Lost It All

The morning sun shone through the slit in the drapes as it illuminated the sleeping couple in a golden glow. Katerina nuzzled sleepily against the chest she was curled up around as her fingers slid through dark locks. She was having the most pleasurable dream. In the dream Andy finally kissed and held her just like she had been craving for years. He told her that she was the one he had been looking for. Lazily she opened her eyes as she came awake and she froze once she saw just where she was. She had her head lying upon Andy’s bare chest and her fingers were delved in his black hair. They were both naked and the sheet lay low on their hips as if tossed there as an afterthought. It was no dream, she thought to herself.

A shy smile spread across her lips as Katerina gazed at a sleeping Andy that lay next to her. His long lashes brushed softly against his cheeks and his full lips were turned up as if smirking, even in his sleep. His chest rose and fell with each breath and his arms were wrapped tightly around her as if he were afraid to let her go, even in his slumber. To her he was the most beautiful thing in the world. She wasn’t afraid to call him beautiful because that’s just what he was.

Her eyes roamed over his body and the settled on his left arm and the ink there. She always had loved his tattoos and never really had gotten a good look at them before. Biting her lip, Katerina used her fingertip to see what her eyes couldn’t. She began to trace each tattoo that she looked at. From his koala to the titles of his songs, they were just incredible. His body was a work of art. He was her David. Perfection.

“You do realize touching me like that is only going to get you more of what I gave you last night.” A husky voice interrupted her thoughts.

Katerina’s eyes shot up and she found two sensual blue eyes staring back at her. She bit her lower lip as she realized that Andy was wide awake. A smile spread across her lips as she let out a soft laugh. “Good morning. I didn’t mean to wake you up.” She found that despite both of them being awake, she whispered.

Andy reached over and brushed his palm against her cheek as he gazed into her eyes. Damn she was gorgeous in the morning. Most women told you not to look at them until they got their make up on. Yet Katerina was lying here with him and was all natural. Her hair was mussed up and yet she was the most stunning vision he could have woken up to. “You didn’t wake me up, Kitty Kat. I woke up when you stirred against me.” His thumb brushed against her cheek. Before he could stop himself he bent his head and kissed her softly. Her lips were just as soft as they were last night. The kiss was gentle and slow. Andy nibbled on her lips in between brushing his own back and forth against hers. “Good morning.” He whispered against her mouth.

Memories of last night washed over her as she kissed Andy back. She found herself arching against him as her fingers slid through his hair. Her tongue flicked against his lip ring and hearing him moan had her smiling. They nuzzled together as their noses brushed against one another’s. “I suppose we should talk about last night?” Katerina asked shyly as the kiss broke.

Nodding, Andy’s fingers kept brushing against her soft cheek. “I guess we should.” He whispered back. Licking his lips he took a deep breath. “I don’t regret a fucking thing, Kitty Kat. Last night was so---“

“Incredible?” She supplied.

He chuckled lightly. “Yes, incredible. I never knew I could experience something so intense with you and here I am wondering why the hell I waited so long.” He answered honestly.

With a blush staining her cheeks, Katerina buried her face in his chest. She felt his hand come up and brush back her hair. The words meant so much to her and she felt her heart melt. Turning her head, she looked up at him. “I’ve wanted what we did last night for so long with you. I’ve cared about you for so long. I just was always your best friend and I was content to stay that. At least I was a part of your life.” Her lower lip trembled. “Then you left.” She quickly put her finger to his lips. “I know why you had to do it and I truly fully understand. I’m so proud of you Andy for everything you’ve accomplished. But now that we’re back together again, I don’t want to lose you again.”

Andy gathered her up in his arms and rocked her against his chest. “You’re not going to lose me, baby.” He laid featherweight kisses along her temple. “We found each other again and only death is going to tear me apart from you.” He rubbed her back up and down. “Whatever this…is….I want it with you. I want this.” He found himself lost in her baby blue eyes.

Reaching up and grabbing the side of his head, Katerina gave him a passionate kiss. She waited forever to hear those words and she felt her heart nearly burst inside of her chest. “I want this with you as well. Right now we don’t need to put a label on it. The world always puts labels on things. They do it to make themselves feel comfortable. All I know is that I care about you so damn much and I’m comfortable with you. You make me feel safe and wanted.” She confessed.

“You are cared for and wanted, Kitty Kat.” Andy pulled her on top of him as his fingers cupped her head. “I cared for you since I was young. You are all I’ve ever known. You were the one who made me feel like someone, like something.” He told her. “You’re right. We don’t need a label. We just need you and I.” He brushed his nose against hers as he closed his eyes and breathed in her sweet scent.

“You have me, and I’m not going anywhere.” Katerina promised. “I’m here for you.”

Opening up his eyes, Andy took her lips in another fiery kiss. He moaned against her mouth as his hand slid down to cup her butt. He pulled her tight against him and arched up against her. Already he was aroused and hard for her. “Then let’s not go anywhere for another few hours or so?” He whispered sensually against her lips.

“Show me how much you care for me, Andy.” Katerina nipped on his lower lip. She straddled his waist and rocked against his arousal. Her thumbs brushed against his nipples as she smiled, hearing him moan.

“As you wish.” Andy rolled her over pinned her body to the bed. With a devilish look in his eyes, the singer spent the next few hours showing the woman he cared for just how much she was wanted and needed.

~ ~ ~

Andy and Katerina walked downstairs to join the rest of the guys for breakfast and they were holding hands as they gave each other shy smiles. After their morning session, they both got up and took a shower together. They took their time and then came downstairs.

“About time you guys show up. CC was about to eat the place out.” Jake joked as he looked up at his friends.

“Hey! I was hungry!” CC protested as he grabbed his juice and took a drink.

“I’m sorry for keeping you guys waiting.” Katerina gave them an apologetic smile as she slid into the oversized booth.

Andy slid in next to her and threw his arm around back of her. “Don’t apologize Kitty Kat. These boys needed to work up a good appetite.”

“Just like you?” Ashley asked as he smirked at the both of them.

Katerina blushed a deep red as Andy glared at him. “Some of us like to get our workouts done in the morning.” The singer retorted.

Twirling his fork Ashley chuckled. “I’ll remember that.” He looked across the table. “You look beautiful this morning, Kat. Kinda different. Great but…different.” He cocked his head.

“Thank you Ashley.” She grinned. “Hmm different? How?”

“I don’t know…happier?” Ashley offered.

Looking over at Andy, Katerina bit her lower lip and then smiled. “I am happy. For the first time in a very very long time.” She felt Andy’s fingertips brushing against her cheek and she leaned into them, almost nuzzling against them.

Ashley looked over at CC and they shared a secret look. “Yeah I can definitely see that.”

“Is there a laundry here at the hotel?” She asked. “I need to wash clothes before we get back on the bus.”

“Yeah Kitty Kat. It’s on the first floor. Do you need any help?” Andy offered. He was oblivious to the looks his bandmates were sharing. Instead his focus was on Katerina and her bright smile.

“No, I’m fine. I can wash my own clothes. But thank you.” She leaned over and gave Andy a soft kiss on the corner of his mouth. “I’ll catch up with you in a little bit?” She asked.

“Sounds great. I’ll come find you for lunch then.” Andy leaned over and gave her a soft kiss on her lips without thinking. “If you need anything, come find me.” He got out of the booth to let her out. He wrapped his arms around her and gave her a hug.

“I promise I will.” Katerina turned and gave him a kiss on his neck, right over his tattoo. Then she turned and looked at the rest of the guys. “I’ll see you boys later.” She gave them a wave and was gone.

Andy slid in the booth to find the four guys just staring at him. He picked up his glass of water and it was half way up to his mouth when he stopped. “What?”

“You have some nerve…” Ashley started.

“So you and Kat?” CC asked at the same time.

“Ok, hold the fuck up.” Andy put his water down as he looked at his friends. “First of all...” He looked at CC. “Yeah, Katerina and I. I care for her a lot.” Then he looked at Ashley. “What the fuck do you mean, I have some nerve?” He asked with a hint of anger in his voice.

“I mean you have some nerve leading poor Kat on.” Ashley glared at him. “She’s a wonderful woman and she doesn’t deserve this.”

Slamming his hands down on the table, Andy growled. “I am not leading Katerina on. I care for her and she knows just how much. I would never lead her on!” His blue eyes were glowing with anger.

“Oh really?” Ashley snapped back.

“Yes really you asshole!” Andy began to raise his voice. How dare someone question his feelings for Katerina? Especially his bass player who was with a different woman it seemed almost every night.

“Then what about Tori?” Ashley raised an eyebrow. “You remember Tori don’t you Andy? You know, your GIRLFRIEND?” He leaned over the table to get in the singer’s face.

Suddenly Andy went deadly silent as he paled. He leaned back in the booth and ran his fingers through his black hair as he swallowed hard. Fuck…

Ashley smirked. “Ah so you do remember her after all. When are you going to tell Kat that you have a girlfriend waiting for you back in LA? Or are you going to tell Tori that you reunited with your best friend who you’re now fucking?” He knew he was being outright cruel but Kat was too sweet to deserve this.

“Shut the fuck up.” Andy’s voice was small. He hated that Ashley had a point. Tori was waiting for him back in LA. True they had their fights recently and she refused to come with him on tour. They seemed as if they were in two separate worlds lately. However she was still his girlfriend. But Katerina was his; she’d always been his as far as he was concerned. He was never giving her up. In fact she could be the one. The one woman that he could see himself actually falling in love with. He could see a future with her.

“No, I’m not going to shut up!” Ashley growled. “You fucked up and now you have to realize it.”

“He has a point, Andy.” Jinx sighed. “You can’t lead Kat on. She lo—cares about you. She can’t be hurt like this.” He almost slipped and he knew Kat would hate him if he let that slip. “We know you and Tori weren’t getting along, but she doesn’t deserve this either.”

“You’re gonna have to make up your mind, dude.” CC pitched in.

“Will all of you just…shut up?” Andy hung his head as he held it in his hands. He hated that they were all right. He knew what he was doing to Katerina wasn’t right. Nor Tori. The truth was he wasn’t in love with Tori and wasn’t sure he had ever been. But she was his girlfriend.

“Stop acting like a class A asshole. You’re going to have to tell Katerina about Tori and vice versa!” Ashley told him.

“No!” Andy slammed his fist on the table. “I could lose Katerina and I won’t allow that to happen!” His heart began to beat wildly in his chest with fear. The thought of losing Katerina had him nearly breaking out in a sweat. He couldn’t picture life without her again. He did it once and he just couldn’t do it again.

For the first time Ashley’s face softened. “Andy, you’re going to lose her if you don’t tell her. For record, you two are great together. You’re great for her and she’s great for you. But if you want to be with her, tell her about Tori. Break it off with Tori. You can’t keep doing this.”

Ashley’s words hit home as he stared across the table at his friends and bandmates. Andy knew that they were right. He had to break up with Tori and tell Kat. But when? When would be the right time?

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