Vanities And Sins

We sat around the couch discussing what should happen and what shouldn’t. They all agreed not to let us out of their sight for now. Well I don’t want to be unprotected right now so I can’t say no. I sat with my legs brought up to my chest and I wrapped my arms around them. I feel so insecure when I am with so many people. Candi was sitting next to me with her legs crossed and her hands in her lap. She looked so empty and I felt so bad for her. What if I wasn’t saved? That’s an awful thing to think about. Dad would of woke up searched for me then found out and beat Candi even more. We have a really messed up family. I hate the fact my mom just up and left us because she didn’t want to be here anymore. I bet that is a reason our dad beat us all the time.
“Alex are you listening?” Andy looked at me concerned and I looked up at him and he sighed. I feel bad all the time it’s not like I can even do anything right. Not even ending my own life.
“No I am sorry I can just go and stay in my room.” I got up and they all looked at me and nodded slowly. I made my way up to the room and I opened my door and stayed there. I laid on my bed silently and I waited patiently for these thoughts to subside. When they didn’t I made my way back down the stairs. My sister was completely spacing out. I walked over to her and I sighed.
“Look I know it is hard.” I started to say and she looked at me angrily.
“You don’t know how it feels to be depressed!” She screamed at me and shook her head and closed her eyes and started crying. I didn’t even know what I had done till I heard the echo of the slap I laid across her face. I started crying and I wanted to scream. I ran into my room and curled myself into a tight ball and cried hard. There was a soft knock on my door and I cried even harder. I didn’t lock it so it didn’t matter if I wanted them in or not. The person walked over to my bed and grabbed my shoulder softly and sighed.
“Listen she doesn’t know probably and you just acted way to fast maybe she should apologize to you and you should to her.” C-C spoke calmly. I shouldn’t have slapped her sure but she shouldn’t have said that! Those were horrible and mean to say. Maybe we all are we just don’t let it happen rarely. I never said anything mean to them yet they are always mean to me. I cried harder and C-C sighed softly and I looked at him.
“Look me in the eye and tell me she didn’t hurt your feelings.” He looked at me and I looked at him. I can’t do it. She seriously hurt me right in the place I put her in my heart. I don’t want to feel this way. He smiled and hugged me for a short time. I love that I don’t have to worry about ever going home again. I have a place here and I love it.
“How about just you and me go shopping? You need some more clothes than that.” He stated and I swallowed and nodded. I got up and we both left without saying a word. We got inside the car and we went to the mall. He put on some sunglasses and walked in with me. We went to all my favorite stores and then when we were about to leave I saw my sister Shaylee.
“We have to go my sister will definitely tell.” He nodded and we ran to the car and got in and sat there for a few. I looked at him carefully. He doesn’t look supernatural and he is though and I have to remember that.

Notes

Hey guys last update for the day keep reading!