTLESS! In the end, I drageed my feet outside and light a cigarett. I felt that all my muscles relaxed when the smoke filled my lungs with the toxic smoke. But I wasn't left alone for a long time. Alexander came and sat next to me, watching me getting tense again.
,,I am gald you have fun.,,
,,Stop this. How many times do you have to get hurt by me to understand that we or su or however you wanna call it will not happen. how many times do I have to tell you to man up and find something fit for you! You don't even like it in here. you have these kind of people and you probably hate me too but you don t realise it yet. Get over it.,,
Just about i finished me ,,lecture,,. HE came outside. damn, was he tall. He looked around and stopped when spotted me.
,,You left without saying anything! What kind of Cinderella are you?,,
,,Well, it is almost midnight after all. I have to run away or I am gonna shift in an old woman.,,
,,Ok, I won t even ask about that. Do you really have to go?,,
,,Yes. I do.,,
,,Oh, man, such bad news. I was actually having fun.,,
I nodded and smiled unconciously. He was such in inocent jerk. Meanwhile, he took my heart and drew a pumpking on my palm.
,,And here is you carriage. For now, farewell.,,
He turned his back and disappeard into the crowed exactly when the clock stroke midnight. I felt sorry for myself. I really had fun and I would have loved to stick around a little bit more. But it was not the case, it was for another time. Man, I didn't even get his name. I am so laaame.
***
The ride home was mostly awkward. I didn t say anything and in the end, me and Alexander stayed in silence. I was thankful for that. My mind was always slipping to the guy i just met and somehow entered my mind. It wasn't him as a person. It was more the fact that I felt like I already knew him from long ago. Something so familiar and hunting. Finally, I shrugged my shoulders and let that go. I was planning to move soon enough, a random boy was not a priority.
''What were you thinking? Are you nuts?,,
,,I know you like it, don't you even try to lie to me. You kissed me back!!,,
,,Fuck off, Alexander. It is clear that you cannot take no for an answear. Just go away. I don't want to see you now.,,
I got away from him, knowing that I might regret it later. But I didnt care. I was too worried about what just happened inside my head. I was getting mad as hell, hearing voices and everything. I guess that was an achievement unlocked, a whole new level of craziness.
,,Don't you like the pretty boy?,,
I turned to see a tall guy with long black hair smirking at me. I got pissed instantly.
,,Not your business, dude.,,
,,i am aware of that, but be sure that I would love to make it my business. You are no pretty girl, tho, so it might get interesting.,,
,,Thanks, man, you help,,
,,You know what I meant. I am not a pretty boy myself. Sometimes I think that my persona came from a sick wonderer's mind. ,,
Those word stroke me as weird, awakening some suspicions and rising some question marks. But at the moment, all I wanted was to go the fuck out of that crowdy sweathy place.
,,Yeah, whatever you say.,,
,,Well, where do you think you are going? It is not like you live in this city. I bet you don't even know where you are.''
''You know what?,, I said while facing him angrily. ,,You are fucking right. I don't know where the hell's pit I am. But I would love to find out. Would you be nice enough and tell me?''
,,Hell's pit? Well, that is new. And no, I am not nice enough. I'll let you figure it out by yourself.,,
,,Yeah, as I thought, you have been very useful.,,
,,I was not trying to be useful. I am no prince Charming, Cinderella.,,
He leaned closer to me, our facem just inches away and looked me straight in the eye, allowing me to discover his striking blue eyes. He smiled jokingly and dragged me to the dance floor. Without thinking about it, I just went with the flow and danced the night away. I had nothing better to do anyway. Everything just went blank. Little did I know that Alexander was watching form the corner, ready to burst into the girly cries I always hated. Jesus, why was I even friends with him? So not my type of human. While wondering about all of these, I was admiring the man in front of me, moving along my body with smoothness. Such a natural dancer. Once in a while he was throwing encouragins smiles at me, probably reassuring himself that I was still enjoying his company. And I really was. And again, I knew so little back then...
***
I was desperate for a break that didn't seem to come. He was just RESTLESS! In the end, I drageed my feet outside and light a cigarett. I felt that all my muscles relaxed when the smoke filled my lungs with the toxic smoke. But I wasn't left alone for a long time. Alexander came and sat next to me, watching me getting tense again.
,,I am gald you have fun.,,
,,Stop this. How many times do you have to get hurt by me to understand that we or su or however you wanna call it will not happen. how many times do I have to tell you to man up and find something fit for you! You don't even like it in here. you have these kind of people and you probably hate me too but you don t realise it yet. Get over it.,,
Just about i finished me ,,lecture,,. HE came outside. damn, was he tall. He looked around and stopped when spotted me.
,,You left without saying anything! What kind of Cinderella are you?,,
,,Well, it is almost midnight after all. I have to run away or I am gonna shift in an old woman.,,
,,Ok, I won t even ask about that. Do you really have to go?,,
,,Yes. I do.,,
,,Oh, man, such bad news. I was actually having fun.,,
I nodded and smiled unconciously. He was such in inocent jerk. Meanwhile, he took my heart and drew a pumpking on my palm.
,,And here is you carriage. For now, farewell.,,
He turned his back and disappeard into the crowed exactly when the clock stroke midnight. I felt sorry for myself. I really had fun and I would have loved to stick around a little bit more. But it was not the case, it was for another time. Man, I didn't even get his name. I am so laaame.
***
The ride home was mostly awkward. I didn t say anything and in the end, me and Alexander stayed in silence. I was thankful for that. My mind was always slipping to the guy i just met and somehow entered my mind. It wasn't him as a person. It was more the fact that I felt like I already knew him from long ago. Something so familiar and hunting. Finally, I shrugged my shoulders and let that go. I was planning to move soon enough, a random boy was not a priority.
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8/3/16