I stood in front of the bedroom mirror, looking myself over one last time, before we left for dinner. I checked my makeup, my bracelets, my shoes, clothes, everything. I squeezed my stomach, and felt the fat under my fingers. I pinched myself until tears ran down my cheeks. I looked myself in the eyes. "You're so fat." I whispered as I pinched myself harder. I heard a knock on the door, and I instantly dried my face, and pulled my shirt back down. I opened the door to find a very perfect Andy. "Hello my darling. I came to retrieve you for our dinner tonight." He smiled, and handed me a bouquet of a dozen red roses, with a white one in the center. I smiled, and took the roses, smelling them. They're my favorite flower. He took my hand, and we walked out to our car. He opened my door for me, and I smiled, stepping in. He shut the door and walked around to the driver's side and climbed in. He took my hand when he climbed in, and then we pulled out and drove to the restaurant.

We pulled into the parking lot to find Jinxx, Jake, and CC already there. We pulled up, parked, and got out. Andy opened my door for me, and put his arm around me. Sammi ran up to me and wrapped me in a hug. "Hi beautiful!" I greeted her warmly and I could tell she was smiling. We held each other tight, her being my best friend. We finally let go, and we were both smiling like crazy. She rubbed my arms, "Oh babygirl I'm so happy for you. I knew this was going to happen and it's wonderful because you make each other so happy." I nodded, and I felt a tap on my back. I turned around to see a smiling Jinxx, who pulled me into his arms. He held me and rocked me back and forth. He smiled and let go. CC came over and high-fived me. "Fuck yeahhhhhhh!!!" I laughed and he gave me a side-hug. Jake fist bumped Andy, and then we all started talking about wedding plans. A sleek black corvette pulled up, and Ashley got out. He ran over to us, and hugged both of us. We talked for a few more minutes inside, finishing off some cigarettes, and then we walked inside. We were seated at a huge booth, large enough for all seven of us. We ordered drinks, and then we had to decide on food. You're fat. You don't need to eat. Don't you dare eat. Don't do it fatty. I picked a salad, without dressing. When it finally came, I just picked at it, and made it look like I ate something. Luckily, no one seemed to notice. I excused myself to go to the restroom. I walked in, and there was one other girl in there. I walked over to the sink, to use the mirror. She had a tattoo on her arm, that said "Andy". Is that Juliet Simms? Oh no she's gonna hate me. "Hi". She said. "I see you're here with Andy, and the guys and Sammi." Oh no... "Uh..yeah I am." I smiled and fixed my makeup. She turned to face me. She pinned me against the wall. "Listen up, fatty. Andy is mine. Always has been. Always will be. So if you know what's good for you, then you'll step off. You know he doesn't really love you. He's just using you because you're a fan who's hopelessly in love with him, so he's got you where he wants you. No one could ever love such a fat, ugly pig like you. Do yourself a favor, and, just kill yourself. Because Andy would love to have you out of his hair." She smirked at me, spit in my face, and then walked away. I felt tears roll down my cheeks. I wiped them, and Juliet's spit off my face. I put my hands on the sink, locked my elbows, and dropped my head. I knew it. I knew he couldn't possibly love me...who could? She's so beautiful and talented and I'm nothing. I'm fat, ugly, and stupid. I heard the door open behind me, and I instantly jumped up. "Hey Emma are you okay? You've been gone for a--" She stopped talking when she saw me crying. "Oh baby...what's wrong love?" I told her I had a bad headache. She rubbed my back, "Alright hun..well..don't worry. I'm sure you'll fell better soon." I nodded, and we walked out. Andy had a concerned look on his face, when we came back. He put his arm around my waist, and he kissed my cheek. "You okay?" He whispered in my ear. I nodded, and sipped at my water.

I played the part of the happy fiancee of Andy for the rest of the night. The whole time I kept hearing Juliet's voice in my head. Fat. Ugly. He doesn't want you. Just using you for sex. You're nothing to him. But I kept my smile plastered on my face.
We said our goodbyes, and headed back home. Andy showered, and then I did. We watched a movie together. It was nice to spend time with him. Except for the fact he doesn't actually love me. After the movie, we brushed our teeth, and laid in our bed. He fell asleep before I did, so I started thinking more about what Juliet said. But this time, I didn't stop the tears. I kissed his cheek, and walked over to where my phone was charging. I took off my case, and got out a blade. I pressed it to my lips. "I missed this." I whispered, and then I walked into the bathroom, shut the door. I jerked my bracelets off, and tossed them in the floor. Sobs started to shake my whole body. I pressed the blade against my wrist, and dragged a neat line across my arm. I forgot how wonderful this feels. I didn't stop. And once I couldn't put anymore on my left arm, I moved to my right. I kept going, until I couldn't see straight, and then everything went black.

Notes

Sorry I know it's short and not all that great, but let me know what you guys think!