In The End
Dark past
*Jasmine's POV*
I was in my room at my house, I love my room it's painted black and and coverd in posters and pictures of Andy Biersack and Black Veil Brides. I love them, they are the good reason i am alive. I have been going out with this guy named Jackson for a couple month's now, he is fucking awsome. He told me he loved me and that he wanted me as his wife, that made me look past all the abuse i had put up with, with him it was always love i felt, always the thought of he was there for me. Until today, i saw him kiss some girl i didnt know, i instently died. I had ran to my house heart broken, they werent home, if they saw me they would beat my ass for skipping school. I ran to my room and sat there in peace for about 8 hours before the front door opened. "JASMINE!! GET YOU'RE FAT ASS DOWN HERE!!" she was home, and she was drunk i could tell, i heard it in her voice, she was always drunk. "Coming mom!" i walked down stairs my whole body shaking in fear. "Why were you not at school! the office called and told us you were not there!" she screamed in my face, i could smell the whisky on her breath. "I felt like shit and came home to rest." i looked at her, she didnt believe me. It was technacliy the truth, i felt like shit cause my Boyfriend ripped my fucking heart out and threw it on the ground. "WHY CANT YOU BE LIKE THE OTHER KIDS, NORMAL AND GO TO SCHOOL AND NOT HAVE BEEN BORN!YOU STUPID BITCH YOU RUINED MY FUCKING LIFE!" and with that it began, she just wouldnt stop she beat me till i was numb, i felt as if every part of me had been destroyed. Mentaly and physicly weak to the bone. "Go to your room i dont want to look at your ugly fat ass!" i got up and slowly made my way to my room. I found the little black box i kept my blades in. I took one out and looked at the glistening edge, i saw tears in my eyes as i looked at my reflection in the blade, then i took it and pressed into my skin "fat, ugly, bitch, i wish you werent born!" is all i heard in my head. I felt like i was a wast of space, all i was, was a lame excuse to live. I made a promise to Amanda as long as i am alive she will be there for me and once i was outta here she would savve me from all this shit. I hope she was right cause court was in one week, and i was dreading the reaction of the jusge to my apperance. They would probaly denie our custody battle once they see amanda and her purple hair, they will say she is not fit and i would come back here to be used and abused again. Maybe worse since i tried to leace and escape like amanda did.
I was in my room at my house, I love my room it's painted black and and coverd in posters and pictures of Andy Biersack and Black Veil Brides. I love them, they are the good reason i am alive. I have been going out with this guy named Jackson for a couple month's now, he is fucking awsome. He told me he loved me and that he wanted me as his wife, that made me look past all the abuse i had put up with, with him it was always love i felt, always the thought of he was there for me. Until today, i saw him kiss some girl i didnt know, i instently died. I had ran to my house heart broken, they werent home, if they saw me they would beat my ass for skipping school. I ran to my room and sat there in peace for about 8 hours before the front door opened. "JASMINE!! GET YOU'RE FAT ASS DOWN HERE!!" she was home, and she was drunk i could tell, i heard it in her voice, she was always drunk. "Coming mom!" i walked down stairs my whole body shaking in fear. "Why were you not at school! the office called and told us you were not there!" she screamed in my face, i could smell the whisky on her breath. "I felt like shit and came home to rest." i looked at her, she didnt believe me. It was technacliy the truth, i felt like shit cause my Boyfriend ripped my fucking heart out and threw it on the ground. "WHY CANT YOU BE LIKE THE OTHER KIDS, NORMAL AND GO TO SCHOOL AND NOT HAVE BEEN BORN!YOU STUPID BITCH YOU RUINED MY FUCKING LIFE!" and with that it began, she just wouldnt stop she beat me till i was numb, i felt as if every part of me had been destroyed. Mentaly and physicly weak to the bone. "Go to your room i dont want to look at your ugly fat ass!" i got up and slowly made my way to my room. I found the little black box i kept my blades in. I took one out and looked at the glistening edge, i saw tears in my eyes as i looked at my reflection in the blade, then i took it and pressed into my skin "fat, ugly, bitch, i wish you werent born!" is all i heard in my head. I felt like i was a wast of space, all i was, was a lame excuse to live. I made a promise to Amanda as long as i am alive she will be there for me and once i was outta here she would savve me from all this shit. I hope she was right cause court was in one week, and i was dreading the reaction of the jusge to my apperance. They would probaly denie our custody battle once they see amanda and her purple hair, they will say she is not fit and i would come back here to be used and abused again. Maybe worse since i tried to leace and escape like amanda did.
7/3/13