Lost It All

On the bus to Baltimore the guys sat around playing poker to waste some time. Jon had forgiven both Andy and Katerina after she promised she’d keep a much better eye on Andy the next time they go out so he wouldn’t get lost. Everyone had a laugh about it and soon it was forgotten.

Now that the guys were involved in the so called intense poker game, Ashley looked over at Andy over his cards. “So…did you tell her yet?” He tossed a few poker chips into the pot.

Gripping his cards tight in his hands, Andy glared over at his bassist. “Will you keep your voice down? Katerina is back in the bunks.” He spoke in a hushed tone.

“I don’t care.” Ashley shrugged. “From that answer I take it you haven’t told her yet.”

“Andy, dude, you have to tell her.” CC threw some chips into the pot as he leaned back in his seat.

“I’m going to break up with Tori when I get back to LA anyway. So why do I have to hurt Katerina in the process?” Andy asked. “Besides, she agreed and I agreed to make this official.” He threw his poker chips into the pot as well.

CC looked over at Ashley and then they both looked over at Andy. “You’re fucking kidding me?” Ashley raised his voice.

“Keep your goddamn voice down!” Andy growled. “What is your problem now? I thought you liked Katerina and I?” He asked his friend.

“I do! But I don’t want to see her hurt. Can’t you see she’s crazy about you?” Ashley pushed Andy’s head lightly. “If she finds out about Tori from someone other than you, things are going to fall apart.”

Andy hated to admit that they were all right. He felt as if his life was spinning out of control and he had no way to stop it. He wanted to tell Katerina so many times about the girl he left in LA. He hadn’t even called Tori on this tour. They sent emails but from the sound of hers, she was too busy with her Beverly Hills friends. Andy never fit in with those people. They always looked down at him and he hated hanging out with them. “Yeah, ok…as much as I hate it. You guys are right.”

“Finally!” Jake threw up his hands in relief. “Andy we just don’t want to see Kat hurt.”

“I know and it means a lot to me that you guys care so much about her.” Andy sighed. “It’s just she means so much to me and I’m so afraid of fucking up.” He ran his fingers through his hair.

“You keep hiding things from her and you’ll fuck up for sure.” Jinxx told him. “I found out the hard way.” He put his cards down. “I fold.”

“What’s going to happen when the tour is over? I mean we’ve already started to write for our new record. Is she going to go home with you?” CC asked.

All the questions made Andy crave a cigarette badly. “I have no idea. I know that we have about a month left of touring and then we’ll figure it out. I’m hoping she’ll come to my parents with me for the holidays.”

“I’m sure your parents would love to see her after all these years.” CC grinned. “Especially when you tell them she’s your girlfriend now.” He snickered.

“Ma will love that.” Andy grinned. The thought of bringing Katerina home for Christmas had him feeling a bit nervous. What would his parents say after not seeing her for so long? Especially since right now he hadn’t broken up with Tori? Would they give him the same lectures that his bandmates were giving him?

“Ok boys, time to pony up. Who’s got what?” Jake asked as he looked around the table. He smirked as he looked over at his friends. Poker was a serious thing when there was nothing but miles and miles ahead of them until the next stop.

One by one each of the guys laid down their cards except for Jinxx. “Motherfucker!” Andy slammed his hands down on the table. “You can’t be serious?”

Ashley laughed as he raised his hands up as he did a small dance in his seat. “Hell yeah! Give me the money!” He reached over and pulled all the chips to him. “Pay up boys!”

“You suck!” Jake threw a chip at him and Ashley ducked.

“What are we doing for Halloween?” CC looked over at Andy.

The lead singer shrugged as he grabbed his water and took a drink. “I have no idea. What do you want to do? I think we’ll be in um...Miami if I remember.”

“Why don’t we get some costumes and go out after the show?” Ashley offered. “It’s two weeks away and we can check out the clubs down there. We’ll have a blast.”

“Sounds great to me.” Andy nodded. “I’m sure Katerina will love to go with us.”

“Ooo I can’t wait to see what costume she comes up with.” Ashley laughed. When he saw Andy glaring at him he threw up his hands in the air. “What?”

“That’s my girlfriend you fucker!” Andy growled. “Respect.”

“If we want to be technical…Tori—“ Ashley started.

“Fuck off!” Andy snarled.

“Enough both of you!” Jinxx looked at both of them. “Ashley, let Andy deal with this on his own. We told him what we think and now it’s up to him to deal with this. It’s his life.”

“Thank you!” Andy retorted sarcastically.

“Fine! But when everything falls apart don’t say I didn’t warn you.” Ashley pointed to him.

“Just fucking deal the cards.” Andy snapped. He was so tired of people telling him what to do, especially his friends. Yet that nagging voice in his head told him they were right. He hated that they were right. Fuck how he hated that.


~ ~ ~


Lying in the hotel room with Katerina, Andy rubbed her back softly while they cuddled together. After the argument on the bus with the band, it was just nice to lay here with the woman that he cared about in peace and quiet. He looked down and found Katerina fast asleep on his chest. He smiled as he reached up and caressed her cheek. It was moments like this that he began to fall deeper and deeper in love with her. She understood him and never asked more of him that he could give. She was his perfect partner.

Just then Katerina began to stir as she nuzzled against his neck. Her breath was hot against his skin as her fingers curled in his hair. Her body arched against his as she let out a tiny moan. Slowly her lashes fluttered as her eyes opened up. Instantly she smiled up at Andy. “Hey gorgeous.” She brushed her lips against his jawline.

“Enjoy your nap?” Andy kissed her forehead. He rubbed her back softly up and down.

She nuzzled against his neck as she nodded. “Mmm hmmm. Best part was the pillow.” She teased. Her fingers brushed through his hair as she kissed his neck. “I could lay here all day with you like this.” She murmured drowsily.

“Well I wish we could but I have soundcheck in a little bit.” Andy chuckled. He hugged her close and rocked her body against his.

Suddenly Katerina’s eyes opened wide and she sat up. “Shit!” She began to scramble off the bed. “I’m going to be late!”

Reaching out, Andy grabbed her around the waist and pulled her back on the bed. “Whoa there! Where do you think you’re going? Late for what?” He started to nibble on her neck as his hands cupped her breasts.

Katerina moaned and leaned back against him. “I have an appointment at the salon. While you boys are off making sure your instruments work right, I’m getting a makeover.”

Andy froze and then turned her around. “Kitty Kat, you know I think you’re beautiful just the way you are, don’t you?” His voice had a hint of worry in it.

Her face softened as she leaned forward and kissed him lovingly. “Thank you baby. That means more to me than you know.” She nuzzled against him. “But I’m not doing this for anyone else but me. I want a different look. Something funky and fun.”

Grinning, Andy kissed her back as he suckled on her lower lip. “As long as you know that I love you know matter what.”

“I do and again, thank you.” She threw her arms around his neck and hugged him. “But really I’ve got to go so I’m not late.”

“I’ll see you before the show, right?” Andy asked as he watched her climb off the bed and grab her shoes.

“That you will. I’m going to the salon and then I’m going to do some shopping. But yes, I will see you before the show.” Katerina told him. Once she had her shoes and purse, she walked over to the bed. “Now you be a good boy until I get back.”

“I can’t promise anything.” Andy smirked as he wiggled his eyebrows.

“If you’re a good boy you’ll get a treat tonight.” Katerina teased as she winked. She bent down and gave him a chaste kiss. “I’ll be back baby.” Waving to him she made her exit.

After she left Andy flopped back on the bed. He hoped that Katerina wasn’t changing everything about herself too much. He loved the way she was. She was perfect to him, inside and out. She made him feel safe and less anxious. When he was with her he didn’t have to perform his OCD rituals. She just made his life better. Katerina was his perfection.


~ ~ ~

“So where is our sexy Kat?” Ashley asked as he finished sliding on his leather pants.

The band was getting ready to go onstage in ten minutes and so far none of them had seen the model since they arrived at the hotel earlier in the morning. All of them were putting the finishing touches on their stage costumes, doing their hair or tuning their instruments.

“She said she was heading to the salon today but she’d be here in time for the show.” Andy slipped his boots on as he stood up. He looked in the mirror to check his makeup one last time. His eyes moved to the left and his jaw dropped. “Fuck me!”

“Maybe after the show baby.” Katerina smirked.

Andy whipped around to look at her. His eyes widened as his tongue snaked out to lick his lips and then play with his piercing. Her hair was cut so that it lay in layers around her face. But the biggest change was that she had colored her hair with an ombre look so that the bottom third of her hair was a vibrant magenta color. It gave her a badass punk rock look. Katerina wore a leather mini skirt with fishnet stockings and a black corset. Because it was a bit chilly she had a faux black fur coat on as well. Her nose piercing was back in with a small hoop to complete the look.

“Damn sweetie you’re looking hot!” CC laughed as he looked her up and down.

“You all like it?” She laughed as she spun around to give them the full look.

“Hell yes!” Ashley nodded his head up and down.

“Andy?” Katerina asked nervously. Despite the compliments she received from all the guys nothing mattered if Andy didn’t like it.

Walking over to Katerina, Andy kept his eyes focused on her. He licked his lips seductively and a smirk appeared on his face. His arms slid over her hips as he yanked her tight against his body. He smirked harder as he heard her gasp. Bending his head he brushed his lips against her ear. “I want to fuck you right here.” He whispered hotly.

Katerina shivered as she placed her hands upon Andy’s shoulders and squeezed them hard. His words reverberated through her as she stared into his blue eyes. His eyes were lust filled and she could tell he wasn’t joking one bit. Licking her own lips, she leaned close and whispered. “After the show.” She kissed his nose before walking away and out of the room.

They all watched her walk out before Ashley whistled low. “Hot damn Andy. You’re one lucky sonofabitch!”

Smirking as he grabbed a bottle of water, Andy laughed. “Yes, yes I am!”

(This is what Katerina's hair looks like)

Notes

FYI, the timeline of this story takes place right now at the tail end of 2013. The record the boys are talking about recording is Black Veil Brides IV. This is just a bit of a filler chapter but I hope you enjoy it just the same. I have major plans for this story but I needed little filler chapters to help move the story along.