Novocaine Hearts

Lexa's POV

After a few more hours at the hospital, there was still no change in Ashley's condition.
"We should probably go home. It's getting late" Juliet spoke softly from the corner of Ashley's room.
"Yeah, we probably should... Do you need a lift home Lex?" Jake asked.
"Yeah, Nate and Sax took the car. They're probably wondering where I am."
"Should we wake Riley and tell her we're leaving?" Juliet said, rolling her eyes.
"She's going through a really tough time... Give her some slack" I said nudging her with my shoulder.
Andy sighed and went over to Riley. He placed a hand on her shoulder and gently shook her.
"Hey, we're gonna get going. Are you gonna stay?" He whispered.
Riley yawned and stood up from her place.
"Yeah, I'm staying. I'll let you know if anything changes" she said, her eyes looked drained of all hope.
Andy nodded and started to head for the door, when Riley pulled him back and hugged him.
"I'm sorry... About before. I'm just really upset about all this..." she huffed just loud enough for us all to hear.
"It's okay" Andy agreed, hugging her back. "We're all worried."
Riley nodded as she pulled away from Andy.
She looked over at us and waved, then returned to Ashley's side.

"So that was an eventful day" Jake sighed after he dropped Andy and Juliet off at their hotel.
"Yeah... That's one way of putting it" I chuckled. "I hope Ashley will be okay..."
"I'm sure he will be" Jake shrugged.
"So why aren't you staying at the hotel with Juliet and Andy?" I asked curiously.
"Oh, we figured they'd want their privacy and it's better that we had a house for the kids. Hotels never have what you need" Jake explained.
"Fair enough..." I said, not sure how to continue the conversation.
"So, umm did you think about what we were talking about today?" Jake asked carefully.
"Which part?"
"About moving to LA. Or staying in Malibu."
"Oh, right, that, umm, I really don't know... I'd still have to talk to Nate about it. I mean, maybe... I have to move out of my place anyways. I just don't want to be 5 hours away from them" I said, thinking about the arguments this would cause.
"I get that..." Jake sighed.
We were silent for a moment then Jake pulled onto my street.
"Well sorry about all the drama today and the fact you had to deal with Riley" Jake said rolling his eyes.
I was really getting sick of everyone putting Riley down.
"She's going through a tough time... it can't be easy to see your partner in pain like that."
"What's new?" Jake shrugged.
"She just had a fucking miscarriage and you think she is being dramatic?!" Once the words were out, I knew I fucked up. Riley didn't want me to tell anyone.
Jake slumped in his seat and his mouth made a little o shape.
"Shit... I wasn't meant to say... You have to pretend you don't know!" I begged.
"...No wonder she broke down... "
"Exactly! You have to swear you won't say anything!" I stressed.
"But that's what she's wanted for years!" Jake continued to ignore me.
"Jake! Promise me you won't say anything!" I yelled, gripping his arm.
"Has she told Ashley?" He asked giving me a hard look. Like Ashley should know about something like this.
"Yes. Ashley knows" I said quietly.
"Wow, I totally believe that" he said sarcastically.
I frowned. "Why don't you believe her? I do."
"Her word doesn't mean shit" he said flatly as he pulled up to my place.
"You're some friend" I snarled and yanked the car door open.
I stormed out of car, in hope Jake would drive off, but he followed me.
"Lexa, stop! I don't mean it like that! Come on!" He said, catching up to me. "This is stupid, we're fighting over Riley and she's really not worth it. Can we just hang out and not talk about that shit and just talk about us? That's all I want to do" Jake pleaded.
I turned to him and sighed. I ran my hand through my hair in frustration.
"So I'm suppose to ignore how insensitive you're being?" I accused.
"Okay... Look, it's a long day... I'm just tired. I'll talk to Riley tomorrow if that will make you feel better. I am worried about Ash" he continued, making his brown eyes melt like chocolate.
"Fine. I want an update as well. Pick me up tomorrow?" I said, giving him a quick smile.
"Sure thing" he smiled widely and headed back to the car.
I huffed a sigh and pulled out my cigarettes. I could already feel the shame creeping up on myself, but I really needed one.
I perched myself on the front porch step, inhaling the fumes into my body, making my brain relax.
How do things get so fucked up like this?
"Hey..." A voice said as the front door opened.
I turned and saw Parker standing in the doorway.
"Hey..." I said, turning my attention back my cigarette and gazing up at the night sky.
"So, I heard about Ashley. Is he going to be okay?" He asked, sitting on the step, as far as he could from me.
"I don't know... I think he will be" I said, not giving him eye contact.
"I'm sorry about earlier... I've been using you as an excuse and blaming you for everything, when really this is all my fault..."
I could tell Parker was looking at me; waiting for me to say 'no, I'm the fuck up, it's my fault', but I didn't.
"I've just been so angry with myself for doing what I did... It really hurts me to hear you say that we're over, but I made that happen... And I'm sorry for doing that to you. I do know you. I know that your favourite hangover food is cheese fries. I know that any David Guetta song makes you resist the urge to dance. I know that the ending scene of Big Hero 6 makes you cry... every time. And I know you are right... we are better as friends."
His every word made me ache.
He was giving me a sincere apology. He was wasn't be snide or sarcastic...
I looked at him and firmly kept his eyes down on his hands. I noticed tears falling down his cheeks.
"Parker..."
"You don't have to say anything... I just need to know that you don't hate me and that we can at least try and go back to being friends" his voice starting to crack.
I felt like I was going to cry myself.
I pulled his small frame towards me and flung my arms around him.
"Of course PJ. That's all I want for us" I whispered.
Parker relaxed and started to cry into my shoulder.
"I never wanted to hurt you" he sobbed.

Notes

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